Red Letter Aims

Luna in the backseat, photo by the author
Into the summer pageantry,
I go forth
unfailed by noon,
unhanded by time.
My spirit’s lonely shell
in diabetes lay,
is fretting upon the Earth.
I can’t seem to get lost here
and forget the Infinite
for whom my life’s pay.
Golden bridals of dawn
have lit the morn,
and I suspect Earth shakes.
I suspect I’m wrong.
Too horrible creature for words
I belch poems of fire.

I don’t know where my destiny lay.
It’s deeper than me.
I don’t know where I’m goin’,
and I’m in a car upon the roads of time.
I just sit there and wait,
going forward,
lifting up my voice to fate.
I can’t catch my dreams.
I don’t know where they’re taking me.
I’m in an uncertain moment,
labeled a monster of the wood
by someone who gets away with it.
My home I fled from.
She’d put a gun to my head,
nobody to help me but this old guitar
on the lifebeats of time.

Will I wake up
and understand the morrow?
I don’t know what business there,
and I can be crucified today.
Oh foolish Sun,
is so much wasted on thee?
What am I doin’ it for?
Why do I plot my life
towards the Spirit’s call?
It is within me and I do it that is all,
and I’m frying in a frying pan,
having melted my home for her,
where she had all power.
Where did God help?

I suddenly escaped,
and great large forces prepared that,
and people did help.
Fine, fine, I’ll go.
I’ll transcend time
and climb out of time
to see my Face once more.
I wear him still,
where I find him today
a necessity,
the greater being that I am,
so close it’s a million miles away,
a chariot on my moon.
Stronger now
I gather evidence.

You don’t know what I’m talkin’ about.
I just want to lay me down to sleep
and be oblivion
to all that encompasses me.
I’m watchin’ the freeways turn
to some other destination
I can’t read.
I can’t even see.
I was born to put the incarnate in verse.
I cannot count the cost I’m done.
I am the uttered word
taken apart by kingpins
and pushed into the dirt.
You see the history of this?
Jezebel come forth.
I am writing on the Sun.

Are you sure you’re led halfway?
What rallies against your speech now?
What blinded impulse urge did you do?
You are innocent of her charges.
Where do we get this out of here?
There is nowhere where we haven’t drawn our horses.
We are an envelope on our soul
opening it.
When I walked my soul
I was in daylight.
Love is the threatened of my feelin’ knowledge,
the smushed of the prepared in my shield.
I feel my stomach in it,
all this mess.
I spit it out my room.
I’m not a devil.
I’m not even a bad man.
I’m certainly not raping my dog
or about to blow up and kill the neighborhood
or kidnap Nithish from India.
Why would the cops take her seriously
and come to my door and harass me?

I don’t understand this murder
or the threat of jail for weeks afterwards,
or that they might take my dog.
This is ungodly.
I didn’t commit a crime.
I didn’t even do anything wrong.
Where do this lead us?
On the wrong road.
We are not Bridal Falls, Minnesota.
We’re Hell’s bells
in this situation room Florida.
Why would I suffer here?
What’s the door?
Poetry I let out.
I called Trump out of office.
I talked about infant orgasm I received,
not condoning it
nor encouraging it,
and I didn’t let Christianity get away with it,
putting people in Hell
for all eternity,
even most voters in the world,
because they didn’t vote for Christ,
and what about ICE?
I’ve poetry’d against them,
their murderous ways,
their racist endeavor.

Okay you found me.
I’m a poet you need shut up.
I’m a poet you need out of town.
Did you do that?
You let it happen.
No one came to my aid,
except who I’d reached through friendship,
and they are great on that,
but we’d shared life together,
and we’ve been in the presence of each other’s eyes
soft and warm.
They came in and helped,
put me on the road again
and a place to go to,
and they’re ground guiding me in.
I discovered reef,
what the fishes know.
It provides for me.

Okay now where is your soft and warm,
your care and concern?
Where do you hold freedom
as a value you prize?
Is anybody listenin’?
You know what happened to me?
Can you understand this in America?
Poetry got me in trouble
with the law.
Nothing illegal I wrote.
Someone took my poetry to the police
and alarmed them with the accusations I’ve mentioned,
no evidence provided,
no evidence needed.
This woman had power.
She wanted me removed
and did it.

What do you say to that?
Do that for lunch,
crap all over somebody,
show them to be a monster,
try to remove them from society,
because they’d written poetry that offended you.
The patriotism of this lady would turn your head,
her salute the flag,
but isn’t this typical of Americans
nationalistic to the core?
They will take your freedom away from you if they don’t agree with it.
They will burn the Constitution,
if you’re protected by it,
and they don’t want you to be.

I’m still tryin’ at your door.
Who does a poet talk to anyway?
Who does he appeal to,
the lawyer who wants ten thousand dollars
just to investigate this case,
the civil liberties union,
who won’t even answer your email,
the legal aid society,
who won’t give you a dime,
if the matter here is crime?
You’re a warped society.
No protections for someone such as me,
who has no special name among you,
who is not rich and doesn’t need one,
who’s not a member of a minority.
I did not carry a gun to a protest.
I did not hit a policeman with my car,
even a little bit.
I wrote poetry and got in trouble for it,
and you only give those murdered people credit
to get protection from law enforcement,
from cops carrying guns
who unfailingly use them to murder citizens.
What about a living poet?
What about the rule of law
that should in theory protect him?

Do you know what’s happened here?
You think it’s dictators.
It’s your worst nightmare
made real.
It’s your apathy and compliance
to the mass enslavement of people
to the cruelty of the machine.
Another man taken down,
so what?
Do you hear me people?
So removable,
the awakening of the crowd.
Storm Heaven
with the right to be not a Christian.
I think you like this speaker.
He’s American.
You told me something.
Put on the vote
get power out of office
that’s goin’ down these lanes,
where even art and poetry is in danger,
or even freedom of expression
they take from you now.

Am I a flywheel?
I am the culling house today
of let’s make this real simple.
We’re lookin’ for a depository
where instances of fascism can be recorded
and set up criteria for the legitimacy of that reporting,
a national hotline,
an email you can tell,
a national depository.
You’re online,
and we can review these cases ourselves,
see them grow.
You know, we’d get somewhere.
We’d see it happenin’.
We’d know it’s there.

On Old Galveston Road,
or just down the lane,
I rose up into Wonder’s sphere.
My seat of consciousness
came out the top of my head
several meters into a whole other plane of existence,
the larger I that I am
beyond this sphere of lives.
It’s conscious and it’s free.
Several seconds I sat there.
Then went back down to myself driving the truck.
So, I know it’s up there
above everyone,
a being so unimaginable,
it is the divine self of you above,
the divine self of everybody,
individually sphered,
is the innumerable self above.
It is one being one in all.
Yeah, I ride that
the poetry I write.

I have breached the spheres,
and I know this is all bullshit,
this whole damn ride we have down here,
but it’s not an illusion.
Nor it’s a lark.
We change it one combustion at a time,
until the Glorious comes down here to work
more often than it does now,
the Being that surrounds the universe with its gaze.
Of course I’ll be persecuted.
Of course Jezebel will hunt me.
Of course these things happen.
I’m on it.
I’m right here describing it to you,
fillin’ the details in
with know whodunit.

Left lane ends one mile.
This breach in the reality of the universe,
the reality I’ve described to you
that is the sole heart of this one,
will be addressed and repaired
not long from now.
Can you get that?
I will not be persecuted much longer
by these people.
I have some poetry to write.
First thing I need protection.
No, I’m talkin’ in a space that can't do that?
Careful,
you might lose your own freedoms
in your notebook.

Tryin’ to humanize the experience.
I’m tryin’ to show it to yah.
It started when I lost my job for poetry months ago.
Before that in India
I got kicked out for writing poetry,
separated from my family.
I think you think it’s okay there,
but has America lost democracy too?
What are we tryin’ here?
The way of the world.
Do you know what engines are about,
the directions of population control,
the implements in place for that?
No, I’m not talking gruesome
they kill you there
in mass droves.
The everyday means of livin’
are being turned into a cattle bin.
It exceeds any report about it.
Look at your phone.
Look at all the control devices.
Look at the rules and regulations
to even open a bank account,
to rent an apartment,
to put vehicles in the street,
to go to the doctor.
How hard is it to get a job,
and what do all the questions ask you?
Are you friends with the machine?

