In a Shop Today I See a Way Polar Bear in a Secondhand Likeness

photo by the author
I had to work in a cave last night.
I’m afraid.
Bring me back.
Wastin’ the water when electricity was comin’. [sing verse]

Can we be expendable?
I don’t even know if that’s the question.
Do we just acquiesce to everything,
ride out time
like it’s a bump in the road?
I feel my larger spheres
pent up in here,
and I know I’m expendable.

I don’t know how to find time.
I’m just a hole in the ground
in any largeness I make.
People just want to get me for it,
counting victims in my pen.
A few loyal survivors
have the guts to hear me
and not have me taken off.

I just wanna do away with it all.
Do you say that,
overwhelmed by existence,
how it doesn’t all work out,
how you go home one day,
and people have put a fence,
blocking your access road,
how you get slapped for kindness and sincerity,
how you can’t even trust yourself
to be good
when your free will’s compromised
by the shade from black night?

I’ve put on this flesh I know.
A body of man I’ve put on.
I wear existence’s sleeves,
and sometimes I think it’s a punishment.
I just want my boy to come home.

How do you know a poet’s worth?
They remind you of yourself
where you touch ground.
They grab existence
and almost show it to you.
They tell yah where you’re at
when you’re on the moon,
and they will lay with you in hell if you’re sorry
of the pentance you’re payin’.
I’ve grabbed a purgatory slot.
Hear my worth
as I try to find my time today.

Who you be lookin’ for,
someone with words better than me,
someone who can grab the times today
and get all Tennyson on yah?
I’m alone with Shakespeare you know,
grabbin’ his hat and puttin’ on my day,
all sound and fury.
I get all field on yah.
I life this to you.
I'm not an idiot.
I’m a Neptune
in the history of fishes.

I can get Barbra Streisand.
I can put on symbols like they’re lunch.
I can really tag you
in the sound of these words
when they’ve jumped off a cliff
and pulled a child’s pants down
to show you they’re lost there
and grow up fighting any sticky business
that puts you there.

I’m about a wheel and chain
on the road to time.
I want you to grow up
and give chances out on freeways.
I want you to be kinder than you are,
not as clannish
always in control.
I want you to be better than that,
not even giving me a word I’m supposed to touch.

I’m your poet today,
like it or not,
that brings poets’ meanings home.
I’m Jack Field.
Test my word
in life.
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The Damage We Do to Earth

photo by the author
Is by human nature human nature changed?
Let’s defeat our purpose.
Let’s go around the Mulberry pole again.
Let’s just not listen to our teachers.
I will by human nature outcast this person,
in the middle of a human unity project,
where the Integral Yoga was set down on Earth,
and I will do this willfully and strongly,
not caring for the consequences.

This is how it’s done,
if you want to protect the group from someone.
You don’t give them also divine eyes,
and you give them no public venue,
and by that I mean you keep their voice unheard,
and you ghost them forever and ever without end
in your little social bubble.
It’s high time we changed that,
in such a powerful place as ours

that holds such meaning for the Earth.
Are you with me?
I think not.

The opposite poles of human unity,
that’s the whole way to rape the system,
when we keep them apart.
I’m a whirlwind of the proper material.
Don’t you confuse me with panic.
I have my rocking chair,
my golden years.

I am the toilet that speaks
one more time.
I just want you to consider your own goodness.
Why would you castigate me?
Because God’s the author of punishment,
and God’s called you to punish me?
Sri Aurobindo gave this commandment:
thou shalt punish the wayward sadhak?
The Mother despised sin
and dealt out punishments to people?
The Integral Yoga hates sin?
The One cannot stomach me?

Let’s look at your business.
You don’t know who you are.
You are not the sadhak with the name you call.
You are not the Aurovillian you sign your name as.
You are a person beyond time.
You can’t get this right.
You think it’s some far away,
and you are supposed to act in human terms.
The Zeitgeist says it;
you carry it out.

There were times and there are places
I would not be the ass among you.
Your morality is relative to the times.
You can’t see straight
when you face a sinner
your town and country hates.
This is rock bottom being human.
You see it unleashed on the globe,
this breach of oneness.
We are killing each other over it.

