The Meaning of Abuse

photo by the author

Can I see Nithish,
get in touch with Nithish?

Riot in the sky,
I see this as I’m putting Nithish to bed.
Oh my God it’s the sure I’d Lloyd I’d love to see you.
I’d like my heart back please,
pump when I see him.

Take one daddy to school with you.
How do I choose?
When did you loose the property?
When my mother gave daddy tears.
And if all else fails
don’t let him do my inner.
I’m holdin’ out for a special treatment.
He called.
He answered.
Daddy can talk to me again.

Tomorrow, tomorrow, tomorrow, tomorrow? (line heard sung)
Where is he?
Why can’t I see him?

He’s incredible.
Show us a way
stay of execution.
Just take him,
I know where he’s at right now.
Generate a whole new record.
The door to your future
you just looking at me
to want to see me.
He turned around as soon as you said that.

To pick up Jesus,
tear a doll out of your breast.
You are hurting me,
go the distance.
The power has put his eyes out.
He bless Nithish.
Thank you for being so sweet.
Everything in my inner power I have done,
my power.

Stop treating me like this.
There’s one problem on the crimes:
I don’t believe you.
You’ll have a typical day at the office
not for long.
I’m mean to measure you,
show you to yourself.
Here I show you.

You are a horrible and wretched little boy.
As far as I know
you haven’t capital anything
except your playthings.
You will see this and fast.
I show this to him.
You will see art.
You are not a brother of the Sun.

You’re being recorded.
Easily jealous,
I will show you what you requested,
the courage to love in the face of defeat,
the courage to love in the face of death,
the courage to love when the one you love
could care less if you live or die.
You are incapable of this courage.
You are incapable of this love.
I give it to you yourself.

Do you see me Nithish?
That is wisdom:
love before anything else,
and my mean little boy,
who’s cut me out of his life and thrown me out in the street,
I honest to God do love you,
and I always will.
I’ve got to give it to you,
you horrible little boy,
so you don’t grow up
a psychopath,
the meaning of abuse.
There I see you.
வணக்கம்,
the world is watching.
What do you say?

Is this what I’m supposed to say to him?
It’s his difference
he appear on the outside
from the Nithish on the inside,
the Nithish that thinks and feels.
The world sees him
the Nithish on the outside
that is spoiled, rotten, and mean.
That’s what the world sees Nithish.
It’s unknown to you
the world can’t see your inner.
You’re a child that thinks and feels,
and you can’t measure the world yet.

How you think and what you feel
are so entirely big to you,
are louder than the world in front of your face,
so loud they fool you.
It is so loud in there
you think the world can see the inner you.
You need to open that up
and show the world what you’re made of.
Can you get a grasp on this Nithish?
If you do not now,
in your little boy self,
right now still in your tender days,
your life will be such a waste
it won’t even be possible to record.
Stand up for yourself now.
Stand up for you.

Can you hear me honey dog?
You know it’s time.
There, I’ve said my piece.
Is it still the meaning of abuse?
We gather abuse that way.
Give this to all people out there who care.

I Dress That Link

photo by Donny

I open up my face in Brahman.
Something happened.
Death lives on in each of us.
Transient houses you made us feel.
Can we all surrender to hatred?
To relations with each other
I bring the death penalty;
I’ve packaged everything—
we hear death talkin’.
Now will you please listen?
Give this say to an individual,
not a group of any nation or purpose,
some wisdom on control.

Absolutely
parallel balance,
that’s the frame I put this in,
on the level.
Hey,
you alright?
I just put love in enemy territory.
Will I make it out of here alive?
You tell me.
My God that’s balance,
and let’s score you again
just too worth it.

And nobody walks me huh?
It’s crazy but
I go all out with this one,
and your attitudes about how social change comes about,
the best advice.
I put my peril down
and tell you the safe, wholesome fight for everyone.
You will kill me here I know,
if you break truth with me,
of course.

He tore down his statue of self-defense and said one big one today,
Smile Records.
All I want from poetry is my two front teeth.
We don’t need a bully.
The safest place for me to be is away from you.
I’m volunteering at your stacked deck
straight ahead.
Unbelievable.
Do me a favor,
I’m telling you
don’t press defcon 4.
We’re at the Geneva Convention.

It’s so shallow
if I even make it this far.
I want your hands off hate.
We’ve got to get down into the bowels of society to do that.
That’s why I’m chargin’ bulls
wearin’ red.
I’m down to this science,
and you’re in the war room.
You know what he give me?
Imaginations control,
nobody harm one another in their thoughts.
Can you see that in your mind?

