The Roles of the Machine

Nithish and I
Take the questionnaire.
I have problems existing
the way you want
Council Bluffs.
An opera,
just what the world needs right now,
our post-traumatic show,
and I can’t do anything to stop you.
You’re the stupid muse.

Who’s to listen to?
I’m talkin’ storybook Earth.
Are you wrapped around the axle with it?
My God it’s got me by the balls.
I’m in Nithish’s pan.
Other than that I’m free.
You would not stage this.

I’m too honest for broad noon,
and I’ve got some big thoughts Earth don’t wanna look at,
I mean in your society room.
Have you ever seen an Earth poet?
You’re supposed to.
That’s what we’re all made of.
We’re speakin’ to all mankind.
Earth today,
we get mad at the word man,
but it farms poetry, you know?

Supercalifragilisticexpialidocious,
I’m in a limousine,
but let me get more Tennyson on yah
and Marilyn Monroe.
You think poetry’s got to have capital letters
and sing about verses and stuff.
Emily Dickinson would agree
poetry comes from the inner voice.
Slipped into you a mind swell
the beautiful rose of poetry,
even if it’s not a football field
of the huddle of verses
that high sound poetry to you.
I give you an inner lunch.

Okay we’ve brightened our books today.
I give you an inner sound,
tryin’ to find your head.
It’s all Madagascar.
Have I opened a movie on the showroom’s floor?
Train’s coimin’.
It’s all about them dice
watch your hedge podge in
where you put your blinders on.
Cute animals, eh?
And everybody’s longing to be free.

Be not normal men and women,
but reach above our kind
and show how it’s done,
ain’t that the anthem?
Movie after movie
of the greatest stories on Earth
get by our living room with this.
Would you believe they keep you in line,
even in your underwear?
Ask the surveillance movie Drop from start to ticket
or Seven Veils,
and I’m sorry I’m giving them credit,
but I can’t watch every movie in time
that littles us,
I mean like right now as we’re havin’ lunch.

So many lies are told
to manipulate your mind
and bring all the bad country to bad men
so demon they shine
with the impossibilities of human nature
taken to that degree.
They’re demon bad.
My mother sucked me when I was three,
and my step-mother terrorized my mind,
and I had to hide from her in the woods
until my father got home.
Teacher after teacher put me in the corner,
the kind that hate little boys all over the globe
for bein’ who they are,
and they had a score to settle with men.
Give a world this schoolin’,
and let’s see how she acts.
You can’t trust nobody.

Now I’ve got a little boy in the lurch
taken from me and reamed,
who grew up with me since he was five,
but I was there from birth
his daddy.
It makes you all nervous inside
that I’m speaking about him in this poem.
Exactly.
Can I show you the hurtin’ in the machine?
You think it’s child abuse
or a host of other ills,
men bad to women,
or a sudden and frank genocide,
or tumultuous war.
It’s our wrong seeing that causes harm,
how we bake bread
willfully and ignorantly
with the guardians of the universe resistant to change.

I love my little boy,
and that’s right and proper,
but I’m a White man and he’s a Tamil boy
in a red flag zone.
Surely his parents must be right
in beating him,
slapping him across the face,
not letting him go out of their sight
or surveillance system
or visit friends
so he will not contact me.
Do you know what this does to a child?
He doesn’t write poetry.
Now buy him anything he wants
and wine and dine him.
Surely he’ll stay on our side.

What’s the beef you reckon?
I made better miles with him,
and he preferred me to them.
It’s all in the menagerie.
Parents got rights over their children’s lives.
Just ask Child Welfare.
The mother gave them a bribe
and the police
and paid my lawyer more than I was paying him.
This is India and this stinks,
but who gives a damn?

Is anybody listenin’ to this poem?
I mean he’s got to go with us,
how you make a child today
serious
to produce that child
the staple of the machine.
Now let’s give ‘im bright airs
and promise him the moon
when he’s older
if he complies now.
Study hard kid.
Your worth is in those grades,
and your future depends on them,
and we will ignore your dyslexia by ignoring it,
you lazy little bastard.
We’re smart can’t you see?

Now what’s a boy worth?
I’ll tell you in this poem.
He wrote some miracles
that transcend time,
all in anticipation of being taken from me.
His parents hate those poems
and don’t let ‘im read ‘em.
I’ve put ‘em out in a blog
I’m addin’ to now.
A few more posts and it’s complete,
the body of his work now.

Now this has been shut off,
squeezed out of him
in a parental vice par none.
You like that?
That’s okay with you?
Who the hell are you anyway,
ordinary people?
I heard you.
The Indian consulate the Indian dear,
kick ‘em
to give this boy what he needs.
For fruit to work
tell ‘em read this boy.

The Anthem Plus the Burning Grass

photos by the author
Spoken word poetry,
till I get it,
I leave it alone.
Wow, it’s left alone.
In case of good poetry break this glass.
I just sit here and discover,
letting the word explain itself
in the giving of lines
and in the hurtin’ of the world.

