Take That Jerusalem Here Now

map made by Lars, my hunger striking partner
I have to get that picture.
I have to get that picture from the Mount of Olives.
They have refined the books.
That’s it,
pretty intelligent about it.
We didn’t kill ourselves.

I visited the Old City of Jerusalem
and did a hunger strike outside its gates,
three weeks,
ended Easter and Passover 1995.
Then I taped poems of mine all over Jerusalem
in the holy quarters,
dangerously daring in the dead of night.
You wanna see it?

In Jerusalem is here,
and in Pondicherry I will do a hunger strike for my boy,
to protect him from abuse
and get him back home.
You don’t believe me read the story.
I will do anything for love.
Get ready folks.
I’m about to step in God’s hands
and see what they’re made of.
Care to join me come
at the lake.
Day one begins shortly,
for the love of Nithish.

Nobody catches blood on the first day of the field.
It showed that I had been to visa.
We must add those grapes too,
so to be believed.
I got it issued 1977 press,
and that’s it.
My hunger days as a Jesus freak
add to the story.
I converted people at school lunch,
and we’d get on our knees right there in front of everybody.
I’d have them accept Christ.
I read my Bible every day,
studied scripture,
and I attended church every night,
all the denominations.

I didn’t find Christ,
just his name.
The clothes I wore prevented me.
Those clothes were Christianity,
so I took them off,
put my Bible down
and started backpacking and camping on the weekends,
looking for the natural God.
Green Beret came easy after that.

So I went to Jerusalem with a heartache.
Jesus was real I knew it,
but would I find him in all that stone,
all those old places?
I found adventure,
but I did not find Christ.
He was too buried over by religion.
Do I find him today?
A present God in my life yes,
who’s special function is compassion and redemption,
the God of love.

He has appeared to me in vision
so to help with Nithish,
getting that boy back to me
and getting him healed.
So when you talk of the Old City,
this is religion wore off.
It won’t help you none.
I think there’s still hope for Pondicherry
to become a spiritual city of wide dimensions,
for inner watch,
not outer show,
for freedom in the spirit,
not to bow down to a religion.

A free, open, and easy God
that can accept even the atheist
at His dinner table,
and change us all
into better men and women,
The New Jerusalem,
we’ve found it here in Pondicherry.
It is here the Supermind came down,
and it’s here we’ll learn to be a proper city,
considering human beings
before even the law,
learnin’ how to make it right
with our children,
learnin’ the true intent and purpose of school,
and how to treat people who work for you
and pay them well.
No slaves please,
no schedule that excludes your life.
We’re on our way Pondicherry,
we’re on our way.

I wanna be the first one
to raise a child
knowin’ Pondicherry
is a cradle of civilization.
is where we do it,
the supramental manifestation on Earth.
Did you even look at it?
There’s a book here in Pondy with that title.
Take it out for a spin.
It’ll
bring you on the road to destiny Earth
and open up your life
to what we’re actually doing here.

Say hi Billy,
how are you?
Don’t pull that out and show it to me.
Let’s get down to business what you really want.
You want God in your life don’t you.
How do you become you are He?
Pull your pants up I’ll show yah.
My job pretty good,
kids know I like them yes.
I let ‘em play with their little small cars.
Well why not?
I don’t bother them there.
I know how to take that energy
and open their consciousness with it,
and turn that curiosity to God,
never once tellin’ ‘em
playin’ with themselves is wrong.
You just wouldn’t put it in videos
and pass it out in the street.
You protect that child’s privacy
and leave them alone there.
The power we give them
when we do it right.
God rest His case.

You have to find out
tomorrow,
at some point,
your child got raped
with that guidance
that shows them everything
is to make money,
buy nice things,
and walk on people you don’t like
or you disagree with.
Open heart surgery,
open house surgery,
it’s how we find each other again,
so complete and wonderful.

I have the stairs.
Will you walk up them?
Pondicherry it’s time you become yourself,
where peace descends
on your city mood.
Buckle up,
I think you’re fine.
Help me find my boy will yah?
He was halfway in to the new humanity when he was taken,
and you countin’ on me to get it right.
We have pushed suffering
out of his life.

Unfortunately
this is a brand new
way of doing things.
I’ll see you scoff at it at first.
Then I’ll see you think about it.
Then I’ll see you accept it.
We have to go.

You know I hear about Nithish.
And what did you do with that?
Normal,
he’s perfectly normal.
I just spoke to someone who he cried to.
The boy wants his daddy,
tired of being beaten and threatened.
I guess we need insurance.
Yes daddy,
I know daddy.
I’m almost done here.