Everyday liberties are being taken from us,
and it is as though they never were.
This is insane,
the normal people operating in society
rule checks the automaton,
is a pipe in a machine
that pipes to no thing
that eases its desolation,
is a calling card
to the Man to check the citizen's every move.
We are becoming unmanageable
as isolated freedoms.
We’re too expensive
to just let loose.
We must be bound and carded.
We must toe the line.
We must do all this
and merely say it’s fine.
Dissidence is becoming
too dangerous to harbor.
You report dissidence to the police.
That’s what happened to me.
That’s what’s goin’ on now.

We’ll see yah tomorrow mornin’ chicken noodles into a fight.
Are you gonna fare me?
I’m not gonna shut up.
Leave us alone.
Take down my playbill,
you can see they’re experienced today.
Everything’s written around that.
I was there in a Haight-Ashbury’s shoes
yoga year.
And to think that you’d
become on the ground of being,
often on the road,
a vehicle for God’s registry to put his voice,
a lone weaver
of the hour of God,
and what do you do for a livin’?
What cycle do you wanna take?
The song of poetry,
my voice lifted high to the sky,
my words reverberating on earth matter.

Is this a dream?
It is thy wild wood.
It is thy heart’s desire to thee.
It’s where we go from here.
It’s the stadium we pass now.
It’s yours for the beholdin’ kin.
I can do that.
I can land on your word
the vehicle of my speech.
I can land yours in mind
and plant mine on your feet,
so the heart shall know
love crude as a peacock
has glistened his moons today,
has arrived with liquid voice
to show you the Sun’s risin’ ways.

I am a purple heart,
and I dance on you now
the purple pageantry of love
putting hate in its place
out of bridal dawn.
Fine, I’ll grip your heart today.
Will you dance on me now
love’s pageantry today,
love’s high noon?
I’m the alien
to all your notions of time,
to what you view as the larger picture,
to any answer that you’ve come up with
to our state,
because I’ve seen what I know,
experienced it firsthand,
and no amount of convincing me otherwise will prove it
to me that I didn’t.
This is my livin’ faith.
This is what I hold in my hand.
This is the knowledge that parts the stars.

Fine, I’ll be your bended wood,
the poet you won’t give that title to,
the one who stands here and sings
like I’m in a vacuum.
I know I know who I am.
Gonna pull over somewhere
and realize I am you.
This is the knowledge that welds together the stars.
It’s all I really ask from you,
the empathy of that name,
the identity that helps.
We’re in the zone now
I reach all the way to the public.
We will see if you care.
We will see if you know
the difference between love and hate.

That’s what you guys for,
to engender freedom
and our care for one another.
Corona’s the last time I saw you
just shoveled aside for.
Herd you away from
the freedom we need to breathe
almost everything in society now.
Somethin’ is not right
in our day to day ritual.
I have the field glasses to see that.
I have the equipment.
Wrong kind of recipe
you put under freedom.
I gotta tell you somethin'.
You’re makin’ some big mistake
puttin’ poetry in the corner.

Now you can play off of my
poems that I give you.
I’m givin’ you poetry,
and you’ve completely forgotten
we manage by it freedom
and help to wipe out hate
and to be a true language model.
What is this world?
I’m late.
We’re supposed to manage this world
a better friend to everyone.
Why on earth would you not agree?
Why on earth would you fail here?
That’s for poetry to answer,
and I have.
That’s the start of you
wiping it out our rise to the occasion
you take a poet and shoot ‘im
or take his freedom.

Run up to see what you’re sayin’—
the freedom loving individual.
You’ve done it before.
Remember your Walt Whitman?
I fly my seat upon the roads of time.
He axed;
he falls
more gravity than I can bear.
I just look you back here,
all that’s gathered back there and start doberman.
Readers pipe in.
I mean you gotta go down
something like this
don’t look at it all—
Mrs. Mean Date
in the earlier walking.
Another purple heart.
The first two,
they will blasphemy.

Somebody spittin’ you and you go right down there:
just as I am
I cross thresholds.
I try to be myself all the time.
I don’t exaggerate my being.
I want you to see me as me,
and we identify with each other from there,
from that bake,
a humanity seeing,
a humanity start.
We’ve got to stop this revolution
that puts us all as automatons at the hands of society,
that takes our lives away,
and they become the machine,
that puts us at odds with each other
so we change our core being,
and you are not my brother,
my neighbor;
you’re a stranger we can do away with
when society says that.
We want to stop the revolution of ourselves
turning into a mass of product.
Can you realize that far?
Please, come with me.

The Undiscovered Country

Sitting with Luna on the porch of The Planetary Court, Koreshan State Park, Estero, Florida, photo by Douglas, Easter Sunday, 2026
I am a monitor on freedom,
molten lava,
right now.
I ICE
—at his age he should leave them alone—
and trap them in their wheels.
You know the function of poetry,
to open the heart of mankind,
to get bigger notions than guns,
to put ideas on railroad cars
and pass them through each checkpoint
of the limiting reason,
to make language say what it can say
when it’s not the mattress in your room;
it’s the hope, and field, and trust
of more friends than these,
language expressed to the zenith point
of our field of dreams.
It bakes there
the ellipses on the page
the ellipses can’t show:
a poet has gone off the page and entered your life,
touched your things as he does his own.

Girl get censorship out the window,
so it don’t rob us of meaning now
when we most need meaning to show.
I’m that report card.
Treat me wisely.
Handle me with care.
W-o-w I’m there
infinity report,
the whole starward page
we reach beyond,
and I am your long lost friend
you found in childhood and never forgot.
I’m there
a poem for you to read,
a poet on this marge.
I turn it upside down,
the apple sitting there
we hung by.
So hang there no more,
and love will lead the way.
That’s the caption of the universe
in all its drift and bale,
in all its lonely regard.
Everybody
it’s movin’.
We gotta move,
and this is just the start.

Wow, what a life.
Don’t paint pictures of larger reason
you pigeon shit—
the sheriff county Lee department.
I’m on mountaintops.
I’m in the immediate see of my room.
I want to get across time.
I’m really right here on your basketball
who will Trump shoot next?
Can you get larger than stars
and balance concentration camps?
Can you protect a poet
that looks at trashcans,
showing you the infinity of the universe
Florida in the way?

I’m about the larger than Earth view,
infinity beyond the universe,
as where we put our cars
your poetry has gone over mountaintops,
and it’s landed in the nature of a cop.
Who draws understanding there?

Man I host a larger continent that ours.
I certainly put it in my poetry,
and I do that to get down to earth.
I’m on the pier now,
runnin’ lines of poetry
to the undiscovered continent.
Happy all the fishes are,
startled at man’s intensity
catch them in the eye,
but they will reveal themselves in time
the substance of things they show.
First we get larger than Earth,
go weapon on this now.

It’s not on Mars
or anywhere in the world that you know.
It’s not other planets.
Is this the chalice?
It’s unknown in humanity.
It’s bigger than sin
or any right or wrong.
Do you see it?

How do I make this out to you?
I can’t get in there in your mind and see it.
It’s not a framework of your imagination.
Nor will visualization do.
I can’t talk about it
and hint at what I’m talkin’ about.
It’s like seeing reality after being in a cave;
cave is your only experience;
cave is not does not exist.

It’s mountaintops,
and you won’t see it from there.
It’s not a view.
There are no points in our reality
that can glue this together.
It doesn’t exist,
wow, that’s gettin’ somewhere
towards how completely other this is.
It’s over your head.

It’s a farmer’s market,
and you’re listenin’ to the words.
Too many drumbeats in them
to pull this out of your pocket
a grasped thing.
I’m countin’ on reality
to show you its further face,
to get you out of your wood,
to give you some luster
of something you haven’t even imagined yet.

It’s bigger than stars,
and the universe is too small for it.
Impossibly it can be in the universe
a station over our heads,
and that’s how you experience it,
but you are not grand up there.
You are so huge grand is a piddly thing
that might describe a sphere,
a one-eyed seeing,
a place where there is one pole of reality,
one fixture
that bakes time and infinity in it.

I don’t think you know what I’m talking about.
Look at a computer screen.
Imagine AI does this all the time,
is open to multiple zeros,
can simultaneously
enter numerous computer pads
and be a language model,
or you might see multiple screens upon a wall
showing these different locations.
Even with infinite number of screens,
or people at their computer consoles,
you can’t get there from here.

There’s another way to see reality
that imagination cannot visit,
because its constraints
are this one o’clock view.
Now I’m on diamonds now.
This is the greatest experience of my life,
the very meaning of reality,
in our neck of the woods,
the thing that all the universe shows
if you grab ahold of its handles
and see its meaning,
and see its destination,
and see the platform it wore
that sprung forth it into being.