If I show you the pain will you stop it?
Will you even know it’s there
where you feel your pain?
Oh no another Holocaust movie
all about bein’ numb.
I can’t give you this star-glow
to ride the world on its tongue
feelin’ people.
I’m not a robot I’m free,
but the price of my freedom is your pain,
your wellbeing I feel like my own.

It’s shoots me all the time,
or it gives me stars.
I’m there with you
in the delivery room
of another bucket of world today, huh?

I see through all these sleeves
of world maker’s art,
a world upon world
in the moments with mine,
a conglomerate of worlds
of this group of people and that,
of this person alone,
of all the mini worlds that make up this world
that we call Earth.
Can you see that
simultaneously with your own?
I taste you there.
I know you’re there.

How do I communicate this to you
so you feel it too
like you have your children’s hands in your own,
like your best friend’s smile,
like your mother’s love?
I don’t die there,
but I question God all the time
and Sri Aurobindo.

These are terrible times,
and they get ready for tomorrow
terrible too,
with a past just as terrible
starin’ us in the face.
Let the good times roll,
and my God they do.
How sweet life can be
in its gathered moments,
how manageable,
but why does it always add up to this:
life is not a bundle of joy;
life gets us in corners
and does bad things to us.
Can you understand that?

Why does the world go on like nothin’s happenin’,
like it’s free and easy and clean,
so standardized?
They scream on the news bad news
to an audience of normal,
of tie your shoe,
of everything’s alright here, ain’t it?
Not in every bubble.
So much quiet desperation it has been said.

Do you know the rovin’ hellhole?
Somewhere on Earth
at any given time
they’re eating each other alive.
It’s the worst place on the planet
for a moment.
Hell swallows them whole,
unbelievable cruelty,
and nothin’ to redeem them.
Goddamn that stinks.

Alight I’m blessed.
I live in a little pocket of warmth
and forgiveness.
I have opened the doors to humanity
in the stadium of my room.
I ride there all day
figurin’ you out.
I take great thoughts to the skies,
but I must remember I’m a low man on the totem pole
in your eyes.
I do nothin’ here
that grants you my room,
that shows what I’m doin’
larger than life.

A poet of world standing
I am not.
I’m a poet among many thousands
in the availability of today,
and no poetry comes along and wallops your head
or smites your heart
from my pen.
I just spit in the breeze.
That’s the trash dumpster,
and here let me give it another poem.
I put my dogs to sleep,
and I wish you goodnight.

All united and happy
they think.
Come here Luna.
Get your head… [vision of Luna Rottweiler putting her head in a hole in the ground]
One doggy at a time.
Oh fuck I’m on Candid Camera.
He’s just gonna go for it.
Well then the surprises and bad secrets,
heart is ruined on the same thing:
waging war on the Fourth of July.
What’s the significance of your dog
growing?
Into a likeness of you.
What I didn’t have:
put every slept of it
complete.
My God,
they should be spilled.

What is it this time?
Dr. Milk Powder—
I haven’t called you;
I’ve had enough,
is that the plan?
You know he’s lost his boy.
They’re travel uneasiness
way to stutter.
Don’t you see?
Alongside with it it’s real.
You know his boy’s called
not in awhile.
Suffer this,
and it just last of people’s hittin’.

Do you like people?
Is this fruit juice?
Why is it we always hate somebody,
run there all the time?
You really enjoy this life don’t you?
It seems all fair winds.
Need to pull her pregnant
with the grenade.
It will get you every time.
Just look around the world.
Just look at your neighbor.

Do you know how we get along?
Do you know how we get through this?
We don’t be monsters to each other.
We don’t be mean.
We try to be kind and giving
in our painful moments.
This is overcoming the world
and getting better at yourself.
It’s a love angle,
and we need more love.
That house definitely,
where you put your hat off,
where you sit around.
Love those people,
the people you’re life-in’ with.
You don’t know how much this counts.

It’s all an effort I know.
We have to overcome ourselves to do it sometimes,
but we have to give this baseball
to all the standin’s in the world,
so we can have a world that works.
Is that so hard to believe?

You know the world is full of holes.
Even the divine is negligent
and will crush you to make the world,
will just stand by and watch.
These are not pleasant times,
but we have to endure them,
tryin’ to find joy inside,
tryin’ to give our children a good time.

What else is there?
Spirituality’s a pole we lean on.
There are surprises in consciousness if we let them.
There’s a world maker’s art you can see.
These are deep down inside,
past the underwear,
past all that gets in the way.
There is strong inside,
even after you’re shattered.

This world’s a dream maker’s art,
so much more than show,
but this is a common dream we are having
that the significance of dream shows.
We’re living out a representation
telling a story,
and all our lives add to that
One involved,
and all our lives keep going.
We’re where time loops around itself
a great big mechanism of being
that has definite boundaries
that we can cross and get out of here
after the whole has been complete.
We’re goin’ somewhere together,
and yes some escape before time,
but they’ll end up on another world soon.