You were so concerned with your mall and media.
Heartbeats
don’t measure pain.
They just squeeze it,
but this boy’s still feeling pain,
and he hides it from you
because he must.
You beat him, threaten him,
if he even talks to me.
Imagine what you do with him
when he asks you to let him see me.
You’re leavin’ out the full story Sandiya.
You’re not tellin’ the truth.
That is a must Pondicherry,
give this boy back his place
with me, with you, and with God.

Splittin’ with an open guitar,
I will
make people to understand
what I’m asking of them.
Hey Sleeping,
can I ride your tricycle awhile?
My boy’s being abused,
and it won’t let up.
I need this written in the paper.
I need this on the news.
I need to protect my boy.
Will you help me?

I’m not robbin’ cradles.
I’m not doin’ anything bad to him.
I’m bringing him to the fullness of his potential,
and I can show you miracles that’s being done.
Read awhile
his poetry,
and then tell me his parents are right
in keeping him away from that,
in keeping him away from me,
and do you know how they do that?
They beat him they slap him.
They threaten to put him in a boy’s hostel.
They guard him day and night
to keep him from contact me.

Why is this you ask?
The boy prefers me as a parent,
and they can’t stand that,
but do you know what he did?
He told me his father was masturbating his little brothers,
and he gave me a video his mother made of his little brother masturbating.
That’s why they took him from me.
He told me these things.
Do you know how much he’s been punished for that?
Do you know WHERE he’s been punished for that?

It’s happened that way,
and you’re gonna tell me I’m lying,
but no one will question that boy
about the abuse he’s received from his parents
away from those parents,
not a single Child Help worker in this city.
Why is that?
You tell me.

Here is the link to the story of the hunger strike in Jerusalem and the poem postings there:
https://acollaborationwiththeunknown.wordpress.com/2015/08/16/post-11/

The Terms of Abuse

photos by the author
I will not speak.
My inability to speak
keeps this bottled up inside me
so I don’t feel it.
Do you trust me?
Some day
I will touch this pain again
and tell you how much I love you my very precious daddy.
I cannot do that now.
I’m sorry.
It hurts too much.

Signed, Nithish

Okay world,
you got your answer.
The boy will not stand up for me.
He will simply let me die
without saying a word,
if I choose to do a hunger strike.
That is powerful pain
I have to deal with,
my boy’s denial of me
when I am doing everything I can to help him,
as I promised I would
when I spoke to you on the phone Nithish,
not long ago.
Has it only been two weeks?

Okay Sandiya what can I say but I’m sorry?
I made a very big mistake
in challenging your pride,
and no there was no blackmail
with the intention of putting you or your husband in jail,
no matter what the boy said
the day you took him from my home.
He was confused.
Throughout these two months,
in everything I’ve done,
in everyone I’ve spoken to,
I did not try to put you in jail.
I made no attempt to file a case
of any kind.
The video lies there unopened.
It’s never been used to get you arrested.

Will you please forgive me?
If not for me,
then for the sake of your son?
He needs me and you know it.
His heart is a battlefield,
and he’s just lost a major battle of the war.
You don’t understand love,
how it can’t be killed,
and it only hurts your child to try.

Do you know how much time together we have spent?
Many years of his childhood,
formitable years,
influential years.
We have been so together for so long,
and he can’t just wipe that out of his life,
like it never happened.
It’s too big a hole in his childhood.
He can’t get rid of it.
What you are asking of him is too much,
and it is too cruel.

I can only ask you again to forgive me
for this boy’s sake.
Where does this go?
Let me see him,
and we can avoid this drastic measure
I’m about to take.
Can you see that?
Can you see that with your heart?

After all the years we’ve spent together Sandiya,
since you yourself was 12,
you do not want to let me die
refusing to allow me just two hours alone with your son,
after all that we’ve been through together
for so long.
Please Sandiya listen.
For God’s sake listen,
and let us avoid catastrophe,
let us avoid more pain.
Lay down your arms,
and I lay down mine,
and let us make peace
for children’s sake,
and I do not have to lay down my life
for the sake of this boy.
It is not just me seeing him;
it’s about letting Nithish be Nithish,
what I will truly be fighting for.

Will you accept my apologies?
And we can move on,
get through this,
and give Nithish what he truly needs,
and he needs both of us for that future.
Listen to his English.
Listen to his ideas,
his manner of speaking,
his manner of thinking.
That is my stamp upon him not yours.
You are not an intellectual
nor someone culturally refined.
I am sorry but you aren’t.
I have sophisticated this boy,
cultured him,
in things that are the high pass of humanity,
and I have shown him God
reaching down into his life,
and I have shown him the opening
to the well of soul.