This is larger than time,
and you are not hindered by time in it.
The conditions of the universe do not apply.
You are in another ground of being
that sees past every limit we have
and is all-encompassing.
You’re spaced out in there.
You’re humongous,
and you are not one field of show.
Nor are you multiple things that you see at once.
There’s another way of seeing I cannot describe.

And when I sat up there I knew that
this was incommunicable
to the little person I was driving the truck
catapulted on high I was.
Only one word describes the confined I down there—
prison.
I was myself above,
in a larger than field view
I cannot describe.
I saw myself down there
not in myself as I was driving,
and nothing obstructed my view.

Direction my gaze still bore.
It was an all-encompassing view
I could pinpoint knowledge in.
Do you get my broadcast?
These were all my lives
I knew I was the origin of,
these lives cast out upon time.
The return I was I was sure,
an infathomable endgame that was me.
After my many lives
I would meet myself on high
and be who I was,
a return journey that encompasses life.

This stings in the eyes
how could you have forgotten yourself?
How could you have forgotten who you were?
It’s unbelievable
the forgetfulness the loss
of our very person.

Now what do I do with this?
Describe the many points of seeing,
the perfect stillness of that air,
the excitement I felt a child in excitement,
letting the game pass down below me
I was a spectator of?
And I was its origin
and the director of its gaze.
I cherry open it.

Where is this hub?
Is everything just happening at once?
Where do we begin and end?
Where are we at now?
Where is the destination point?
What’s going on with us
in relation to up there?

I cannot claim authority on these matters.
I was myself on high several seconds.
It did not go higher than that.
I was knowledge by identity,
and that’s how I saw everything,
one with everything I saw.
I had my identity with it
but not bound by it.
I was free.
It was great, it was fantastic, it was true.
I had pierced the veil
and gone home.

Now who do I tell this to?
How do I process the experience?
I’m just this wooden man,
and I have things wrong with me.
Do you hear me shouting mud?
I use the vehicles of this world to describe this world,
but my aim is transcendence.
I am a wide open see
in my departmental thinking.
The things wrong with me I have cleansed,
and I’m a harmless being now
to other human beings.

That did it.
I took what I had seen
and plugged it into my life.
I saw that I was an actor,
an avatar, a front man,
not me personally,
all of us.
This is the video game fount
of this thing called life.
We are all actors in it,
or movie stars,
or stage performers,
if you want to use the known to describe the Unknown.
This frees you.
This is the truth that sets you free—
transcendence.

Now I’m not gonna fuck everybody
to give you some guttural word
that has so many strings attached
you think I’m bad for sayin’ it.
You cannot deal with these things:
someone crosses your morality;
a person uses the word nigger.
I have no choice
but to test you
to challenge your operations of seeing.
It’s not who we are,
and the unreality is killing us.

Jesus said this, Jesus said that,
you can deal with,
even though the flywheel was radical.
You put it in church.
You sing it in hymns.
You preach this to people,
but the reality escapes you
of what we have that he said.
You would crucify him with it
if he walked among you today.

Tomorrow it sounds like
you will be needing glasses
to change the character of man.
Blame it all on one man,
blame it on several thousand people,
the world is falling apart.
It’s not working I told the Man.
Two cops came to my door
and wanted to know what I was writing.
You know it happened on Good Friday.
They had it in their hand.
They were startled by it,
because someone had complained.
I would not let them into my house.

Nor would I go outside.
No laws had been broken they told me;
I was not in trouble.
Yet they came to my house anyway,
and what for?

It wasn’t the tooth fairy.
It was two persons who would kill me,
if it came to that.
They had all power,
and I was on my doorstep
maintaining my own balance.
Why did they come,
if I had not broken any laws
in the writing of mine that they gave me?
What’s goin’ on?

Will I see them again?
Will I be dragged off to jail,
because in Florida I can be kept for 33 days
without charges being filed?
Do you know what’s happenin’?
We’ve reached a morality breach.
It is so big and unwieldy
there is no safety in it anymore.
It’s not protection.
It’s control people,
control everybody,
because morality has come out of the wood,
what makes people look small in comparison.
We can’t tolerate
morality being questioned.

I’m in this field today.
I question morality,
not to fulfill my desires,
not to be a braggart and kingpin,
not to just waste your time,
not give harm to anyone.
I question morality
to improve the lot of the human being,
to wake us up on one another,
to make us question ourselves,
to put love there as the root of all equations,
to bring a better society.

Those are noble aims.
They are not base.
Yet I am facing police harassment
and a threat of jail.
Is this a free country?
No.
In fact,
police state is where it’s headin’,
and you’re not even aware it’s goin’ on.

Have I read the last newspaper,
the library
of social media?
I found cops at my door
for poetry I’d written.
Trump’s in office.
What happened?
Are they gone here,
where we put Trump,
what we allow Trump,
the constraints in morality we are imposing
on our population?
You can hear Trump rant,
say heartless things,
about the men, women, and children his is killing
in his war against Iran.

They didn’t do nothing wrong.
Aggress against us they did not.
They were just there
a convenient target
to take our mind off Trump’s
sex with minors
he Epstein’d.
How many people will die for this?
Do you even want one?
Yet you won’t say a word,
Trump supporters,
of how immoral he’s being.

Our nation is crashing.
Don’t you see it?
We need to change the world
of Trump.
We need to be a good nation
to other nations.
Defend me for sayin’ that?
No, I have not one defender.
I am alone in my hour of need,
and the police could shoot me
or lock me in a hole,
and the matter would be closed.

I have no friends or family who could help me.
I stand here alone.
One person on this Earth
who lifts me up
an adult who can do that—
Douglas.
Fine, beautiful,
is that what you say?
I can’t get over it,
the hatred of the crowd,
my fellow Americans
not being fair,
not being just,
just wanting me harmed
in however they can get that done.

Who sicced the cops on me?
I bet Christians.
Cowards.
I can do nothing for them,
but my poem’s here for them to read,
and my poem always will be.
I’ve reached a speech of Earth
that figures in the world.
It’s only a matter of time it does with the public
and not only the cops and some special arrangements.
People react to it
like they’ve been caught on fire.

So far no help has come,
no support group,
no friends
who I can count on,
but I’m rilin’ the crowd
with brotherly love,
with radical sayings
about the brotherhood of man,
a social system based on love,
even for the criminal,
even for the poor,
even for the nobody,
even for myself,
and you want me killed
or out of town?

Stand up and be counted.
Leave a comment here
and show your face.
You know what cowards are.
Are you being brave?
Call me stupid.
Call me a fool a bad man,
but I’m not a coward,
am I?

So what am I doing?
Conducting an open sacrifice
of my best interests
to communicate to you what I’ve seen,
to show you what I’ve learned from that.
Are you out there?
Are you sure you’re in the right wood?
Are you persecuting the wrong man?
Do you have any guts?
I’m hammer down
on you wishy-washy men and women
and on your meanness and lack of love,
on your ignorance,
on your lack of sacrifice.

There, you’ve got my message.
I spelled it out in plain language
poetry put.
I’ve told you what I’m about.
I’ve showed it to you, yourself.
Where do we go from here?
Let’s hope up.
There’s always shoes
you can put yourself in
of another person’s.
Walk three days in his moccasins the saying goes?
Well, would you do that please?
But anyway,
I’m a sitting duck.
That’s your right?

Fingership opening
to the trails that made the world
right here on my blog,
right in these poems,
and you wanna shoot me for it?
Let’s see how it looks
in the not so long from now,
your persecution of me.
Are you going to look like good men and women?
Are you a good cop?

As in a chemical weapon,
these cops are niggerin’ me.
They put fear in the air.
They try to intimidate me,
make me afraid.
It’s their tactic.
They are probably Christians too.
Are you seein’ a pattern here?
Christianity is not a religion of love,
as it expresses itself in political America.
Anyway this cop
has his eye on me,
like I’m doin’ somethin’ wrong,
but I’m only writing poetry.

They don’t know the gist of it,
what it’s for or how it’s done.
They think it’s intimidation
they can use to stop it.
Is poetry representation?
It has that in it yes,
even in its plainly spoken,
but it’s aimin’ at somethin’,
and that’s the strength to clear,
get your point across
a better world.

Poetry does that,
but it allows any character to speak.
Any opinion can be held
upon the page,
and the poet does not hold every opinion on the page
and can express the opposite opinion of his own
with the strength to say it
as its bearer would.
This allows for lots of play
but also misinterpretation,
with language at the center
and ideas.

Do you know where that takes us?
We arrive at art,
the output of man
at his best.
Through familial decisions,
the notions of a clan,
art has been degraded today
to hold no special status.
Poetry’s just spittin’ in the wind.
It has no directional paper.
The cops can use it
to put you in jail,
and in Florida,
they can do that with no charge
for over a month.
I don’t think we live in a free country,
but you would call me unpatriotic.

