Transcendence

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If you are reading this poem on a phone, note that the integrity of the lines, a major feature of poetry, is not displayed properly. Many if not most get cut short because of the small screen.
I don’t know I think freedom is dangerous.
It gives us a timetable
to revolutionize society.
So we need to?
Did Trump invade Poland?
(like, does a bear shit in the woods?)
We have no greater need in society,
but this is not about politicians.
It has our housewares on it,
our everyday lives.
We need to change society
into what’s good for all,
into a whole nuther way of life,
where we can live out our potentials
and be ourselves.

That dose not include harming other people,
unless their harm is so immediate
to harm them now is the only way to stop it,
deadly force if necessary,
but you would kill me here.
They’re not death penalty do
or given any harm
that protecting us does not render.
These are separation lists
if this is another set of circumstances
other than the absolutely must be stopped now,
and here’s where we need to change:
every person’s valuable in our eyes,
has the right to be and coexist,
and no person is excluded
from this list.

It is only there we can find ourselves
in our worth.
We have potentials unknown,
unguarded,
and unguessed.
We are not here to swat flies.
Our purpose in living is beyond time,
but let’s get back to the wood,
shall we?

We are larger than ourselves.
We do not live in a bubble of individual freedom.
Our consciousness extends to the whole race
and includes the Earth in its habitat.
We share consciousness,
and our thoughts and our dreams ride the waves
of humanity’s spleen-basket.
We touch each other there.

Any investigation will prove it
over long, slow years.
A group of people living together will prove it,
who bear the remembrance of their dreams
and inner experiences
on a daily basis,
through their group.
Interpret your dreams is the first thing,
and this puts us back to square one.
No one can see this part of the shared field of consciousness
occurring between us every day.
It’s in symbols.
It’s not readily apparent
except in rare instances.
It’s not literal.

How can I interpret my dreams for you?
Can I speak ahead of my time?
We will see each other’s dreams
tear humanity down
and make a better humanity with it
all in good time.
We will see that the thought creates the act,
our thoughts in someone else’s action,
and we are at most fault here,
not understanding the collective will
bleeds harmful individuals
as much as it does those who are right.

We die here.
We lay blame here.
We have no idea what’s goin’ on.
We castigate
we confuse.
We are not in ourselves right.
You share identity with that larger man.
On the level of ourselves we are one.
Even in our individual consciousness
we bear the individuality of the whole.
We share identity
like we do rivers.
This is visible as the Self
you can even see in your mind,
play with in your heart,
before the change of consciousness ahead.

We are not here to remain the same.
We have duty
to change our very nature.
We are animals now
in a field, in a pack.
Herds upon herds of us
distinguish man
as nothing in particular
except the animal that lords over all,
destroys its planet
with so many feeding spaces.
It’s not a steward but a wrecker
of its planet and society.

Go into any home.
Animals lick their wounds,
feed and enjoy themselves
and prepare their young
to abstract survival as they have done
into the modes of man.
We do not create a larger type.
We make our children toe the line
of being human today.
We have no imagination ahead.
We can’t get our children there,
break out of this mold
of stupid us.

We have larger fields ahead,
ever preparing their day to come.
Very few heed that call.
Religion has been a placebo
convincing us we’re there.
You can work on yourself every day
and never find it.
It’s bigger than the moon
and the starlight,
but you can get there from here.
Anyway,
you have to make of your daily life a pilgrimage
to discover all that’s hidden inside,
to look at the outside in those discoveries,
the glasses of change,
and become yourself the larger man,
a lifetime’s endeavor.
That is not bound by belief.
You experience, you know,
and you move forward.

There are changes in consciousness ahead.
You will meet the Silence,
eventually,
and it’s within your arms to discover the soul
inside.
The roof overhead,
you will break in time,
and the seat of your consciousness,
your experiencing self,
will fountain out of the top of your head
into unknown regions,
into the larger field above.
We are in a clockwork universe
it’s possible to see beyond.
It’s possible to get up there
for a limited time only.
Several seconds
have exposed this poem.

Now what do I do
to climb out of words and show you my tattoo?
We have another field man.
We have to change inside our makings,
so much representative think,
so much put on the feelings of others,
so much be ourselves
and not society’s notion of us
or even our family’s.
Can you get that?

You know you have inside
so much more
than go to work, go home,
and there and back again,
than a craver for society’s wares,
than an eating machine,
than any enjoyment you have,
and you know you are bigger
than society puts you down.

Where are the handles on this?
You can’t find them.
This is too big.
A caveman has come and talked
to industrialized society,
to use an analogy how far we are
from the larger field of man.
I’m showin’ yah the wares.
You begin to live your life differently
than for a paycheck,
or for all these things you want,
or for solely your enjoyment,
or even for your kids, parents, and spouse,
for your loved ones,
but in every field I’ve mentioned,
you can make that the starting point
for your self-discovery.
You make that your means to go home.
You can do it there,
in normal life,
by making of yourself a pilgrimage
to discover that greater you,
to find that larger us,
to change society
in its very moving parts.