This great big ship
has a destination you know,
something worth time,
something bigger than ourselves
and is ourselves at the same time.
I’ve gone out of the universe you see
and been myself on high.

Stupid me,
I describe experience like you’ll believe it,
but you can kill me and it’ll still be there.
It can’t be erased from time.
I’m a nobody because of it,
liftin’ up my room
for you to see.
It’s got crosses on it
and monkey bars,
because I’m just like you,
but I’ve been given a breath of supernal air,
and I need to tell you about it.
It’s affected my vision.
I see the world.

I’m just like everybody,
but I don’t live like you inside.
I live with you and inner vision.
I get rocked by joys
that fill my noon
the outside world doesn’t bring me.
I feel oceans of sadness
I’m not in the world about.
I feel existence pain,
and when I walk outside,
drive my bike through the town,
the countryside,
it’s a wonder-weft of miracle,
and I feel every person I come across.
I see the One inside,
and all the many representations surround me.
I can’t get over it.

Now I’m here
with another poem.
Let it ride the day
if you read it,
because it puts us together
if you escape,
because it’s here
we learn to live again
after your world has been taken away.
Can you see me now?
Can you hear?

In a Shop Today I See a Way Polar Bear in a Secondhand Likeness

photo by the author
I had to work in a cave last night.
I’m afraid.
Bring me back.
Wastin’ the water when electricity was comin’. [sing verse]

Can we be expendable?
I don’t even know if that’s the question.
Do we just acquiesce to everything,
ride out time
like it’s a bump in the road?
I feel my larger spheres
pent up in here,
and I know I’m expendable.

I don’t know how to find time.
I’m just a hole in the ground
in any largeness I make.
People just want to get me for it,
counting victims in my pen.
A few loyal survivors
have the guts to hear me
and not have me taken off.

I just wanna do away with it all.
Do you say that,
overwhelmed by existence,
how it doesn’t all work out,
how you go home one day,
and people have put a fence,
blocking your access road,
how you get slapped for kindness and sincerity,
how you can’t even trust yourself
to be good
when your free will’s compromised
by the shade from black night?

I’ve put on this flesh I know.
A body of man I’ve put on.
I wear existence’s sleeves,
and sometimes I think it’s a punishment.
I just want my boy to come home.

How do you know a poet’s worth?
They remind you of yourself
where you touch ground.
They grab existence
and almost show it to you.
They tell yah where you’re at
when you’re on the moon,
and they will lay with you in hell if you’re sorry
of the pentance you’re payin’.
I’ve grabbed a purgatory slot.
Hear my worth
as I try to find my time today.

Who you be lookin’ for,
someone with words better than me,
someone who can grab the times today
and get all Tennyson on yah?
I’m alone with Shakespeare you know,
grabbin’ his hat and puttin’ on my day,
all sound and fury.
I get all field on yah.
I life this to you.
I'm not an idiot.
I’m a Neptune
in the history of fishes.

I can get Barbra Streisand.
I can put on symbols like they’re lunch.
I can really tag you
in the sound of these words
when they’ve jumped off a cliff
and pulled a child’s pants down
to show you they’re lost there
and grow up fighting any sticky business
that puts you there.

I’m about a wheel and chain
on the road to time.
I want you to grow up
and give chances out on freeways.
I want you to be kinder than you are,
not as clannish
always in control.
I want you to be better than that,
not even giving me a word I’m supposed to touch.

I’m your poet today,
like it or not,
that brings poets’ meanings home.
I’m Jack Field.
Test my word
in life.
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A Counselor

photo by Douglas
I remember now.
I built a mile high stadium.
Stupid show,
look what Hookah did
in the center of your program.
We’ll always have that voice.

I would murder in words anything I tried to say.
We have our long lists
of hurt that’s been put out there.
It’s how we tax the world.
It’s how we feel better about ourselves.
Would an actor see that?

And if I reduce it to a role,
do I bleed responsibility?
Do I reduce it to an abstraction
in the places I’ve bleeded reality,
the places I’ve burn?

I’ve grabbed the sun,
live on a height of thought and life
I write about all the time.
I see the representation,
the symbol we all are.
It eves my day.
What then?

How is it possible to hurt someone and not know their pain
because you’re a writer of sky dreams?
I communicate with the dead,
have them all around me,
each little life I’ve lit on fire
in the bucket of intimacy.

I don’t think the possibilities of healing surround your room.
You are not stark walking the symbol.
You know the outer lair.
An inside all day long,
you don’t approach that.

You don’t know what it’s like to love the world
in those places you’re sorry,
breathing those words all day long
to a you know you’re heard
way beyond man.
I don’t think you’re aware of the price you pay
when you become aware of man.
The pain you feel humanity.