A poem is worth something more
than any other form of writing.
It’s elevated speech.
It’s priceless
when it really gets good.
We don’t honor poetry today,
and reading it is like reading the newspaper.
It’s literal fact and fiction.
It’s not playing with ideas
to sprout the Earth,
as a cop sees it,
or the people who called them on me
for writing poetry.

I can’t tell you the significance of this
as a barometer monitoring our freedom.
When art and poetry gets the knife,
calls the cops to your house,
your nation’s in trouble.
You’re at the red meter,
and it only gets worse.

Did anybody today benefit from my poem?
Are you open-eyed and see?
No, it’s not that simple.
Hearts closed are hearts closed,
and a mind of no light has no light,
only the rule-beats of the crowd,
or some scriptural layaway plan.
Hand over
your right to be,
that’s what that cop told me.

I did not chose my nature.
It did.
I have to deal with what comes.
I can’t live by my impulses.
I have an ordered house.
I don’t harm anyone.
I control myself day and night.
Am I stuck in the rafters?
I’m not having difficulty with this.
I have put sex to sleep
and thoughts of sex.
I keep anger out of the world
over and over.
I’m not a jealous person.
I’m not lazy either.
I do not lie, cheat, or steal.

I’m sorry,
the truth comes at a price,
and if I’m hiding Jews in my basement,
I don’t tell the Nazis they’re there.
I use common sense
as I employ morality.
I do no rigid rules,
except to keep from harming people,
but I do keep my hands from harming
the people around me.
It’s this I have to give,
because my nature would burn people otherwise.

I’m a flexible soul,
and I don’t expect everybody to hold
the same ideas in motion.
I realize I’m dealing with the crowd
when encountering individuals.
A storm
I encounter when I do that.
Everybody just thinks they’re free.
April 22nd
I’m on a collision course with reality.
I didn’t know that.
What does that mean?
Is it a prevision?
It doesn’t sound like it helps me.

How can I get away from here?
I can’t.
I don’t have any pistols.
I can’t afford to leave.
What’s comin’ my way?
What am I gonna collide with?
I can’t tell yah.
I’m a vulnerable man siting in his house
writing poetry.
Will they shoot my dog?
Will Boogers get burned,
Luna baby?
Why should a citizen go through this?
Is this the sin of poetry?
What’s goin’ on?

I’m into this up to my neck,
and it gets deeper.
Will you help me?
Oh course not—
like, like, like, like,
and if I’m lucky I’ll get four or more.
There will be no more help.
Southwest
Florida’s ultraconservative,
does not have love for your neighbor.
Gimme that alcohol!
So many drink here
and lead nice ordered lives
that no grills get in.

Do you know what’s goin’ on?
So many of you are hitting rock-bottom
in how you encounter the world
love in it.
They don’t know
it’s not a social persona hug you wear,
a smile broad as the sun
but not real to the wearer.
It’s not how you shake hands,
how firmly or with device.
It’s how you are with other people
who you don’t have to be good to,
who you can take that mask off with,
and right buddy,
I’m right fuckin’ there,
a nobody
with a stigma as wide as Texas?

When we first started you were good to me,
at least here on the island.
I wrote poems,
and you dropped me like a hot potata,
and that was that.
What am I sellin’ in my poetry?
Brotherly love I kid you not,
love all people and every livin’ thing,
and I explore that with myself too,
but love’s the keynote of my speech.
It’s where I bring my poems,
asking you to love too.
Love dropped me out of your room.
Love is what you’re mad at about me today.
I call you to love
when it hurts.

I call on you love now,
whatever you’re feelin’.
Put a higher ideal on your play,
have that higher ideal
lookin’ at you through everything.
Get mad sure,
get frustrated,
but always come back to love
before you grenade somebody,
before you try to get them shot,
take down their life.
You’re just bein’ petty and mean,
lowlife.

Do you know Steven
your name’s been called?
I could call it every day,
and you would not respond.
That’s just hateful,
Steven Step-Brother Abbott.
What’s goin’ on?
Are you there?
Hey girl and everything’s
not peaches and cream.
Emily you just pretend to talk to me
and want me on the end of a ten-foot pole—
my niece everybody.
Can you like,
get some guidance from somewhere inside,
and you guys higher ideal love?
I didn’t do anything to you,
either of you.
You see the stigma,
not the man.

How far will you go with that
to improve your world?
I think you’ll go backwards.
If it’s poison from within,
I can help you there.
Just give me a ring.
Alright family?
You’re all that I have left.
Do you understand that bit?
I’m fighting for my life here.
I can use some support you look up.
I could use that,
the understanding.

When I was a kid and playing football,
we had one more game
the Thompson Lions.
I was third string,
tailback of all things.
Got chased with the ball
more than I ran it.
It was a fiasco
I tried to play catch.
I was in the adolescent showdowns,
pimples all over my face
and pigeon-toed feet.
Do you see that levy today?

I just want yah to leave your phone
number at when I can call.
I can’t even sit at anybody’s table.
I’m a bigger voice
than that discovery teenager.
I’m about the world now,
and I keep the juice in my gun and don’t masturbate,
and I give harm to no one.
Will it make any difference
Steven,
Emily?

Alright I’ve pulled you up on the carpet.
Mean, is that mean?
I’m in dire straits here,
and family is given to me as the model
of who you can always rely on.
That model’s bullshit,
but almost every movie plays it
and so many of our songs.
Open it,
let’s open it,
we are family.
[sing above line, song title, Sister Sledge]
Total perception,
there’s what happenin’
in this poetry seer.
I see you’re not organized enough to see it.
Calm down,
I’m not mad at you.
I just need some help,
okay?

She didn’t have little kids at her house
or any sore thumbs.
He might represent
ailing mankind.
They’re gonna get that option too,
the program I failed.
Where’s history draw the line,
option failed?
I think the world’s bigger than that
and conscious too.
Wouldn’t you want to see that in my eyes?
Talkin’ to you
my family.
Lip service,
you know I don’t play that game.

Now hypocrisy,
this is exactly
David Koresh,
the stupidity he treated kids with
when he put them in bed with him.
Are you going over that with me?
Even if you had doubts you know that’s not true.
There is a deeper interior
you haven’t gotten to,
a more profound base.
From there,
if you’re connected with someone,
your heart reached out
and saw if they were right or not.
If you had a perfect comeback,
you could judge me in sin,
but I’m not in sin am I?
Your eyes can see inside
that far.

So now you will ignore me
and not hear my plea?
I’m here man I’m here.
Will you send the cops
and try to kill me,
or will you purple up this paper
with the royalty it shows,
the kingdom of love?
Straight as altitude,
I am the seat on my helmet.
Listen to me quick.
I won’t leave the world behind.
I won’t leave you behind either,
if we have an opening together.

Now tell me,
is truth worth Supermind?
I’m all ears,
and a book really turned me on
at the sap,
Hand Over That Mountain,
and it looks like
I truly am.
Just dry and soft
no.
It’s the tallest thing you’ll ever read,
and nothing can match it watch it grow.

Tell her to turn down please,
turn down.
A student’s library
run any bounds here?
We need to change the world.
Put paratroopers and airplanes
and drop them over everything.
Why are you so disguise my bucket?
Do you think I’m molestin’ the world?
It’s medic though.
It gives you the real thing.

Trust yourself first
you’re not limited,
and that’s the axle of the program,
the inner guide.
Come on people hear it now.
Hear it give this voice a song,
and hear me sing it loud,
my sweet Lord.
[sing above line, song title, George Harrison]
Am I standin’ on whodunit?
I’m clear as a whistle here,
hallelujah
my dear Lord.
[sing above two lines to tune of “My Sweet Lord”]
Did my song reach you?
Did you come on board?

Heavy duty,
that can do it,
and I’m right in the middle
doin’ it,
right in the middle of everybody,
on mountaintops.
There I am with you,
but this was a job to have by the economies,
and now continue
you’re wrapped around.
Diego your boyhood answer,
how it followed you home
puppy love.

Am I missin’ beats?
It was a host’s problem
we couldn’t buy, sell, trade
just makin’ stuff up.
This is the inner voice you know,
and it gets down on the inside
real clear,
line by line’s you’re good at readin’
that little girl with her cat.
Pussy, pussy,
[sing above line as poussé, poussé is sung]
and you heard that before
by John Lennon
he heard in a dream,
changed the lyric
to not get censored,
and right here we gold rush his song
“#9 Dream”
the pussy he let up to survive.