Oh Islamic State was a model for our eyes.
They thought they were justified
in bringing the hell they did
to punish people,
or the Nazi and the Jew.
The scapegoat they made
was another attempt at Nature
running something into the ground
in her symbol wrought her blind actions speak.
The availability of the Jew as the scapegoat
came to show us we wear scapegoating shoes
as the modus operandi of ego-led society.

You don’t have a field for this:
where we take our scapegoats and make them human again.
You just hate
and justify your hatred
by the human mass.
You are not godly citizens.
You burn witches.

You have been given a vehicle of thought
unparalleled in the history of thought
to arouse your stomach,
to change your heart,
to detach from this human clay
the pettiness of human life,
the vile emotions we feel for one another
and see beyond the play,
and bring yourself out of this turmoil
and into the light of day.
You quote these fields all the time.
The Mother said this.
Sri Aurobindo wrote that.

The Integral Yoga can heal anything.
I have been among you 20 years showing that,
but you cannot see it.
You don’t want to.
You will not apply the lessons you’ve learned Integral Yoga.
You will just deny,
hate,
and castigate,
and as a group you do this.
What do I do to bring you to peace
over this person named Donny Duke?

I offer you my home
for a station of tea,
and you won’t even answer me,
stubbornly justified in your ill will
by human morality that has no part God.
I am the reason for Auroville’s fall,
and I graft upon it
the deception of a poet
that hides his sins with godly words,
wants to commit them among you if you but let ‘im,
deceiving the elect with holy lore.
You don’t know the price of sin.
You don’t get away with it,
even if no one finds your ruse.
Say you’re a sadhak close to God.
You have no way to hide,
and you learn to do what you’re told
to get out of your mess.

It does not take forever.
Low and behold I have sinned and healed that sin
and given the beauty of art
to give you examples of healing’s ways,
and now it’s reached astounding.
You will not sit up and take notice.
You will not even let it in your groups.
No one can read it.
No one can see it.
You hate art
the scapegoat of the day makes,
the one hated among you
by an agreement of the times.

Ladies and gentlemen,
will you castigate me for all eternity,
name my sins and how ugly they were,
without ever seeing the unexpected good that can come from woeful deeds,
without ever admitting that God has a plan
even for one such as me?
This is stubborn willfulness
out of the hour of God,
away from the lessons of truth.
Who is the greatest sinner?
I forgive you of your self-righteousness.
I understand your state.
I don’t blame you for being human,
but we can’t stay in this state.
We are called to greater life,
and we have to go together or none.
The people that refuse,
God just takes more time with them.
Are you one of those?

This poem was recently rejected by Collaboration, A Journal of the Integral Yoga, whom I have submitted numerous poems to over the years, hands down the publication I’ve submitted to most, because it is a publication of our yoga, it’s name claims inclusiveness, and it’s by fellow Americans, but they have not published a single poem. I have this theory, and I submitted this poem to prove it to myself at least, that they will never publish a poem I submit, regardless of the quality and truth of the poem. This poem explains why.

In other news, the admin of the Facebook group Friends of Auroville approved it, although the other Auroville Facebook groups I submitted it to didn’t, and it was submitted to Auroville Today and Auroville News, and Auroville Today at least replied rejecting it. Auroville News did not reply this time, and they too I’ve sent poems to over the years.

The Last Stadium on Earth

Have brain damage,
that’s not really politics.
It’s a funeral.
Who would see The Last Tree Trunk on Earth?
Critics say it’s a good movie.
It’s spills bad.
It was filmed inside Iran
in secret trees.
It’s got a wallop to it.
You see freedom up close
thrown out in the street and beaten on.
You see it shot with knives.
This is a real camera folks,
and girls just want to have their scarves
not choke them to death.
Is anybody watching this?
Can anybody care?

The Seed of the Sacred Fig
was put in the wrong house.
Brilliant you hear the arguments at the table
theocracy speaks,
but it’s shot in red and white,
and we practice human nature
with a murdering gun.
We do not show human nature.
A father and daughter are not that red apart,
suddenly,
unexpectedly,
so the plot can aim its gun.
Would a family go mad,
horribly so,
for a strength to resist evil
that none of them felt they had?
An entire lifetime together
with daddy milk
and a mother devoted to everyone,
it lands on the freeway
I will hunt you down and kill you
love said.