But on the cutting edge of this
is who I make it up to,
a little boy growing in time.
He represents you.
He represents the world’s eyes,
and I am there for him.

We can take joy on the Earth,
sweet, innocent and kind,
holdin’ our humanity close.
It’s not all a razor blade.
We can get sweet on the Earth,
and when you get home,
you can love the world like a little boy,
and your representation grows.
photo by the author

A Penny for Your Thoughts

photos by the author
We have everything to do
with being creatures on a role planet.
Our time in space
blackens our time in thought.
I promote myself
spits in the wind.
Art and thought,
I wonder if you feel anything
derelict.
I’ve perished this bloom.
Since everybody’s here,
except any majority of people,
I might as well clear my throat.

What do I hog to you today?
I wanna pull existence out of the hat,
be right on the ground of being.
I want you to say, "that’s me."
I put it in flower pots.
I sit here all day and fight it,
our anonymous with each other.
This is stadium big.

We are all points in space
too big for our britches.
We see ourselves huge in other’s eyes.
I’m talkin’ about ourselves.
We feel and think and be
the center of any room,
so big to ourselves,
and even if we are not the reason everybody’s there,
we see reality that way.
Take us off the megalomania lists.
I’m just talkin’ what it means to be human,
or the dog in the corner,
or the ant in the windowsill,
and you know that plant think?
It’s just not corralled its self-aware.
It just does not pedal to the end of the room.
Those thoughts aren’t in motion,
but you’ve got a plant big there,
everybody in the room.

How do I toll the star-gate?
We are stuck on one world
in our rounds of thought.
We cramp existence here.
Oh my God the experiment,
would it be the same in every laboratory?
Can we count existence a cheat?
Does it handicap worlds,
universes,
or does it just stage things properly?
Do you know you’re blind, deaf, and dumb
to what you see on the inside
of the person sitting next to you,
or leaving a comment,
or submitting a poem,
or who’ve you’ve encountered on the news?
Their inner reality is blind to yours.
We have bleeding cakes
in dream and vision
and in our thought wares unawares,
but these things are disguised.

You can’t hear another person
fill reality’s room.
You only hear yourself.
Hey Jim,
let’s create a world…
Screw this.
You handicappers.
Can I explain the problems in the world?
Taste another person please.
Know they’re there
as big as you,
and if they think they’re bigger, well,
how many times does this happen
in any given day?
We have to mitigate it.

They’re just stupid that’s all,
like we all are.
I’m sorry you’re stupid too.
Do you treat everybody as you,
give them a break,
the benefit of the doubt,
or forgive them their trespasses?
You will have a million excuses
why you can’t identify with them.
Come on people please.
You’re the center of everybody’s pole,
as you imagine them looking at you,
but they put themselves there, you know?
We can get better at it,
givin’ people the credit they deserve,
givin’ people their own self
in our very own eyes.

Who’s humanity in the room?
Can a poet speak that voice?
Can we ride poetry there?
The productivity’s there
be a hurt bag
and find humanity.
And watch everybody spill the beans.

I am so very blacklisted,
I could rise to the occasion
and blossom humanity in my heart
and write it down in gifted speech,
and they would just turn and look the other way,
the stadium managers in humanity,
who’s who who block poems.
Now do you hear me
blossom humanity?
Now do you hear me blossom poems?
A bridge is the universe.
We are reality big.
It’s a major crossing.
Focus on the many aspects of this visual poem
heard while doing science.
In a round about way put it on your shoulder
I’m your friend.
It’s been a lot of Scottish in here.
I’ve done a daily
put people in the shoes with me.
He put the swim in there.
I am the render in time,
the render in space,
that’s the One I’m worth.

That farm,
that house is play,
here’s where you too,
not the separate consciousness
but the localized in space,
God of the whole evolves.
That’s the cherry blossom.
That’s where we all rise in sync.
I’m an American band I’m comin’ through your town, [sing line]
this is exactly what
the stadium room,
that cherry bloom.

The Smile of the Seed Bearer

representative photo by the author
The barriers of time,
I don’t think you ride them very well.
We come up against them all the time.
They’re in our shoes.
They hurt a lot.
You can’t see this for the daylight,
the great big prison playroom we are in.
It’s got walls to it
intrinsically built into each one.
That’s where our cameras go.
That’s how we feel this test.

Your loved one’s on the other side of the room
bakin’ pies.
In symbolic meaning that’s a round of thought
comin’ your way.
You’re separated
by time’s barriers.
You can’t get at each other
in the physical sense.
Great big surprises come your way
when you do,
cramped experience
that puts relationship to the test.
You hold them there
sweetly,
and then you may never see them again.

You don’t know what’s up,
what’s goin’ on.
I’ve left my poem alone in a fire
so heartfelt in love’s embrace.
I can’t get at the tires,
or maybe death’s got your door,
and your dog’s died,
the great big sloppy-lickin’ dog of your life,
and no ma’am I haven’t just lost a dog.
I’ve lost a reality so big
it took up half my room.
She was always there lickin’ paws
next to my life.
Losing her took my front teeth—
my daughter you know.