There are a lot of interesting places I
kept Gemini freeways
where I went with a song.
You want that,
my God do you want that.
You want the truth of that song.
Not gonna fit
in our helpless lesson plans.
Motivational speakers,
they get banned.
Bullshit.
Well I’m lettin’
the inner voice out.
Maybe if I can
go all the way to town with it,
I might get in trouble,
but here I am,
[sing above line to tune of, “Turn the Page”, Bob Seger]
and we’re on the last line.

I was lyricist
nine ruly women
making all ideas,
making the sound of ideas,
out past all forms and last lines
a breach loved it of the Unknown.
Who can say no to that?
I’m at the stage.
[sing above line to tune of “Turn the Page”]
Fine, I’ll come home,
in the right caption.
A parting shot:
am I going there alone?
Sell my own question
those mattress or we’re dead,
what we lay on together son,
get right down to it
higher life.

What are you doing?
Miss further if I don’t cut off now.
Round Tree followed the pix
moon trail.
Silence?
That’s where this poem comes from,
and that’s where it returns.
Reich Train wants your Jews and holocaust.
It’s a matter of board.
That’s always on the table.
It has somethin’ to do with the Israel lobby yeah,
but more than that,
much more than that,
we don’t want it in our society again,
the organized massed destruction of people,
the systematic butcher,
the very precise and orderly killing machine,
the very mundane of massacre,
done like you go to church
or to the dentist’s office,
so fucking banal it drives you crazy,
so ordinary it flips you out.

Don’t laugh we’re approaching that again.
ICE and its niggers
bring that to mind with hand and feet.
Now could they do a holocaust,
Trump and his regime?
If they could get that far.
Look at the climate today.
What does Alligator Alcatraz mean?
Look at the lip behind it,
the flippant notion,
the c'est la vie,
the wear it on a t-shirt,
and we’re talking about people put in a prison
for deportation,
men, women, and children
(the latter two on the way)
in a swamp.

I can gather other bright ideas
from what’s goin’ on,
but you see the mounting wheels.
It can happen here,
believe it or not,
immigrants, pedophiles,
you name it.
We can stick anybody into that Shoah.
Look at public opinion.
Who’s vermin?
The people that ICE murders,
and don’t you find that odd
there’s no remorse?
Oh I’m sorry I killed a mother and her three children.
That woman barely did an infraction.
Talk to her children today.
Where’s momma?
I want my momma.
And you’re okay with that?
She got in the way.
It was her fault
she was murdered.

You are so stick in the ICE.
Are you from Naples are yah,
Bonita Springs,
Fort Myers Beach?
I wrote poetry and you put the cops at my door.
You could be a killing machine,
oh yeah.
You can support massacres.
What do you have to say for yourselves?
Come on, leave a comment below.
Will you send more cops to my house,
because I’ve made you mad?
I’m on the island.
Well, hey, you can give me to money to leave.
Happiness is seeing Florida in my rearview mirror,
and I’m not in a police car.
Could you help me with that?
Well I do appreciate it.
I thank you,
you rich people.
Oh eye of the needle
is waiting for you,
and I bet you must be Christian.
Goddamn hallelujah,
and pass the ammunition, right?
Yeah.

Some kind of return to luminous secrecy,
I sat immobile on life’s verge
a witness self
not yet achieved,
but the sun is out,
but the Self is out.
I turn in thoughts of Self
and luminous change,
a heretic
in your eyes,
a monster in some.
I spy the Earth
right where I am,
on your doorstep,
poetrying your hatred to sleep,
or opening your eyes wider,
if your heart’s on luminous change.
What are you doin’?
I sit and wait for change.
On a bottom line I sit and hurt
waiting for the police to show up.
You into that?

If we gave ourselves,
we cannot see the trail.
We’re haphazard in the dark
in our guessing lines.
I can’t see a good on the horizon
comin’ down the pike my way.
Can you reader?
Oh reader can you?

It’s not about harming children.
It looks like you’ve won
the fight there.
We just don’t know about your guitar.
Is it a Shakespearean tragedy?
Anyway,
you’re really down to massagin’ horses.
You capture me with verse.
You’re on your pen
a poet deals with the world,
and you poet the skyline
to where we go from here.
Thank you devil.
Thank you bullpen.
Thank you the right thing.
I’ll punch my time card
right here in your verse,
and man there’s a lot of people down there
could discover your book.
It’s another thing entirely.
It’s a Shakespearean sonnet
William Blake wrote.
It’s so up our horse’s ass it’s pretty.
You’ve got the light on poetry,
and you’re fuckin’ good.
I’ll see yah at noon.

Damn, I didn’t expect that.
I’ll set the books down
and jump to sleep.
A reader made my day.
Give you an orange.
You picked up on
a reader focused in the house,
let him speak,
but you put the poetry on ‘im.
Now girl,
she’s got somethin’ else to show yah
more concerned with the kiddies,
as women do,
but you should get passing grades
with her too.
You’re just not in fancy school yet.
I mean your verse is there.
There’s no line of acceptance
as a poet yet.
You are often weird,
your style too complicated for people to read
like contemporary poetry.
It’s out of style,
the verse you put out.
That’s okay.
Out of style once,
and style won’t be your main concern
when you get landed on by the public.

We’ll check the fire station
what fires they put out,
people readin’ your verse.
Oh, one question:
do you make a livin’,
yes or no?
No I don’t.
I don’t know how anymore
after my knee got torn.
Now I just sit and write verse
a lot.
That’s a job.
That’s an honest day’s work.
You’re helpin’ society with its needs.
You’re openin’ the frying pan and puttin’ yourself on the fire.
That’s valuable,
worth somethin’.
Would you be opposed to charity donations?
You’ve offended all the rich people,
but hey,
maybe somebody’ll give yah a hand,
and you haven’t made the rich out to be bad.
Thank you.
I’ll keep up the good work.

Darlin’ dog,
it’s time for papa to go to sleep.
I’ll just squeeze you one last time,
give you some pettin’
to put love in my sleep angle.
Goodnight honey dog.
It’s just not gonna go in there,
the keynote express.
Alright I’ll lift the moon.
Oh yeah,
gonna sing and dance all night.
They call the restaurant kitchen,
and divine beings fill the room,
I mean in its thought spheres.
I’ve got some things to show for it,
this poem
the Muses bring.
God on earth,
let’s get this party started.

Can you connect the dots?
The indescribable undiscovered continent,
well it comes down here and inhabits us
just above the top of the head,
I mean inhabits our universe,
divinizes our world,
and we see from there.
Isn’t that the process of the ages?
It’s what we’re doin’ here,
discoverin’ Ourselves,
that Person I described up there,
where it wasn’t manifested yet
in our neck of the woods,
I mean in mine.
Impossible as the long is day,
we’re gonna get up there,
and it’s gonna meet us there in our new station
above the top of the head,
just as pretty as you please.

And now I lay me down to sleep.
I can find it better
where I’m not seekin’ playin’ cards.
Goodnight muse.
Goodnight people.
Goodnight dog.
Goodnight poem.
I’ve said it all.
The clear factor,
oh my goodness,
I’ve put my room in there.
Not this mission is a secret,
and it’s no tragedy
you bunch of hound dogs.
Fine thing,
you should hang out with us.
A chocolate program that’s alone in time,
that’s
our little village Triumphant.
We need to put that house in the woods somewhere.
Okay, open to ideas.
You got an intentional community you wanna share?
Give us a call at BR-549,
the email on this blog
Hee Haw,
and you got a donation button
right there at your fingertips
put us on freeways.
You can call it emergency.
You can call it we need help
Rotterdam.
Well I kiss your wood
goodnight.

He got it well from within.
Who plucked sin from nature’s view
and came to the world’s window for all to see?
That’s I am.
I am the duration of that ride.
Oh what are you on TV for,
to see the bad guys win,
to see the Earth fall apart,
to see yourself in the mirror?
I’m the initiation of the world.
Look who’s spoken.
I am the process from on high.
Do you know good?

Original TV,
I resist your darts and arrows
and sling them back poetry.
You are not on that mountain:
to be the bringer of change,
to be the poet at hand,
and you will not understand
I’m talkin’ to you about love
where we go to from here.
You want to shoot that?
I got some ocean front property in Arizona,
[sing above line, “Ocean Front Property”, George Strait]
and you are lying through your teeth.
I joined the hemispheres,
and I’m not backin’ down from that
wooden sacrifice.
I’m the real thing.
I lay down my life
for freedom,
and I give my all
to love.
Listen, do you?