How tall these movies are
in our backyard.
They bring humanity under the gun.
Has human nature been robbed of its sense?
It’s blow out of proportion
so it can impress audiences
and score award points.
We see human nature sick and dying
in movie after movie,
and we can’t get over the villain.
He is so perfect in his craft,
miraculously a monster
just doing the impossible.
We love to hate him,
and if it’s a her all the more.

They’ve confused us
with what’s real.
Human people don’t act like that,
and these movies have us all alarmed,
riding out our hate
in tickets sold.
What’s the point of all this mess?
Make more bucks,
and let’s take these artistic challenges
and make them rob people wear.
My God that’s a talented movie
just on our disease.

Alejandro in Problemista
almost makes the villain human,
but then he wrote the apology.
We’d have to go to Sing Sing for a good movie
in emotional fare,
so Shakespeare on Earth.
Let’s not get too gay in National Anthem
and spoil the show.
We have purpose in our lives
this movie knows not of.
You wear a good Holocaust
in A Real Pain,
tryin’ to show it right,
on the level of human eyes
a human drama.
What am I doin’?
Showin’ you my movie list.
I watch a lot of movies.
I’m really into them.
This is the way we spend human nature,
in identifying roles.
We get involved with a part.
We identify with a character,
a plot.
It wears our lives
in symbolic meaning.
We get at the stuff.

We invest ourselves there
oh so strongly.
We’re raped
with a bad ending.
A good movie can make us feel good about ourselves
and improve our lives.
It can heal.
It can do bad things.
It can tear up our lives
for a moment of all meaning.
It is so very powerful,
cinema.
It goes directly to the starting point,
where our lives came from and why.
Alejandro is good at this.
Amazing creativity
those scenes where he’s talkin’ to someone,
and it shows the whereabouts,
the representative part.

Drum roll please.
We are creative edges of time.
We stand and sing our lives
an entertainment for deep meaning.
So many roles wear our lives.
Can you get at the audience?
Being after being,
shrouded in unimaginable mystery,
have a total immersion gamble with our lives.
Of course we like movies.
We are there.

A Rumpelstiltskin comes along and plays the keyboard,
and we’re on bended ground
unable to figure out destiny,
but we can get back to ourselves.
Audience after audience prevents us,
the cliffhanger of our lives
their entertainment point,
but they value our lives
in our bid for freedom
and to discover who we are.
It’s their thrill.
They clap when the angels sing.

Are you crazy yet?
You’re just gettin’ started.
There is so much behind the scenes
in the dragnet of who you are.
I cannot show this to you,
the person you are on high,
the actor that has donned
this long line of all these lives.
I can only keep tryin’
in poem after poem and my symbolic life,
but it’s a farce you know.
I’ve really let yah down,
right where you needed me,
and there’s no way to make that up.
When you see it’s a game,
though a meaningful one,
know like you know the body you wear,
because you have seen it with your own eyes,
that you are an actor in a cage,
a player playin’ time,
the first thing you do is fuck up.
It’s the proud of human nature.
It’s so stupid.

It prevents me from showing you who I am
and who you are,
unimaginably big,
but that’s life,
a goddamn movie

that just throws you for a loop,
and you can never get it right
until you stop the pretendin’
and come together on yourself
what you need beyond time.
You’re not the audience I’m speakin’ to when I say
I’m puttin’ on those shoes.
Feel the thrill?
A poet measure
this poet smiles.

How do you chew on that poem?
We grow in stadiums.
A Watcher watches our lives.
It’s dream big.
It’s not who we are the audience
in prerecorded time.
This is not the first time creation mount.
Great DVDs we live
for their viewing pleasure.
We are that Watcher you see,
not the audience pang,
and we can’t get over him.
It’s too stadium big.
It transcends time and space,
but above our roofs it’s there,
the hidden keeper of our lives,
who we return to,
the one who started it all
in our little universe.

You don’t believe me I know,
but you’d like to.
The hidden meaning of our lives
are compassionate witnesses
beyond number and form.
Everywhere they look
they are there
the meaning behind creation
on this bended globe,
in this starstruck universe,
and they change us with a look
the bearing on time.
They are the Watchers behind time
watchin’ the movie us
them very selves in time.
Can you feel them?