She’s melting time’s barriers
tryin’ to see me.
I don’t think you know the cough of this universe.
It’s horrifying.
I see her damn near every day
tryin’ to reach through vision to get me
near to her.
Death’s reality would spook you
if you knew it’s there.
I’ve muscle on this,
but I’m pigeon-toed.
I can’t just hold my girl
like she’s right up against me.
I hold her paw
in some astronaut’s gleaming
Interstellar there at the back of the house.
The confines of death,
they break us apart.

The muscle of time,
do you know it’s there?
It separates you from everything—
one little lonely being at a time.
Times barriers put us in a single physical space
where we can’t figure each other out.
We laugh out loud,
then cry.

You’re a pickup truck
that can’t pick anybody up.
You hold yourself
the station of the universe,
but you can’t move a goddamn thing
if others block you.
They are themselves the center station too.
The great paradox of life
makes you powerless to act
where you would give your right eye to act
but cannot,
in those places most meaningful to you
you have no power over.
You sit in time
scaling your life,
a sheer wall of belief and hard fact,
never any top in sight.
What are you doin’?

It puts us to the test.
Time’s warriors
bake and sell us at the flea market,
but this is not why you’re here,
and you last longer than Heaven,
a safe haven at the back of the house
to get our strength back
but that can trap us too.
We are so much bigger than death
that blinds us all while we’re still alive.
Hold your child close.
Can you protect him from anything
bigger than your arms of control?
Fiend death my friend,
he sucks.
What’s the answer to all this?
What are we doing?

The answer lies on a page in a WordPress blog?
Definitely,
if you know how truth presents itself.
It’s not haughty and it don’t wear spears.
It might even be embarrassing,
hittin’ in society’s low spot.
It would be uglier than the norm,
the vehicle of truth,
but it would shore you up with sincerity if you test it.
It would be one among a mass
that your truth sense recognize,
because it is beyond belief
in name and form.
It’s not part of the system
that ensnares you.

Come to my party?
There’s no snaking you there.
You just have to realize what’s been true all along,
but that you have never seen
because it’s so represent itself,
and you only see the representation,
the figure in time,
or the one who has wings
to be your figure of God behind it
you thought about a lot
but never really met.
The scientist
would just see a meaningless void.

Can’t you see I got your skies on?
I’m not pollutin’ the skies.
I’m not anything wrong.
Well how about that?
I hold my boy in love’s embrace,
and we figured out time.
That’s the challenger
for your social skies.
I’m not doin’ business.
I’m a love angle on time
to make us greater in it.
That’s the vehicle in the room.
Can you dig it?

The limits of time,
they are both normal and strange.
You can’t be in two places at once
a sudden trapdoor
to a greater life.
You are either who you are upstairs
or the little I down there livin’ life.
I’ve seen this juxtaposition,
where I got out of time.
It was a railroad.
Greater times are comin’.

Now I just comb my hair and wash my face
and shoot my gun?
No I land this in your lap
reachin’ through a poem to you.
It’s fresh meat now,
but where will I be when I am dead,
and you’re readin’ these words?
Look around the room.
Am I there
a thought stroke?

That’s life,
you know the big one.
Strict society belt
won’t even let you think this to yourself.
I’m bein’ looked in on by me
with a question:
how much longer you runnin’ half the house?
You will have a future
integral
with who you are on high.
My God this is big,
and we meet time’s barriers down
the because in the room.
I’m comin’ after you
foldin’ time,
a lesson in reality
completely out of the script.
You’re gettin’ that script.

I’ve come all the way from the ground up.
I’m not an existential crisis.
I know who I am.
I’ve been shot that’s all,
ghosted by most everyone,
put out to pasture.
What do you do with that,
and you identify with the world,
hold it close your livin’ self?
You have gone out of time
and been the big who we are,
enough to see it,
enough to be it
to know it’s there.

I’ve seen outside the symbolism,
outside the roles we play.
Even if you call it a computer simulation,
figuring the unknown with the known,
whatever you call it,
I’ve been in compassionate reality,
the bigger reality beyond this one.
I’ve seen the real thing.
No one counts this
as a thing to be known
where animals food our feeding faces
as our reality,
no depth to it,
no meaning,
nothing behind,
except Gods to worship and obey
or enlightenment’s sweepstakes
that bring you empty shell.

Can’t you see beyond time?
What’s bigger than the universe?
Is that just empty skies?
What’s bigger than playpens?
I’m a figure on that.
So like the show
to give you the universal accepted scapegoat
as the one to show.
I can’t get my name in public.
I can’t even write it down
anywhere near heard.
Is that just because I’m lying?