The Advice Capitalism

photo by the author

This is one of the poems that got me fired from my job at the Greater Fort Myers Beach Chamber of Commerce. The president, who fired me, told Douglas, who also works there, that board members and others were sending her excerpts of things I’d “penned”, claiming I was making fun of them.

If you are reading this poem on a phone, note that the integrity of the lines, a major feature of poetry, is not displayed properly. Many if not most get cut short because of the small screen.
Under Fire
Lake
with the hatred that rules society.
I’m on a mountain.
Each new tap on the shoulder crosses worlds
Snoopy rides,
but I’m into the fire
large out on the floor
from all the spiritual dawns.
You hear the spiritual advice at the Roxie?
Knock it off.
I’m a tourist information booth.

Everybody has left the United States.
We are beached on a poem.
There’s nowhere to turn.
I’ve fucked up.
I’ve called poetry in on its job.
I can’t even show you the poem.
You’d fight me for it.
Guaranteed I’d lose my job,
and I’d be homeless again.

What’s these great stakes?
Snowball,
we’d watch it rise downhill,
until my boss heard about it,
our not allow four dogs landlord.
Can I call them on it?
I can describe their preferences
that would reach the limit at this poem.
How much help they’ve given me
would end there.

What I am sayin’?
I’ve got a poem to knock your socks off,
but you don’t want to read it
if you’re a normal American fanfare,
if you reach deep in your pocketbooks
to exploit people,
if you make hell the end of the game
for non-Jesus people.

Can I get away with murder?
I have to be careful what I say.
I can’t open my mouth
in poetry.
I wanna see my dogs,
and I wanna live again.
Can you blame me
for self-censorship?
This isn’t fair.
I suffer.

I do not understand capitalism.
It won’t accept another way of life
that makes sacrifice a way of life,
sacrifice for your brother
and sister in life,
sacrifice to the better in you.
We’re beached on whale,
and even communism beaches there
and our church’s regard.

Come on Sacrifice Capitalism,
the laissez faire don’t believe in,
can we change the world there?
I have a hunch.
Before profits we ask need,
what’s best for the community,
and can we have humanity please
considered too?
Can we grand the whole world
in business decisions
so that animals matter
and the breath of our life trees,
what about for our island
Fort Myers Beach?

Sacrifice Capitalism
ladies and gentlemen.
Work out the details
school children in role play,
every business leader.
The profits take a backseat to need.
Can we get there?

Not even to a poem
I cannot show you
because you would not let me do it,
be a poet on live,
talk about the weather,
and political Christians
control the weather
that bursts apart in our minds,
and money rules the show.

I can’t spit out the juice.
I’m not exactly at fault.
Do you believe in poetry?
It’s just somethin’ to report to your superiors?
Now I need everybody to take a deep breath.
Is this paper weight?
A ninny of a poem,
a filler for time shares.
Wanna see the real thing?
Wanna see it?
You do?
Do you thirst for it?

I’m on a bank of the Lord
deliverin’ the paper.
A big decision,
and I’m not safe.
Ask you another question.
Glory did somethin’?
Whoa my poem just went in the air.
It’s gonna take some doin’
I rush this right through.
I’m 33-years-old,
givin’ out a lot of free material.
They killed him.
Damn,
you got your hands on me.
Do you get me my poetry constituents?

Fire in the yard,
I’m gonna put some poetry someplace else,
a whole nuther anthem from here.
I don’t trust you.
You’ll kick me out for poetry.
You won’t even give me a chance
to bring my dogs to town
my poetry has made you so mad.

This is the price you pay for poetry.
They take from you what you love.
They make you know you must comply
in the bowels of the truth
and keep your poem from the public mind
that would change minds.

“Faiths Are Only a Doubt”,
or whatever title it bears,
the poem I’m waiting for
to set the record straight,
is blowin’ in the wind.
Can you capitalism that?
Can capitalism show that?

In Dire Straits

image by the author

This poem was sent to the editorial board of Renaissance (BharatShakti) of The Sri Aurobindo Society, who I’ve submitted poems to that use obscene language and present ideas people don’t like to talk about. It has been published by Edge of Humanity Magazine: https://edgeofhumanity.com/2024/11/11/harms-end-blog-by-donny-lee-duke-in-dire-straits/

We have that place where,
yep, you need to turn on that character light.
I would say he does not deserve the title respect
call him.
Thank you sadhak.
Nat started a story.
It was obscenity of being,
the crazy what’s up nails trauma
a bunch of us go through.
Are we on your calendar?

You’re nice and pretty.
Does that mean you’re good
in the sense of good to all of us?
We’ve got a world here in a tin can.
It hurts everybody.
You would not like a story that makes you mean.
Is that transformative?

Watch movies that’s all you see,
a blight of entertainment
“televised from the gulfs of Night” [from Savitri, an epic poem by Sri Aurobindo]
that tells stories
to pit you against one another,
to make your blood boil,
to let the demons in.

There isn’t a place on the planet it’s not
on your local TV.
This is what we’ve gotta get out of,
get back to our dream maker
as the one we watch and write.
Is that a perverted slam?

You would boil at the inner consciousness
because it pits you against your morality papers:
don’t say cuss words;
don’t mention sex;
don’t talk about getting your dick sucked when you were five
by your mother.
What have I just done?

I let the inner consciousness in
in language that grabs you and moves you,
that has the day on it,
that gives you a porn whereabouts
so many faces are into these days.
It hits you where you’re at
if you can’t tell right from wrong,
if you’re lost in all this sleaze.
We’re tryin’ to reach people not preach to them.

A dream comes out
from someone who suffered this
in the language that it felt like,
and the elect can’t take it
because they don’t know how to deal with it.
They’re into quotes of Sri Aurobindo and pictures of deity.
They look at spirituality as the cure
and not addressin’ what’s wrong
in the language that needs to.

Everybody just be nice.
Make your concentration daily
and let no wrong movements in.
Be cheerful and happy.
There’s no end to the advice
in spiritual seeking.
Let’s get down to the nitty-gritty of life.
Let’s use those quotes to solve problems.
The Mother and Sri Aurobindo are a wealth of that,
applied in ways you haven’t imagined yet,
because you’re religious and one-sided.

We need to heal,
so many of us.
You can’t imagine what it’s like
where hell has opened in humanity.
This is all over the globe,
terrible stories
that’ll make you cry
if you had your empathy on.

We need to heal the world first,
then spiritualize it,
and spirituality will be healing,
because that’s what it’s made for,
if it’s the soul involved.
You don’t know this.
Soul healing’s to you a preacher wrote.
It’s not test the limits of humanity
in making healing the order of the day.
This soul is wide and free.
You don’t know that either.

You look at the Gods of Overmind,
the lowest rung.
They’re moral and straight.
They have seen God in passing
one time maybe.
They are closest to us
in the ways of deity.
They make rules and regulations,
put experiments on vice
and get rid if it not heal it.
Our whole world is taken by Them.
It’s what we need to change
and bring a new order upon the Earth,
soul healing
in the dynamics of Supermind.

You don’t know how wide God is,
when it comes to the personal growth process of wholeness and healing. /
That’s been my path all along,
and it’s gotten acute where I show it to you,
all Sri Aurobindo’d.
What else can I do?
I’m his disciple
and a seer of his wisdom,
and I’ve been told to talk to you.

I’ve spent 25 years learin’ my craft,
a lifetime before that as a poet.
You can’t fault me
in preparation,
all prepared for yah.
Grab me by the balls will yah
and throw me to policemen,
or at least try to shut me up?
God’s will be done.

One editorial board member, Dr. Alok Pandey, who is listed as a “Member, Research Advisory Council, Sri Aurobindo Society,” replied to my emails, three times, the first: “May Her Grace be with you,” her meaning the Mother, the second: “What is tormenting your soul so much dear child?” and the third: “You are quite right. You seem to be an angry and arrogant brash revolting angel.  I don’t find your poetry tasteful or even poetry. It is a blurting out of things stirring in your subconscious, not mind nor higher, but inframental forces. That’s my view about your poetry. By the way I am not part of any organization nor have any access to publishing poetries so you could perhaps try some other place or person. Good luck. May the Grace be with you.” No one else on the board or in that organization has replied.

Tomorrow in the Hall

That’s why what I can get on the television is behind your imagination,/
you’re too fat.
What’s that?
It’s a soft glow.
You’re wrapped around the axle of society
eating everything you can get your hands on,
entertainment spook outs,
song after song after song,
the news minute,
and bubbles and bubbles of internet stuff,
and books that make you mean.

You can’t get away from society
in your newspaper.
What’s that supposed to mean?
You suck society’s dick
a porn hub.
I’ve just offended half the nation.
The other half’s asleep.
Why can’t I suck dick on television?