Your true self,
they bring you home.
Months of capacity
open those gates,
if you’re ready for them again,
and you’ve been there before
for a brief moment
a time or two
in all your many lives
where afterlife grows.
It's a certainty you remember.
It’s a certainty you hold in your skies
that you farm into your very ground
I’ve planted this poem with,
a vehicle of my own return
one sudden afternoon
before the death of me.
You come up with yourself
in the ultimate game of life,
the ultimate paradox of life.
That’s a round of applause.
You hear the whole stadium sing
your great escape,
your victorious mile
I put better in progress.

Alejandro,
he did it.
I’ve seen what movies
list as our great surprise.
Too mundane to take it
where we meet beyond the universe,
they give it gas and go.
Are you hearin’ this?
Same image credit as above

In Holocaust

photo by Douglas
What’s the biggest love you ever had?
The receipt is in the bag,
and you’re probably
torn apart by it.
Good how you doin’?
That’s the ode of life,
our first knowledge of it.
You can’t get over its size.
It jumps out and bites you all the time.

There’s somethin’ here.
Your love has nothin’ to do with it.
It’s a list of hard.
You can never reach it.
Look at the dog.
That’s payment of love let me tell you.
The point of this
somethin':
Donny get your head out of your ass.
Get so close
makin’ it look
like people look,
hear their voices,
hide their fears,
and they are the lovers of your life.

You want me to tell yah
this dangerous love?
You look
awful.
Do it,
love you in the perfection of love’s care,
and you’re this simple little organism
that must awake to itself
as the horseman,
that you are the starship,
you are the unicorn,
that shatters time and all barriers
to arrive back at the house
the One,
who wears time as his robe
and space as his molecule.

Ever the mystery of God finds God,
and God himself is a station of the One,
created before time began.
He bids you a self-discovery bigger than himself
but that can fit into an atom and a plant
or any ring around the rosie,
but only the human being can make it real to itself.
The dog just loves its master.

Now I am clothed in time,
but I have worn this identity
in an unimaginable sphere,
and that brief moment has determined all my life.
I have to deal with God’s love
putting me on those tracks again,
day in and day out,
and I have been given a load to bear
that makes me hated by you.
Only the most exceptional people,
and they are few,
will make my life easier
with their care and concern,
give the comfort you get every day
from friends and family.
I am almost completely alone in this world,
and I don’t think you can grasp this isolation
it hurts so.

So I have taken the world
what to make of it,
and I have found God.
Wrapped in unimaginable mystery,
he holds my hand
and lets me see things you don’t
and gives me keys to man’s change,
and I can still love my boy
and my best friend
and my dogs.
I can still love the world.
I can love mankind.
I can love it all
because I have gone through a holocaust of human abandonment,
and I discovered what love is.
God is love my friend.
God is love.

The Glorious Traditionalist

David ben Alexander (photo from his blog)
Tribute to the poetry of tradition.
I’m an art student.
I’m blowin’ the lid off poetry.
I can’t get poetry right to save my life.
If you study poetry you’ll get it.
It’s just about our choice words,
painting things right.
I dare my pen.
Let’s follow some tradition,
and I’ve exposed poetry
to be in the lair of predicament,
every syllable counted and every i dotted.
Someone on the internet will like it.
These Germans,
they like system and order.

Picked her brother apart,
except that Skeptic’s Kaddish fella,
who goes around publicly
and discerns poetry,
and he can make you meet poetry in a formula.
It’s not weathered beat.
It’s not the formula he’s lookin’ at.
It’s his heart and matter.
There’s a haiku,
or a whatchamacallit he’s discovered
that no one’s ever heard about.
A poet has these easels,
and he makes them shine
with the testimony of word.

He passes the feeling test.
He goes beyond words into something else.
How elusive it is to say.
You know you’ve met a poem,
but let’s hand it to ‘im will yah?
David Daylight,
ben Alexander,
measured right
everybody call home.

You can’t find this on paper.
It’s in the poet’s test,
what he meets inside himself to write the poem,
a sensibility in time
that’s brought him world after world
of be the horseman in the room.
He moves humanity along
in great waves of identification
and another brand of thinking
that goes for the goal of everything,
its reach and purpose in time,
how the world was made and why,
and can I be pretty in it?