I’m not way off base.
I’m right here in your hand
revealin’ life.
Stupid me,
I go through weather patterns, you know?
I’m not enlightenment yet
or the higher consciousness.
I have vision inside,
and I get visited by great thoughts
all day long.
I move through the world
tryin’ to make my thoughts reality.
They come across as these poems.
I’m a slug in a handbasket you know,
in that basket spaceship Mother Earth,
a sluggin’ it with you
homey.

I can’t get out of this wood,
but I’m practicin’ sureness in it
we’re gonna get there.
I can see it now,
but I got hit on my bicycle
by a car,
and I’m laid up, hold up,
an invalid temporary.
Now that hurts.
The damn VA won’t give me any pain medication,
but they’re okay,
treated me nice,
commendable actually.
I don’t gotta go to work
for today.
I was on my way to work when it happened.
Stupid car,
didn’t see the sidewalk.
Now I can paint you poems
free and easy,
since that car
stepped in and made the universe prove,
for today’s papers,
need as poet
more than Mr. Grocery boy.
Halleluja, huh?

Look in a thousand years.
We will be larger than wood.
We’ve got so much work to do
that we haven’t started yet.
Fine, fine, meditate, practice
all these roles of spirituality,
but it’s in your hands you try
to find the roles inside.
Can you meditate while you’re doin’?
Bake that field.
Make the field in front of you God,
that person,
that task,
and there’s the secret to longevity
of the changes you make.
Hold a representative consciousness inside,
everywhere you look,
everywhere you turn around,
in all your life’s tasks,
at rest and at play.
You’re seein’ God outta do it.
Overhead that’s who you are inside.

Can I graft this to trees?
God is the All-Look in on itself,
the real behind the apparent,
the one he be looked to for change.
I can get lost in words.
God is our plan.
An unknowable All-Mystery
grabs us all
in personal sleeves.
Who-Done-It,
my God that’s good.
We love a good mystery.
We love to be sleuth.

Now hold my hand.
I’ve got so much more to show you than time.
I love those feelins.
Even my Luna’s the great One,
but that goddamn car,
I’m workin’ on that one.
It hurts you know.
Alright hand me down sleeves.
I know how to put you on at night,
goddamn in bed with the world
learnin’ duty,
learnin’ price.
The world goes deep,
you know?
The world goes wide.
It’s fine.
Even my dog says so,
and she’s on the rag.
I just go too far
in world faculty.

Pissin’ all over the place,
that’s the modes of man.
We are primitive land seekers,
and we don’t know where we’re goin’.
Let’s arrive at peace on earth
is our greatest notion,
or live in harmony with the Earth.
We don’t have a sense of ourselves
an evolving species
from man to a higher type.
Oh my God,
I just hit science in the nose.
It’s stuck in material process
and can’t even interpret our dreams yet,
or know that we inhabit consciousness together,
because it can’t see that far.
In animal vision, in animal man,
we can’t get over ourselves
or see that larger field,
or even get there.
Put bubbles in place,
we can’t swim out of them.
Can you?

Interactive city,
let’s ride some fences, shall we?
What names did I give you to believe in?
I’m givin’ you wide open stuff
I’m not anchorin’ down.
I want you to believe in yourself in your higher type.
That’s the coming messiah,
if you’re lookin’ for saviors.
It’s you and me and every last one of us,
takin’ these conscious springs of evolution,
a field of human consciousness has given us,
and evolvin’ don’t you see?
A gospel of everybody,
don’t you see that yet?

Put representative bowls in place,
I’m lifted change.
I got rid of my sweetheart,
a robbin’ piece of flesh.
I don’t need it anymore,
even in fantasy,
even in the attraction pull.
I was not normal down there.
I wasn’t gay either.
I see the mystery pull,
and I changed my life to prove it.
Now what do you get down there
if you’re not bothered with it?
You don’t get a hole.
There are ecstasies beyond this world
in a much deeper field of play.
There are ecstasies down there
attached to nobody,
all along the chakra-spine,
and your body can be in orgasm
shooting you out the top of the head.

You sexual spider-cake,
you’re not bein’ life itself.
You’re fooled by nature’s cravings
to continue the species
and get some craving relief.
You’re fooled by distant man
together again in one body
male and female.
I understand union reals,
but mine was impossible to understand
because nature had gone awry
and pitted me with another half
I could not join society with.
I had to change,
and I had to know the world to do it.
I had to discover myself.
I had to get big.
I discovered abstinence not denial,
and I’m not an accident waiting to happen.
I know how to harmonize life
and just be myself
in any given situation.