I’m using figures of speech
to show our involvement with society.
I just got censored out of society,
but can I employ you in your mule,
weave together a story
using pockets of molten lava?
I’m tryin’ to get yah riled up.
I want to show you you’re pasted by society.

Would Sri Aurobindo say that?
I think he would allow inspiration to come
and not worry about sensibilities.
He would not future poetry
to make it stand a language model
that forgets our garbage stuff.
He would future poetry.

I want you offended.
I want to show you what you’re made of.
That’s not squeaky clean.
It’s all over the place.
If I took you into the Silence,
you would want to come back.
You do not know the spiritual consciousness.
You think it’s a morality speaker,
a set of rules you follow to get there.

A whole other world
arrives when spirituality arrives.
I don’t think you saw that yet.
You’re a radical revolutionary
if you’ve taken off ego a moment.
I have never been there permanently,
so I can’t say there.
Did you think Sri Aurobindo was like your local priest?

I want you to examine yourself
in the light of society.
It’s mean it sucks,
and it will throw you to the wolves
if you just can’t make it fit right,
your will with what society says no.
Say you molest children—
I’m going to marry a millionaire.
Oh my God you’ve processed God,
and you no longer molest children.

You can love a child now like it’s God lookin’ at yah,
and you love that child.
The formula’s in the Bhagavad Gita;
you just don’t hear it,
or you think it can’t be done.
Fuck a child,
and society will never let you in again.
I’m boilin’ your paper right now.
I wanna show you how small you are
when it comes to the big stuff.
You just morally react.

You don’t know how to do it,
heal a person from society’s ways.
It’s society that fucks children;
I guarantee it.
What’s the softball today?
We learn to love each other,
even those you hate.
If I can’t accomplish love,
I can at least accomplish understanding.
That mother beats my child,
and she’s raped him from me.
I could take a stick and beat her myself,
but that would just make her meaner.
I understand her jealousy
and her lack of control.
I just sit with it.

I’m rescuin’ my boy.
You hear it done
special in our media.
I’m gonna see him safe,
and I’m gonna bring him back to papa.
That’s my name on his lips.
He calls me daddy.
We have a room for him
in a whole new place.
This is spiritual journey,
in the air of spiritual journey,
where that boy’s no longer in Pondicherry,
so that boy’s ocean will work.
Grab you guys
in a manner of minutes,
and anyway,
I’m makin’ sure the roads are prepared for him.

I was gonna give this poem to who would’ve thought it,
but for now let it sit on this Facebook page.
Those of us who would change society
have to live under its auspices.
Society would rather kill than change.
It’s acquired a life of its own
apart from the individual.
It’s got great steed on it,
but we’ve reached the end of its present rope with us.
The world will be destroyed before society changes;
I mean it’s bragged about that,
if you can hear the writing on the wall.

How do I know all this?
I’ve been from one end of society to the other,
from the mountain to the monster,
and I’ve grown bigger than society
makin’ that monster
climb to the mountaintop
and seein’ God from there.
The monster changes his panties
and grabs society by the horns
so that society can see itself
for the monster that it is.
I’m no more monster.

Can you ride with me?
I have some beef to show you.
Holy cow,
let somebody eat beef,
if they’re just tired of the same old fare,
what doesn’t take you rocket launch,
what keeps you in the bounds of society,
what goes no deeper than a three dimensional world
bound to love its aunties
and the open vigilante.

Am I chargin’ wool?
Hey man, are you mediocracy?
I sucked the wrong dick.
You are basically a big person.
A big person,
you are God unawares;
you are the look of the Lord
when He forgets Himself.
Let’s all dance to this tune:
hey God, wake up.

See yah on Sunday,
on Saturday,
in your religious house of worship.
It just kills the kids doesn’t it?
They know there’s more to God than that.
They know there’s Everlasting,
but you’ll just slap them around
if you find out
this thing has to do with naked and
not with their school books.

I’ve been the danger a kid faces at midnight,
and my God watch it grow,
their Shazam.
They know there’s more than little TV,
and I’m not talkin’ about the sex stuff.
They know they can get beyond this movie,
that God is bigger than Her lists,
and don’t just stand there;
do somethin’.

It’s put up here hangover
on that third eye.
You’re just gonna have to get your shit together.
I’m compound joy.
There is actually a petting session over here.
Nithish called.
Everything’s fine.
I will see my little boy soon.

We’re all at a movie.
It’s packed.
Saw the hall were you there?
Every divine minute
the time it took to free me.
No,
you were there willingly and cooperatively,
and you woke up with a bang;
it hurt too much,
just like the Buddha said.
We just don’t put illusion on everything,
because God’s there
the hunt.

Wanna see?
See past your nose
blockade.
Make you feel the situation,
make you feel the heartbeat,
make you get out of yourself,
river find out
the apocalypse,
if you don’t hum the right tune.
That’s in our field today.

See that little boy?
He’s weathered the storm.
I’m not just gonna leave ‘im there.
I’m gonna bring ‘im home.
I’m gonna open up
where God dwells.
Wanna see me do it?
I know how.

Alright people, listen up.
The Earth song,
do you just cram society?
These are open bars.

Come on Grace,
let’s go pee pee.
We can’t send her out alone.
That little Beagle’s still a puppy.
I gave ‘er
more than the rat race.
Come on let’s go
to your human, darling,
and I took myself to divinity.
You comin’?

Society rose,
what’s the historia?
It’s wide open,
every means to God to get there,
even through the snake.
You just stop biting people,
even through the murderer and rapist.
Now that I can put this in literal terms,
so can your doctor.
I be doc.

Listen up,
let’s start from the beginning.
Dicks out.
No, you don’t go out.
The boy’s offended by the balls.
That boy’s offended by the power
of some certain dirty thing
even mentioned in a poem.
Take it off the neck.
No, I don’t wanna get yah to do it.
Can’t heal it ‘less you hear it,
and that’s in the meat grinder,
a poem so everybody can get off,
a poem so everybody heals
from this disaster
we propagate as society.

That boy got offended,
that readership.
I won’t say fuck you God no.
I’ll see yah when you’re open again,
after death,
or this poem will.
It’s got strings on it
that pull you along
where this poet meets the world.

There’s a response.
There’s a regular response.
Can you feel it?
It’s on the way home.
You’re bigger than mountains,
and you don’t have to be bothered by anyone
or what they say.
This is a test of your truth speaker.
Can you get past this test?
All we are saying is give peace a chance.
[above line heard sung by Plastic Ono Band]
Truth can be known that doesn’t betray yah.
Get back in there
tenderfoot.
I think my muse is talking to me.
Goddamn,
there’s just no end to the beginning.

This poem was written for the Facebook page Teachings of Mother and Sri Aurobindo – Discussion forum, but I’ve tried to post it twice, and each time it’s been deleted automatically upon posting, and so I submitted it to a member of that group called Renaissance, an arm of the Sri Aurobindo Society that is doing a feature on the purpose of art. In their series, there’s an essay by Nolini Kanta Gupta, arguably Sri Aurobino’s main disciple. Ignore the introduction by the Renaissance team and just skip to the essay: “The Obscene and the Ugly – Form and Essence“. It will add flavor and standing to my poem in the light of the the Integral Yoga.

Big Time Song

This is Nitish’s new video for his YouTube Channel

Nitish wrote this song himself, while in school. Sitting in class, the core of the song and its basic melody came to him via the inner voice in the space of several minutes. He heard the lines sung to him on the inside, and he copied them down one by one, a process he’s watch me do since he was very small in the writing of poetry. Then, over the course of the next two weeks, as I put the song to the guitar, both he and I heard lines of the song sung to us on the inside, my muse giving the last 2 lines of the 3rd verse and the last 5 lines of the song, the repeats not included.

You may not grasp the significance of an 11-year-old having this kind of ability and talent, or that of his inner self speaking its truth. Heretofore he’s only written lines of poetry via the inner voice, and this is his first song. And, despite him not being able to carry a tune to save his life, it’s a song so you might listen to him this time, this video, as it seems you only really like music videos.

This minor miracle is a soul rescue. The boy was once again on the verge of tears at school, because he’s unable to keep up academically because of undiagnosed dyslexia, but at least at this school he’s not being beaten for it, as has happened in the past, trauma that surfaces very easily. His soul is not telling him he’s a victim, however. It’s letting him tell how he feels, but, it’s telling him not to run from his challenges. It’s interesting that it’s not telling him to do good in school but to shine in his room, your room in dream and vision a symbol for your own personal room in the house of humanity, your individuality, your personal consciousness, the body included, distinct from others but an integral part of the whole. We need parents, teachers, religions, organizations, big business, and governments to respect the sanctity of our room.