Listen to his poetry very carefully,
and you will not find the stupidity of a child.
That is not a baby there
rattling off
with no will of his own.
It is a very alive and mature soul
wanting this boy to fulfill his purpose
to manage his destiny,
and that is not my destiny nor yours.
It belongs to Nithish alone.
Grant that to him
and let us pass
this brush with death.
I beg you Sandiya.
What else can I do?

I can give him America
and U.S. citizenship
and what his future could do with that,
anywhere in the world.
You can’t give him that.
You are limited to India
for this boy.
Why can’t I open up the world to him?
Because you need him to fulfill your life?
Isn’t that what you told him I wanted him for?
Please Sandiya,
think on yourself.
Doing evil to me with no goodness involved
is a grave sin,
and it will haunt you
for the rest of your days
if we cannot make amends,
and my death will be between you and Nithish
even unto the afterlife,
if you let me die and do not let him to speak.

Let us put his future together,
as I am not a mean man,
unlettered.
I have the college education you want for him,
and I have the experience of an unusual and varied lifetime
that reaches for humanity’s heart.
I do not believe you are filled with so much hate you will let me die.
I do not,
and I stake my life on that belief.
It is not my folly that I hunger strike.
It is your folly,
your heartbreaking refusal to let the boy and I see each other.
Okay Sandiya,
where do we go from here?
It's for Nithish.

Are You Fear Comfortable with Me?

photo by the author
So you can go and tell on them.
That was Nithish’s muse.
He has purpose.
He has charm.
He has the call to action.
We’re gonna get this story read to the public.
What did they expect?
He had come so far.
They brainwashed him in the family.
He didn’t give them what they want:
to renounce me over the phone
in a controlled conversation.

I was emotionally distraught,
aggravated,
and it came across on the phone,
and then I calmed down
and talked to my baby dog.
He heard me.
I could hear his mother in the background
telling him what to say.
I mentioned everything I could think of
to get him to hear me.
We actually had a conversation.
I was able to tell him things his mother cut the phone.
They called back,
and the mother tried again.
I’m with them now
the boy said.
Do you want to see me
I asked.
He had already answered yes to that question
in the conversation ago.
No answer,
I asked again.
Yes he said.
I will move Heaven and Earth to see you again
I told the boy.

Do you love me more than anything in the world,
or was that a lie?
I wasn’t lying.
Do you want me to go back to America?
No
the boy replied.
Well I’ll do a hunger strike,
and I’m prepared to die.
The boy heard every word I said.
Hello again, I’m sorry baby dog,
I cannot live without you,
and I love you more than anything in the world.
Ask to see me.
Do not stop.
But they will not hear me.
Ask anyway,
and the divine will help.

The mother cut the phone again,
as I explained their brainwashing technique,
and then I talked to her.
He doesn’t want to see you
she said.
But you heard him say he did.
Leave it, leave it.
No woman I won’t.
I am not afraid to die,
and I will lay down my life for him.
On that she cut the phone.

Well here, here,
let’s have a toast
to her inability to brainwash him.
He was supposed to renounce me.
He did not.
Even in front of his mother
he admitted he loved me very much
and wanted to see me.
She had failed
in killing his love for me.
Now how’s that for an answer
to their control of him?
They don’t have it.
Isn’t that wonderful?
Love will find a way.

Thank you woman.
You are so very dumb
letting us speak like that,
and you know we love each other.
You really think the boy’s gonna lie for you?
He did not, did he?
And you are tellin’ him what to say.
I say again.
You did not control this boy
when it came down to it,
the very thing you’ve been punishing him for,
he loves his daddy
and wants to see him,
and all the restrictions that you’ve put on ‘im,
all the surveillance you’ve had him under,
all the control you’ve done to him,
telling him what to think,
how to act,
and how he should feel,
day and night on that boy,
has not worked, has it?
I’m still there
in that boy’s heart,
in that boy’s mind,
a living presence.
The power of love,
do you believe in it now?

Now we go from there.
I have his base.
I have his will,
and I will stop at nothing
to see him again.
That mother has messed up.
She gave us the very thing
we needed from each other:
validation of our love.
She has no idea what’s she’s doing
in keeping him from me.
It’s against his will.
It’s against his plan.
It’s against his life’s purpose.
It hurts this boy so.