Every little thing
is a poet’s mule,
the suddenness of his mile
(the traditional lift to pronoun
stutters my feet),
not to figure out and keep,
to brandish science in the room
or the philosopher with his stone.
We must show them to you as they are
with their mystery still behind them
made greater by the sacrifice
but revealed
in the paradox of life.
Oh my great big friend David thank you.
You’re the bravest man alive.

This poem was reblogged by The Skeptic’s Kaddish

A Shoulder in Immensity

photo of the author by a camera salesman, image by the author
I wanted to die.
Everybody knows how to die.
Sufferin’ from panic disorder
my only friend.
I have no comfort in anyone,
and this woe is me will not say it properly.
I cannot believe
I have no worth to anyone.
I’m just a field of crap,
and I have seen God’s eyes,
feel the world’s pain like my own.

I sit in a height of thought
where almost no footing is.
I’ve taken you there
in our thought realms unawares.
The All-Negating Absolute has me by the throat,
and even God is buried in immensity.
I cannot discover God one last time
as who we need in immensity.

3:33,
28-years-old,
I can’t give God the proper numbers.
He is too right and wrong.
Mexican,
He took my pants off and raped me at seven.
It hurt too much to tell anybody.
I was cleaved.

Why am I telling you this?
Afraid to tell anybody,
I put back action
comin’ up in the rear.
Squealin’ inside me,
they crossed death too
a courier
of the same disease,
those little tummies.

I can’t give you molten lava
and expect you to cherish me.
I can’t even say my name.
I’m a brick in a wall
that you don’t identify with,
bricks in the same wall.

Up here,
I’m a way
to photography that wall,
to hold it out open to daylight.
I’m a measure of that peace,
but you can’t come to terms with me.
I’ve sinned to much for God cares,
or I remind you of sin.
I’m an enigma with an open door.
God the carnage at Troy,
sit back everybody
and tell me what hero came home.
The canonical field of Troy.

Do it again,
I stand before you now.
Will you hear me?
We swim in oceans of blood.
Don’t underestimate
life.
There’s a moment
before you
when you can give it to the challenge
it tasks a man with,
and he must stand alone in immensity
and be the voice no one wants to hear
turning every ear on
to a future in ideas
that will save us all
come that future,
whether I’m the voice that says them or not.

See me today
sittin' with you holdin’ your hand
likewise tell me
the world has turned its back to you too.
A pencil in agony,
it’s too early to tell,
and I’m a measure of that immensity.

So brothers and sisters,
I’d help you.
Those tummies are in good hands.
You cannot electrify them like that,
put them on lurch
little boys and little girls.

A needle in a haystack
give you a tap.
Raise Supermind,
I’d be one in the world.
Get ‘im a chair
to latch from our very disease
and bring us all to peace.

You know how it works:
no ignoring you
world enigma.
My OMs are here.
My front door’s open.
Enjoy a body of ideas.
Do it again,
I’m really intercepting your thought.

Playing God

photo by the author
About concessions surpassing condition in this mutual lust’s core. /
From Don to poet in 30 seconds.
I’m on poet duty.
I’m a hole in One.
Can I tell yah our range card?
The ego sits in its bunker
wonderin’ over friends and family,
excused about relationships
the very center of relationship.
Hey you I’m a world,
a big planet unto myself,
the center of my see.
You have not that validity.

You’re just out there,
and I’m in here
the substantial train yard.
I wanna melt these barriers down,
but I grab myself again,
and that’s impossible.
I really love you,
and that’s sweet and kind.
No it slaps you in the face sometimes.
I’m all animal whirl
when someone gets my goat,
but I mitigate it
with you must be in there too,
just fightin’ your own wars
really feelin’ yourself
a wounded soldier.

Can we get out of this?
I try.
I don’t know where to put you
if you don’t see my worth,
if I am just a blob in a corner
to you.
We sing awhile
the injustice in that.
Oh my God do I compensate.
I think I feel every hole in humanity.
I so understand your pain,
and it moves me to tears
I’m embarrassed to show.
My God you have a rough time
little Gaza boy
alone in his bed
of refugees.
I don’t know where to turn
from your pain
Parkland shooter
realizin’ what you’ve done.

I’m a hole in the fence
to a greater life
I can’t fit my own self through,
but I’ve been there
a time or two,
on the other side of that fence,
miraculously arrived
in the very vision of God’s eyes,
and I know we are safe
caught in the lifetime passage dream
to bring us all out of strife
at the end of the tunnel.