You might understand that the sudden attention to the song and the making of this video concentrated him on a difficult task, not to mention the awesomeness of having your inner self sing you such a song and all the faith in the divine that brings—like God really cares—drawing his attention away from his suffering and his ‘woe is me’ attitude, and it’s also helped him to cope at school, and now he’s doing a little better academically, but he wants me to home school him, something I very much want to do because it’s my job with him to teach him the craft of the poet-seer, my craft, and tell me the Tamil people and the world does not need another poet of that force and stature. Here are some recent lines of his inner poetry:

ஒலைய வெட்றது மட்டும் தான் நம்ப வேல,
ஒலைய கட்டுறது கடவுலோடய வேல.
[Translation: Don’t believe just the sound.
Building a sound is a divine task.]

I wasn’t born to be my parent’s child.
I was born to be the universe’s child.
You will express trauma.

Sometimes you can bend life.

God’s gift.

He’s wearing a ghost costume and a makeshift burka as a means of protest. It’s an artistic representation of the social position of children. Their voice is not respected or even heard, and they are not looked at as real people but only as someone to indulge, protect, and care for. Adults speak for them and tell them what they should think and how they should feel. They have no right to be an individual. They must obey the adults in their life, and they must go to school. If they protest, they’re threatened with punishment. It’s as though they themself, their personhood, is a ghost because it’s not seen or recognized.

The costume is also a creative symbol of the attitude in society of restricting the images of children in the public sphere of the internet, speaking of images that are not pornographic in nature. It’s as though we’re putting burkas on them in our attitude and, increasingly, in our policies. Specifically, we are protesting YouTube recently taking down a video, “Nitish 9 to 10”, a video that features photos and videos of him around the house and outside. In some of the indoor shots he’s in his underwear. There are no nude shots, no shots to suggest anything sexual. No strike was given for the video. As time goes on, YouTube is restricting content more and more, and what was okay before suddenly isn’t now. We would like YouTube to reinstate the video or at least give it back, as we don’t have a copy of it, and it’s an important record of his childhood.

Guitar and video by Donny Lee Duke
song© S. Nithish 2023

A Temple Doing

This video is a significantly revised version of one originally entitled “He’s Markin’ the Pitter of the Universe”, posted in February 2022.

Look at the Outcast

Adolf Hitler 1933

Infant Orgasm,
Infant Orgasm You See

(Note: from July 2016 to December 2016, I posted seer poems on Facebook written specifically for our educational page Harm’s End. I know FB was aware of the posting at the time, because some poems were boosted and had to go through Facebook’s review process, with one being rejected, one about the prophet Mohammad, although FB did not take it down or flag it in any way. On August 4, 2020, I copied all the poems, along with their images, to my computer, and a day later a poem from 2016 was taken down for violating their community standards, showing me my activity was being closely monitored by FB. I then deleted any image I thought FB might object to, unaware that an image of Hitler is now flagged by FB as a matter of course. That it is now but wasn’t in 2016 reflects a growing trend of censorship on the net. It won’t be long before anything that seriously questions the generally accepted reality construct or tires to introduce things that construct isn’t seeing and doesn’t want to will be banned from the major social media platforms and taken as far as possible out of the public eye. In other words, the net will become like TV.

This poem along with this image was posted on FB September 10, 2016. It was flagged August 15, 2020, but not taken down, citing it violated their community standards, and I edited it the following day, adding material in brackets within the poem that explain the poetry, to make it clear I wasn’t violating their community standards. Within 10 minutes after editing it, our page Harm’s End was unpublished. Although this poem fits into a poetic conversation on my FB feed and is out of context to post here by itself, I’m posting it here to protest the censorship of art and poetry on Facebook and on the net in general, in this case, poetry whose purpose it is to heal, not harm, however controversial it may be.)

Executive order.
Anyway she just surprised me.
Hitler, the 1st letters of incest,
rape.
It started World War II.
Half the money
the gate come open.
What come out?
I know it,
the material,
the material of war,
the material of concrete war.

Incest gun,
check it out.
That’s not a gift.
It’s an orgasm
your mom gives ya,
or your dad,
an adult in the family.
The house owner
outside of somethin’.
It’s American.
We know it’s German.
It’s also England,
all countries,
just a story on it
broken.
You wouldn’t hit everybaby,
enough to organize
the required material.
Is that war?
You said it baby.

It’s German
under the feet.
That means it’s right there:
kill ‘em,
thousands gas.
Bring them on the table
but be careful.
Daddy was good wasn’t he
or mommy special?
We do this in an orderly fashion.
Got that right.
Just line ‘em up
and shoot ‘em,
terrible.
I’m gonna
keep comin’.
What’s this?
An orderly compound,
an orderly room.
Procedure, procedure?
And we built the gas chambers,
and we built
orgasm.

Give that kid
trouble,
not between his legs,
not
now,
not now.
Look out the window.
Go to the door.
It needs an umbrella:
the night of the generals.
They have a very detailed IQ.

THEY.
People are bad.
Not everybody.
He doesn’t like,
he has a very knowledgeable
presence with Jews.
Art school,
they wouldn’t let ‘im in.
Art college,
they wouldn’t let him in now.
Okay make them unworthy,
lump them with all the undesirables,
society’s degenerates,
but blame them for everything.
They are the masterminds
of all that’s wrong with the world,
of all that’s wrong with our country.

[understand the poetry: those are Hitler’s views, not the poet’s.]

Fell down –
see a war,
a war,
a world war:
give to me
my mountain.

You have to understand
orgasm.
It changes war.
It’s a blitzkrieg
of physical pleasure
on an I unformed.
One second.
There’s an I.
Is there
more like the animal I.
Is that me?
That building centerfold
the earth
is removed from the scene.
I’m a baked chump,
burn in a holocaust of pleasure.

Understand
repeated action,
all this mess over time.
It has a tendency
to rob you of pleasure,
organize your role
an antenna
to try and get things in order,
down
if you know what I mean,
not up in the sky.
Look at
the nice uniforms,
the insignia,
the roll of tanks.

You’ve been robbed you see,
and that damage,
and you in ego formation,
and God did it,
your parent.
Any questions Paramount?
That’s it.

(There is, it should be understood, a personal interpretation to this poem throughout, since, in truly inspired art, in seer poetry especially, it’s at bottom, however remotely, also about the artist. In this light, the verse about Hitler being rejected from art college and subsequently scapegoating all Jews because of that can also be interpreted to be about the refusal of my entire society, Jews, non-Jews, everybody, to let me into the art of the day, but the personal interpretation isn’t tit for tat with the poem, as it just lights upon it here and there. If you want to know how the personal interpretation applies to the main subject of the poem, infant orgasm, read this comment I posted on Medium before my Medium account is also suspended, because I color outside the lines.

If you want to know the occult truth behind Hitler, read the book The Light That Shone Into the Dark Abyss by Maggi Lidchi-Grassi, 1994, Sri Aurobindo Ashram Press (not available to read online). Facebook, which almost a third of the world’s population uses, has such an unwarranted and inequitable influence over the knowledge that we pass around, and it (like not only the other online mega-businesses, but also the major news outlets and the great majority of the entertainment industry I might add) is in its core beliefs reductionist materialist, however many employees it has that doesn’t hold those beliefs. If that’s not enough, it’s in it for profit, and if Facebook encounters material that makes people feel uncomfortable, a loss of profit steps in and makes the decision, and even if it doesn’t violate its policies, FB will simply ban it. Now, the truth of us, the good, the bad, and the ugly, it might hurt to hear it, you know?

Is the human matter finished? I mean, is there anything more to discover about us other than the fundamental beliefs that we’ve built human society upon, and those are that we are individual human islands expendable to the sea of humanity and inconsequential compared to it, islands possessing an absolute freewill and a consciousness that doesn’t extend beyond the island that we each are, and, in the intrinsic ground of who we are, we are nothing more than that island? Here we are at the cutting edge of humanity. This is the denied knowledge trying to gain entry: there is more to discover about us, and we are more than that.

I’ll end with an analogy to put the subject matter of this poem into a context that will make what I’m attempting here more apparent:

“This thing no one ever talks about before, and when we are the first ones to talk about it, there are a lot of people that think this thing shouldn’t be touched, this thing is you know, sacred, and the people that think you are going too far, and all of these people are going to undermine our movement, for sure.” Quote from a Thai protester in Bangkok speaking to a BBC reporting about protesters questioning the power of the Thai monarchy. Source: BBC video “Thai protests: Thousands join rally in Bangkok”, 17 Aug 2020.)