So what do we do with that?
Hello Pondy do you recognize me?
I am a public speaker.
I want to show you child abuse
where the parents get away with it
because no one will listen to the foreign man.
You think that’s right?
Well here let me show you how I do things,
in video after video,
and can I show you this story?
Follow my Facebook page.
Now who’s listenin’
I ask the interviewer.
Will you help this boy
become himself again,
step out of systems of abuse
and let his daddy heal him?

Okay Pondicherry we put you to the test.
It’s a public ride.
Do you care about this boy?
Why have the parents taken all his rights?
Do they have the right to abuse him?
Do I have no rights as a parent?
And I have been raising him for years.
Wait ‘till you hear why they took ‘im,
on impulse,
for a bad story they did,
and I called them on it.
It’s all on Facebook.
Just look and see
Donny Lee Duke.

Now we’re goin’ somewhere.
He listens to me,
and we are there:
we get to see each other again.
We get to be together,
and we can heal wounds.
Thank you Pondicherry.
I know you care about children,
and I didn’t even have to hunger strike.
I just got interviewed by a member of the press,
and we took this story wide.
Now that’s business.
That’s coffee,
and that’s how you shame two parents
who have been evil to their child.
You give them a public face,
and suddenly the sex video they made of their child
doesn’t look for fun anymore.
It looks awfully deep,
their betrayal of their children
in their parenting room.
Do you hear me Pondicherry?
You will.

This is the sudden story
that shows you how to raise children,
and that’s not with a bat with a glove.
They get the best treatment
because they are our future,
and they do not live for us.
They live to be themselves
in the future God has put them on Earth for,
their soul’s purpose in time.
That Pondicherry
is why we raise children,
to bring a better Earth
to the love that they’ve found God,
atheists included
in this survey.
We just go the highest we can go
in bringing a human being to the heights of humanity.
That’s that little child you know,
and here, here,
we let them grow.
Any objections?
I thought not.

Well let’s go.
This little boy needs your help,
and we are waiting.
Thank you God.
Thank you world.
I knew I could count on you,
and it’s over.
We raise the world that way.
That’s how you do it.
I agree with that.
We put the night we lie in
in that abuse.
Do they play with his toy?
No it’s not pumped.
It’s not his genitals they play with.
They play with his mind.
I’ll never go over here
to sleep,
where I’m soft and warm and comfortable
at daddy’s house.’

He lies there awake at night
wondering at the enormity of his loss,
and the hope and the despair
rob his mind of sleep.
There they abuse him
in the night’s deep.
If you listen really closely
you can hear him cry
Oh God why have you done this to me?
I thought I was your child.
And his faith is gone,
and the night’s this huge monster
that gives him nightmares.
Great the feelings play
along being’s edge
to make him want to die.
Do you hear this Pondicherry?
Listen closely.
This boy needs our help.
Will you just let him lie?

What do you do with that?
Let’s go in the kitchen and think some,
drink some coffee.
You know that is a velacara man.
Do you do this to our own kind,
let a foreigner raise the alarm?
That’s the real question here,
isn’t it?
The abuse is secondary.
Whether it’s Hindi kidnappers
or a velacara man,
you will not blame yourselves for your own stolenings.
You need the world to change.
Alright Pondicherry,
let this boy and this man be together,
who for years been under your wings?
They belong there.
You’ve seen them so much
on your streets,
in your shops
and in your downtown,
and look at them there on the beach.
They’ve been in your heart Pondicherry
ever so long.
Just ask the guidebook,
all your surveillance cameras.
They’re nice together,
aren’t they?
For years.

This is cross country skiing,
and you go to Pondicherry.
An ape has his hand,
his mother on the phone.
Can we tell you the guidebook?
Bilbo Baggins,
I just wanna see ‘im. (vision of him sleeping)
I’ll walk to the landing.
Where were you again Patricia,
Ovid?
The boy has not stayed with you
in his first awakening.
He will come back to you soon.
I gave him a story,
but not in his department.
I met him online.
Hobbits are peace lovin’ folks you know [line heard sung]
I have the quarter to knock this out in him,
his return to brainwash,
and that’s America.
There’s a picture.
Now come on,
what have we here?
That’s a beautiful rose.
We’re goin’ in a cop shop,
and that’s gonna interrupt everybody.
It arms to daddy’s house.

I’m pretty sure your mother’s lying to you
about the presentation of that video.
Watch the video.
She’ll let me do it
at the capitol,
where we met yesterday.
What pad you had no idea.
Ah, that close
to my home in Kuruchikuppam.
Three more packages.
That will change everything:
you see each other again,
and the video
starts making updates.
You see that boy again.
You’re standin’ tall.
You’re standin’ fast.