My God I would be there now
if I could unrealize the dream.
So I sit and suffer
in a peculiar sense of humor
that sees beyond the show.
I know we will be made right.
I see this in my puppy dogs
trying to crawl into me to feel safe
and ease their loneliness.
I am the master of love to them,
and I am but a prototype
based on God.
We’re headed somewhere,
you and me and the whole damn crew,
so I hold my dog and comfort you,
who set bars alight
wantin’ to get at this lust’s core
to dream to change it.

I would not be bothered safe.
Now tell me now would you?
Would you give it to ‘im,
this poem over there,
if he were your little boy in trouble?
We can fly the world on a single point
where suffering goes
and capture the whole poem.
Oh my baby dog Nithish,
we wish you a happy birthday
on tomorrow’s wings.

Burden’s Doctor

Can we reach the delivery of the poem
that our being intercepts?
I am worried about contradictions
and just pissing people off
instead of reaching them.
Nithish is suffering.
I don’t know where to stop that.
No one seems to notice
because it’s not polio,
but it’s heartbreak nonetheless.
He misses me,
a mother to him
for many years,
the most important person in his life for many years,
and I’m not the only one saying that;
his heart does.

He’s in mourning,
and that’s not recognized.
It’s not even mentioned.
He’s not allowed to talk about it.
There is no outlet for his pain.
His mother knows it’s there,
and it makes her very angry,
and she punishes him for it.
What’s a kid to do?

He cries.
He gets angry.
He implodes upon himself,
but there is no issue from this dilemma.
It just keeps getting worse.
He cries.
He carries on,
and the pot boils over.
Now he’s desperate,
and when you’re 13,
adolescence has given you weapons
the child you are still can’t handle.
It’s a dangerous moment in Nithish’s life.
We want what’s best for Nithish,
and if we want anything else,
we are really playing with fire.

What’s his name,
Pride?
You wanna let ‘im shoot your kid?
It might be a gentleman
that gives you honor and social prestige,
for a little while,
but when you put it above your child’s needs,
above goodness and mercy,
you wreck your life
in the fall you have from Pride,
when it’s gotten to the point
even you know you’re wrong,
and that you’re treating your child badly.
But you don’t have to fall.
Put down your pride
and address your child’s needs,
okay Sandiya?

I’ve looked at soul models.
I’ve looked at grief,
and you’ve heard me on Facebook tellin’ about it
and all over the damn place.
I don’t come on this platform
to insult and offend.
I’m much better
in the werewolf of time
reading you right.
You took a bath tonight.
Son of a bitch!
We are closed.
Abolish One on the way.
Who do you get to come after you,
Mr. Cat Stevens
talkin’ about the Peace Train?
No you get a me pointing the finger at you
for all these abuses.

I respond to my muse.
I respond to the image of my boy.
I know he’s hurting.
Now can I spread this on the table?
He’s really hurting.
These are deep wounds he has to live with,
and they just eat him alive.
You don’t know the pain of suffering
when you’re just a little boy
all mixed up in adolescence,
your body a whistleblower,
and everybody knows you’re confused.
You’re standin’ there with a sense of self
no amount of world can resolve,
and you can’t grab the world by the tail
because it has you
so tightly in its grasp
you just want to please it,
make it go away.

He’s an adolescent,
in the most difficult years of his life,
the most confused,
the most tender
where he’s sensitivity it hurts.
He is already a well of suffering,
and then someone took from him
his support and his comfort and his home,
in his mind of things,
took from him his daddy,
and you all know how I mother people,
in a way that made it I’d died
with no contact allowed ever again in his life.
Oh my God that hurts
in the very substance of yourself,
and it’s a pain that won’t go away,
even if you want it to.
That boy hurts.
Please see that.
It’s terrible for him.
It’s the end of the world.
Oh Sandiya please listen.
For God’s sake listen.

Yeah I know I’m studying your attention
like I need to end this poem.
Not quite.
Transact another line.
Who has turned over,
that’s always a thought.
Believe me,
we can fix this right.
Everyone would have run had he been 13,
a teenager in years
with their what's up.
There’s enough fuel,
still childhood left,
to remove this pain,
to take these scars out of his life,
take him to his blue book.