Can I show you my flag?
It’s not rainbow screwed.
It’s your heartbeat
and mine
symbolizin’ time.
It’s where everybody goes to school.
It’s the time of day
in this poem.
It’s where we all meet
at the end of the classroom.
I’m sorry it’s me,
but hello I’m yours.

The terror is only a being in time.
The face of evil,
It can’t get at that larger you
in transcendence’s sphere.
It has no power there.
It can only rattle your cage.
Anything it does to you
it’s not doing to you
but to the actor in that cage.
This is the meaning of no harm
can come to you.

It’s beyond time
time's relevant,
time's keeper,
truth's formula,
but it can act within time and space
with impunity,
with absolute, unhindered power.
It is bigger than evil.
It has eyes on you,
not to save your life
but to bring you home.
It does not stare you down.

It doesn’t even guide you
with any advice.
It’s up there.
You’re down here,
but it’s comin’ to meet yah.
It’s comin’ to be who you are down here.
This is the plan of Earth,
what her victory skies.

You are a crossroads to that.
We are at Earth’s great turning point
to land ourselves there.
I am a seed bearer that is all.
I come to tell you what’s comin’,
and if my voice don’t get out
someone else will.
This is the mystery time hides,
why it put you in a straight jacket,
why it won’t leave you alone.
Can you understand me?
Do you see what I’m doin’?
I’m meetin’ you with your maker
who is you.
I’m solvin’ the mystery of time.
I’m giving you wings to grow.
Take my hand please,
these worded verses,
and make it all worthwhile.

Protracted,
a polar bear’s smile.
It’s gonna take a long time to reach Supermind.

It’s not there at our feet.
It’s not your garden grow.
It’s not at the hoof of your horse.
It has to be as common as a cold
for you to see it.
The more people up there
for a moment’s gleam,
it holds you up there
breakout sweepstakes.

This area’s comin’ into our view portal now
the hesitancy in time.
It’s comin’ your way in poems
Emily Dickinson’s undiscovered continent
she looks out on from her pier.
Rumi’s love poem
says you can only see the sun by the sun.
Did we see him there?
Now this poet speaks
in plain as day.
I’ve reminded you of Supermind
in Savitri’s care.
I’m just the outcast that says it.

Now hold me close.
You don’t have to do nothin’,
just read the poem
the miles that you work today,
the poem that you reach today.
It’s such a piano to
look at the subway
and see supernal skies.
Stand the subway of time.
Is that tomorra mornin’?

Emergency level
truth’s barriers,
time’s walls.
There’s a lot goin’ on.
Right at the turning point.
Except for the money I wanna tell you somethin’.
Your morality drinks beer.
You’re not the captain of the ship
people.
You’re who we go to to take our stories off.
Right here for you
on your mark, get set…
The restrict we have,
we put it on things.
We use safety to protect ourselves from safety.
Actually a lot right here.
We’re movin’ on.
What’s your plan,
bring us all to safety?
That one சாவி,

I’m inside a poem.

The Last Stadium on Earth

Have brain damage,
that’s not really politics.
It’s a funeral.
Who would see The Last Tree Trunk on Earth?
Critics say it’s a good movie.
It’s spills bad.
It was filmed inside Iran
in secret trees.
It’s got a wallop to it.
You see freedom up close
thrown out in the street and beaten on.
You see it shot with knives.
This is a real camera folks,
and girls just want to have their scarves
not choke them to death.
Is anybody watching this?
Can anybody care?

The Seed of the Sacred Fig
was put in the wrong house.
Brilliant you hear the arguments at the table
theocracy speaks,
but it’s shot in red and white,
and we practice human nature
with a murdering gun.
We do not show human nature.
A father and daughter are not that red apart,
suddenly,
unexpectedly,
so the plot can aim its gun.
Would a family go mad,
horribly so,
for a strength to resist evil
that none of them felt they had?
An entire lifetime together
with daddy milk
and a mother devoted to everyone,
it lands on the freeway
I will hunt you down and kill you
love said.

How tall these movies are
in our backyard.
They bring humanity under the gun.
Has human nature been robbed of its sense?
It’s blow out of proportion
so it can impress audiences
and score award points.
We see human nature sick and dying
in movie after movie,
and we can’t get over the villain.
He is so perfect in his craft,
miraculously a monster
just doing the impossible.
We love to hate him,
and if it’s a her all the more.

They’ve confused us
with what’s real.
Human people don’t act like that,
and these movies have us all alarmed,
riding out our hate
in tickets sold.
What’s the point of all this mess?
Make more bucks,
and let’s take these artistic challenges
and make them rob people wear.
My God that’s a talented movie
just on our disease.