This is hot stuff.
This is how we pay for peace
Emily.
Do a father to father talk about peace with Emily.
Her underwear got crowded out
by someone in her neighborhood
when she was seven or eight.
The backlist sells cookies so much slower.
She looks blind, hyperactive.
Identify that culprit with me.
No, identify with the culprit.
I’ve just spoken the secret formula that will save the world.
I’ve just spoken huge change.

You have my record.
It was a peace mission.
You’re just the Alamo.
Behind you,
that’s not a peacemaker.
Someone in the vestibules
throwing us all to evil.
They even have a financial access.
Hide and seek
the world demon.
And pray you don’t see him.
It’s a calamity.
Donny, filter.

Read the endless pages.
I’ll have the affordable print tomorrow.
I just copy movies.
I don’t have a thing to say that flowers
a reader’s turnover.
I don’t get published in the sky.
I just sit in my room and write
long letters to humanity.

I’m a shrill voice.
I run the gauntlet of change.
I slip and slide all the time
all over your meaning’s worth.
I Excalibur this now,
put it in a format for you to use/see. [words spoken simultaneously]

Do me a favor,
huddle up.
We’ve got no other choice.
I think the Griffins and the McCoys said that.
Did I just say enemies should speak to each other?
Without contempt.

I’m a Jew you know that.
Don’t hate me for it.
I’m a rightwing political bureau.
I think we would even charity you.
Do suicide
and pull down your pants a pedophile;
can you find anyone that doesn’t want you dead
or not allowed to breathe?

This is poetry central,
giving time a voice
so it can move us away from destruction and decay,
so it can bring meaning into our lives,
give sense to things,
and it can get bigger than all that
be there for us.
It can evolve time.

That’s the secret to noon.
We are not worthy of its hour.
We can’t get out of our sleeping beds.
The world is on fire,
and everybody thinks it’s as plain as day:
horse rider you started it,
you comin’
from a land seize,
or the hideous government,
or a cooperation bring us to our knees.

We’re to blame for the execution,
all of us,
each one of us.
You hear that?
You’re on it all the time.
A government oppresses its people,
and nobody sees the people themselves flavor it.
Take the litmus test.
Who supplies them with the labor
to enforce and to punish and to obey?
The numbers wanting free,
that’s not big enough to form a majority, is it?
And even they oppress
the numbers wanting to obey.
Do we call them traitors?

Let’s click on you.
You would not accept my submission, would yah?
I don’t even think you’d understand it.
Pop goes the weasel.
Another one bites the dust. [heard sung by Queen, line names song]
Oh the poems I’ve wasted on you.

Can I get at this singular event,
I get taken in by somebody
a poet speaking?
I’m still dawn on social approval.
Can we get at being human?
This poem’s for you,
a higher source for love,
even when you’ve exposed yourself on TV.
So filled our cabinet and left.
I’m a garbage bag.
I take only a minute to throw away,
but take a minute and look.
I’m sculptured,
rounded to your looks on things.

You know what you told me when you were a child,
sooner or later—
thank you for the Pepto-Bismol,
so I can start with you
just knock on the door and tell ‘em you’re hungry dammit,
for the zest of life,
more than someone who sucks their thumb;
I need to know I’m safe, okay?
I’m this contradiction in terms—
that kid.

This is the draw-sight for human beings:
love everybody’s neighbor,
love and support.
Crazy kid,
he loves a pedophile.
We give it much more than it came from,
call it much more than it is:
I love you too honey child.

You hear us now.
We are not strangers on earth.
We carry the world in the litany of our smile.
That’s 12 o’clock high.
That’s our love song.
Is that child safe with me?
We bring the world together.

Do you wanna make climate?
It worked for our team so much.
Film this great, narrow, stone bed.
To put them in the mall?
Pathway.
I’ll have a Rottweiler to try to stay down there
to put you in touch with time.
She just makes everything so real.
She's down there right now,
a love angle.

Can we calamity this?
That’s the nature of this paper,
the spirit of love.
And I’ve just waved a red flag under your nose.
Control yourself, will yah?
I’m not asking you to accept pain to a child
or harm done to him.
I think I’ve reached into your hate basket and pulled out the biggest one:
you can’t put these two together
and make a story out of love.

Self-defense mechanisms aside,
that’s how I define the world:
and he’s safe with me.
Now let’s look at your self-doubts.
Is he safe with you?
Will you kill him because you’ve seen him on this page
close to someone who loves boys?
Is this to make you feel safe?

Look,
let’s give everybody some room to breathe.
Mighty this one;
imagine this one—
I have a missed call:
no,
it’s not a hateful love.
It’s right on time:
for all the world to see.