Healing is the first thing I’d do Sandiya.
I heard his manhood
depending upon this time.
Please,
open,
open up in there,
and put down your arms of control
that’s squeezing the life out of him,
and let him be with me,
and let him be with you,
so that it doesn’t hurt.
I’m the denomination now,
and that doesn’t hurt.
Do we throw this boy to the wolves or what?

A kid his own age,
George,
I know very well.
I really know kids,
like it’s the focus of my life.
You know
that boy’s in trouble,
and you know what has happened,
and you know Nithish needs me
because I can make it right.
Pay him back on the outside
what he needs on the inside to heal,
and give him me for his birthday,
and give him the happiest birthday he’s ever had.
Give him what he needs.
Let him on his birthday
be with his daddy,
and here I am.

Prayin’ for the Hour of God

This poem was posted on the private Facebook group Auroville International. If you have been following recent posts on this blog, I’ve chronicled how they’ve declined everything I’ve tried to post on that Facebook group, totaling nine posts. Now, do I erase all I’ve chronicled? No, I think this might be valuable to show what it means to be heard.

Many a short to a poem.
They won’t do definition.
They get Auroville
working
in its nitty-gritty.
I’m a mountain boat.
We’ve gotta come up with a freeway
to blanket taxes.
Are you on the hate side of reason?
Does anybody get your goat?
Would you like to see them punished?

I’m a round about can.
You’re supposed to do this in your underwear.
I’ll let them know
they have my vote today,
and I will drop all punishment lists
and let them be there,
on the star of human unity,
and I will include them in the new human being.
How can I ensure all this happens?
I don’t require of them anything.
I am just kind to them,
whatever they’ve done,
whoever they are.

If it’s really close to home,
some dirt they’ve done,
my gee that hurt
I will tell them,
but I’m not going to hate you in this conversation.
I’m going to battle you with love.
It’s my duty as an Aurovillian.
Can’t you see the problem?
Human unity cannot hate.
It cannot exclude anyone
from its acceptance speech,
meaning you ignore no one,
and all get your goodwill.
Are we right on that?

That’s the holistic speaker.
That’s how we bring human unity into the room
and not just talk about it.
You with me kids?
I didn’t think so.
I’m just teachin’ yah how to be human,
and you refuse me.
Are you still a mountain to my molehill?

Unconscious everybody
take the city apart.
It can’t stand from within.
A foreign body of law
then comes in
and lords it over all of yah.
Let’s get the goats out of the shed.
She’s not gonna happen
you have no more scapegoats.
That’s a big horse you’re ridin’ Auroville,
and you’ve achieved human unity.

What else is it but including everyone
in the worth you give human being?
You don’t have to take them to lunch.
You don’t have to tie their shoe.
You give them the time of day
like you mean it.
There’s nobody that gets excluded from this.
Alright Aurovillian,
measure up.

Now look behind you.
I’m on your report card.
I open to you
a scientific altar ego,
the scapegoat of the day
where sexual sin meets the railroad tracks.
Nailed on the Cross to suffer with Jesus I said
this isn’t working.
I can’t author you along.
I can’t show you art.
I can’t startle you with spiritual experience.
World experience doesn’t impress you
or the quality of my education
Classical Greek and all that.
Even that I’m a kind human being
that cleans his own house
and makes buttered bread for yah
doesn’t move your feet.
Tada!
It’s a miracle
my boy back this evenin’,
and it wasn’t supposed to happen in a million years.
That made me human to you.

Okay let’s go.
We got so many who just need good faith
to add to their humanity to make it work,
or at least put try on the table.
Come on let’s go brother,
and let’s get goin’ sister.
Made you human enough to look
center stage,
and that’s where we need to be blessed,
oh people of Auroville.

That was an impossibility
you threw away my opportunity
that boy’s comin’ home.
We’re going to do some work
in other children’s bedrooms,
and I’m just going one, one, one.
Silly boys, eight girls,
this tie your shoe.
In the nominal,
in the history of God,
where will we hunch those things?
I want you to lay down,
and we’re gonna move through dream to spiritual experience.
That’s my forte with kids,
and I know how to do it,
and I love it there.
Not the shoes.
A little open-minded—
if I don’t touch a worry root,
okay?
Now let’s get God manifested on this Earth.

photos by the author

Looking Forward

Posted on my Twitter/X feed February 1, 2021