Alejandro in Problemista
almost makes the villain human,
but then he wrote the apology.
We’d have to go to Sing Sing for a good movie
in emotional fare,
so Shakespeare on Earth.
Let’s not get too gay in National Anthem
and spoil the show.
We have purpose in our lives
this movie knows not of.
You wear a good Holocaust
in A Real Pain,
tryin’ to show it right,
on the level of human eyes
a human drama.
What am I doin’?
Showin’ you my movie list.
I watch a lot of movies.
I’m really into them.
This is the way we spend human nature,
in identifying roles.
We get involved with a part.
We identify with a character,
a plot.
It wears our lives
in symbolic meaning.
We get at the stuff.

We invest ourselves there
oh so strongly.
We’re raped
with a bad ending.
A good movie can make us feel good about ourselves
and improve our lives.
It can heal.
It can do bad things.
It can tear up our lives
for a moment of all meaning.
It is so very powerful,
cinema.
It goes directly to the starting point,
where our lives came from and why.
Alejandro is good at this.
Amazing creativity
those scenes where he’s talkin’ to someone,
and it shows the whereabouts,
the representative part.

Drum roll please.
We are creative edges of time.
We stand and sing our lives
an entertainment for deep meaning.
So many roles wear our lives.
Can you get at the audience?
Being after being,
shrouded in unimaginable mystery,
have a total immersion gamble with our lives.
Of course we like movies.
We are there.

A Rumpelstiltskin comes along and plays the keyboard,
and we’re on bended ground
unable to figure out destiny,
but we can get back to ourselves.
Audience after audience prevents us,
the cliffhanger of our lives
their entertainment point,
but they value our lives
in our bid for freedom
and to discover who we are.
It’s their thrill.
They clap when the angels sing.

Are you crazy yet?
You’re just gettin’ started.
There is so much behind the scenes
in the dragnet of who you are.
I cannot show this to you,
the person you are on high,
the actor that has donned
this long line of all these lives.
I can only keep tryin’
in poem after poem and my symbolic life,
but it’s a farce you know.
I’ve really let yah down,
right where you needed me,
and there’s no way to make that up.
When you see it’s a game,
though a meaningful one,
know like you know the body you wear,
because you have seen it with your own eyes,
that you are an actor in a cage,
a player playin’ time,
the first thing you do is fuck up.
It’s the proud of human nature.
It’s so stupid.

It prevents me from showing you who I am
and who you are,
unimaginably big,
but that’s life,
a goddamn movie

that just throws you for a loop,
and you can never get it right
until you stop the pretendin’
and come together on yourself
what you need beyond time.
You’re not the audience I’m speakin’ to when I say
I’m puttin’ on those shoes.
Feel the thrill?
A poet measure
this poet smiles.

How do you chew on that poem?
We grow in stadiums.
A Watcher watches our lives.
It’s dream big.
It’s not who we are the audience
in prerecorded time.
This is not the first time creation mount.
Great DVDs we live
for their viewing pleasure.
We are that Watcher you see,
not the audience pang,
and we can’t get over him.
It’s too stadium big.
It transcends time and space,
but above our roofs it’s there,
the hidden keeper of our lives,
who we return to,
the one who started it all
in our little universe.

You don’t believe me I know,
but you’d like to.
The hidden meaning of our lives
are compassionate witnesses
beyond number and form.
Everywhere they look
they are there
the meaning behind creation
on this bended globe,
in this starstruck universe,
and they change us with a look
the bearing on time.
They are the Watchers behind time
watchin’ the movie us
them very selves in time.
Can you feel them?

Your true self,
they bring you home.
Months of capacity
open those gates,
if you’re ready for them again,
and you’ve been there before
for a brief moment
a time or two
in all your many lives
where afterlife grows.
It's a certainty you remember.
It’s a certainty you hold in your skies
that you farm into your very ground
I’ve planted this poem with,
a vehicle of my own return
one sudden afternoon
before the death of me.
You come up with yourself
in the ultimate game of life,
the ultimate paradox of life.
That’s a round of applause.
You hear the whole stadium sing
your great escape,
your victorious mile
I put better in progress.

Alejandro,
he did it.
I’ve seen what movies
list as our great surprise.
Too mundane to take it
where we meet beyond the universe,
they give it gas and go.
Are you hearin’ this?
Same image credit as above

In Holocaust

photo by Douglas
What’s the biggest love you ever had?
The receipt is in the bag,
and you’re probably
torn apart by it.
Good how you doin’?
That’s the ode of life,
our first knowledge of it.
You can’t get over its size.
It jumps out and bites you all the time.

There’s somethin’ here.
Your love has nothin’ to do with it.
It’s a list of hard.
You can never reach it.
Look at the dog.
That’s payment of love let me tell you.
The point of this
somethin':
Donny get your head out of your ass.
Get so close
makin’ it look
like people look,
hear their voices,
hide their fears,
and they are the lovers of your life.

You want me to tell yah
this dangerous love?
You look
awful.
Do it,
love you in the perfection of love’s care,
and you’re this simple little organism
that must awake to itself
as the horseman,
that you are the starship,
you are the unicorn,
that shatters time and all barriers
to arrive back at the house
the One,
who wears time as his robe
and space as his molecule.

Ever the mystery of God finds God,
and God himself is a station of the One,
created before time began.
He bids you a self-discovery bigger than himself
but that can fit into an atom and a plant
or any ring around the rosie,
but only the human being can make it real to itself.
The dog just loves its master.

Now I am clothed in time,
but I have worn this identity
in an unimaginable sphere,
and that brief moment has determined all my life.
I have to deal with God’s love
putting me on those tracks again,
day in and day out,
and I have been given a load to bear
that makes me hated by you.
Only the most exceptional people,
and they are few,
will make my life easier
with their care and concern,
give the comfort you get every day
from friends and family.
I am almost completely alone in this world,
and I don’t think you can grasp this isolation
it hurts so.

So I have taken the world
what to make of it,
and I have found God.
Wrapped in unimaginable mystery,
he holds my hand
and lets me see things you don’t
and gives me keys to man’s change,
and I can still love my boy
and my best friend
and my dogs.
I can still love the world.
I can love mankind.
I can love it all
because I have gone through a holocaust of human abandonment,
and I discovered what love is.
God is love my friend.
God is love.

The Glorious Traditionalist

David ben Alexander (photo from his blog)
Tribute to the poetry of tradition.
I’m an art student.
I’m blowin’ the lid off poetry.
I can’t get poetry right to save my life.
If you study poetry you’ll get it.
It’s just about our choice words,
painting things right.
I dare my pen.
Let’s follow some tradition,
and I’ve exposed poetry
to be in the lair of predicament,
every syllable counted and every i dotted.
Someone on the internet will like it.
These Germans,
they like system and order.

Picked her brother apart,
except that Skeptic’s Kaddish fella,
who goes around publicly
and discerns poetry,
and he can make you meet poetry in a formula.
It’s not weathered beat.
It’s not the formula he’s lookin’ at.
It’s his heart and matter.
There’s a haiku,
or a whatchamacallit he’s discovered
that no one’s ever heard about.
A poet has these easels,
and he makes them shine
with the testimony of word.

He passes the feeling test.
He goes beyond words into something else.
How elusive it is to say.
You know you’ve met a poem,
but let’s hand it to ‘im will yah?
David Daylight,
ben Alexander,
measured right
everybody call home.

You can’t find this on paper.
It’s in the poet’s test,
what he meets inside himself to write the poem,
a sensibility in time
that’s brought him world after world
of be the horseman in the room.
He moves humanity along
in great waves of identification
and another brand of thinking
that goes for the goal of everything,
its reach and purpose in time,
how the world was made and why,
and can I be pretty in it?

Every little thing
is a poet’s mule,
the suddenness of his mile
(the traditional lift to pronoun
stutters my feet),
not to figure out and keep,
to brandish science in the room
or the philosopher with his stone.
We must show them to you as they are
with their mystery still behind them
made greater by the sacrifice
but revealed
in the paradox of life.
Oh my great big friend David thank you.
You’re the bravest man alive.

This poem was reblogged by The Skeptic’s Kaddish

Representational Think
 / A Blog Post

photo by the author
Alone for you,
state it and I’ll bring it.
That’s our duty.
I’m not a poet I’m a blog artist.
These are
thousands
is that so?
Would you gear with me
the impossibilities of paint
another form of blog?

I wanna get in your living room
the poet speaks aloud,
the blog artist
refashions the internet,
and it is as legitimate as a piece of paper
sayin’ things.
I’ve got out the bugs,
the pieces of electricity put into us
electronic think.

This is my whirl with you.
I take the possibilities of poetry
and group think
and put them right in your lap.
I’m a rebel I’m a holder.
I’m sincere with you.
God it all stinks,
and a better world is coming
in the kitchen sink.

Sylvia Plath
did not Gertrude Stein.
You know what a kitchen is thought,
and how many people sink there?
I bet you didn’t include the kitchen sink,
and I double meaning my poem
blog post.

It’s all gone to hell ain’t it?
I sit and count God on my fingers.
I can’t get at it that way.
I’ve got to get bigger than your living room,
your apocalypse see.
I’ve got to get bigger than the loss of my boy
and Auroville stinks.
I’ve got to be a bigger poet
than a blog post.
Fuck you I said.
That aughta do it.

Oh my fucking God,
I’ve got to get bigger than my pen.
I’ve got to say to you words
that open up worlds inside you
that change the world.
I’ve got to make you see for one goddamn minute
we are not animals in a bullpen.
We’re not even That.
We’re ourselves in time
with the means to change
out of this skin of loneliness and disease
that even all good people wear.

We can improve the human condition.
We can get better at ourselves.
I’m finding that in myself
as we speak.
Adopt a belief?
Change yourself
into the bigger man
when met with the opposition,
your own damn faults
or the shit storm of others.

You can be a bigger person to life’s faults.
You can be the skies
all take room in.
Do you hear my apologies?