Can you do that,
or are you bound by society’s rules
that stigmatize yourself?
I’ve overcome you.
Men hurt
and women,
and I can find myself in a field of pain
at the drop of a hat,
at the turn of a phrase,
and do you know what I’m giving you?
What’s the price of change?
You can’t do it in today’s society.
Can I help you?
Can I be there for you?
And you will only read this to find crime,
you blockhead.
Is that the majority of us?
Do you find crime?

I revolutionize society
right here lookin’ at it.
I revolutionize society right in front of you.
Kill me for it, will you?
I’m on old pastured ground,
but I’m not visible to your eyes
man’s worth.
Nobody wants to put me out in the open
because I’m a dangerous man in these times.
You might get in trouble for it.
I don’t know why I’m here
speakin’ under your table right now
to the high and the low.
I could be anywhere,
but I’m not I’m here,
givin’ you my life’s blood,
takin’ out my heart and showin’ it to you,
so you can sacrifice with me
to the joy of the world
all our petty and mean,
any vehicle of harm,
sacrifice even your safety in ego activism par none,
not stupidly,
not shamefully,
on the field of poetry bounds,
or whatever art aids yah
to take the ego from its throne,
to move the ego from its peacock seat,
to end its dominance on earth.
You get my carryin’ dog?

You sacrifice yourself on the alter of life
in sudden epiphanies
of the inspired art.
Would that God stays Abraham’s hand
and doesn’t kill his son,
you know?
The wise care
on the dance floor,
this is the new Gilbert,
Mattie Mae.
Can you come down some
to our price?
The greatest feelins in the world
are all around you,
even if you get hit by a car,
and you’re not too fucked up to see them.
That’s God you see
and the Mystery behind time,
just a livin’ it up in the wood,
and bringing you in on yourself
so you see them
the Wonderful who you are.

This happens every day
in any field on earth,
but you have to find them inside to see them
as clearly as you do the world,
and that’s an inner journey par none,
over and over again.
Break the bounds inside.
Throw open the lid
that separates you from infinity,
and get yourself all straightened out,
over long, slow years,
over every minute of your life.
In all your mistakes,
you’re goin’ somewhere,
but you don’t do mistakes to get there.
You harmonize everything
into your larger see.

Now I’ve given you the keys
to begin.
Now is this a booty hunt?
It’s nothin’
that will always get you anything.
Now what the desert symbols in dreams?
That’s the touchstone
to a greater life,
that arid,
that barren,
and when the honey starts,
it’s not up all along.
You have to be tested and tried,
and there are snakes on the footpath
and liars in your head.
It’s a milkshake
of calamity
taking you to safety,
and you’ve made the monsters mad
that mess with human lives,
the monsters under your bed.
They just rule down here you know?
And the negligent divine
waits to intervene.
It’s got to be the right stuff
or a node on the story all-important.
It sucks you know?
Makes for banging your head against the wall
in your miracle ward.

Have I spelled it enough.
I can get goin’
towards that hidden sun.
Does it have to be a car,
you divine underwood,
crashin’ me into the pavement,
the divine intervention I ride,
taking out of business,
that ground me for a paycheck?
What the fuck?

The rice failed enough gas.
Did I get away with it?
It’s rainin’.
I can’t get over it,
how I’m brought before my enemies,
those that fire me
and kick me out of India
and just generally despise me,
and shown to be a beggar in the wood
marchin’ down the hill
to a hole at the end of the tunnel.
Reader, do you see that?
No, you see my inner wares.
I’d be a cap gun that fools yah.
That’s not God
pushin’ you on the floor.
It’s his chaperon,
the bodied life we are.
Kinda gets yah in the knickers, doesn’t it,
the embarrassment we are.

I’m goin’ for larger pastures,
and I’m bringin’ my dog.
Got a problem with that?
I’m not molten lava.
I am not weird and strange.
Clothes against the wind,
the key to love is change;
that’s all.
How you get around everything:
genuine and love,
back behind everything,
build a life.
You have arrived at the end of the poem.
In a sudden change,
you can only take your own car.
Go for it.
Read it,
Review of Nonconformity
And Other Stars.


That’s a foundation-spread spirituality.
You need help.
How far did you go?
Did you get all the way down to the well of soul?
Now there’s advice,
everyday counsel.
There is saving grace
in given words and visions
in the very substance of your dreams,
and great seraphim thoughts
that ride your day.
Listen to this.
It’s guidance from down under
concrete and whole.

Hey, crowd,
somethin’ tears it apart,
this speakeasy in your mind,
invader of dreams,
the ones who put circumstance together
down here on earth.
The monsters of the deep,
they talk too.
They guide you
to tear you apart,
and do you know what?
They do it all the time,
and without the discernment,
you just fall apart.
They block the soul,
imitate it,
and drown it out with their lore,
and can I come on the scene with channeling?
Most this is rotten tomatoes.
The divine doesn’t speak that way,
and divine beings are all around us,
giving guidance like the soul,
inner ships,
having a conversation
in the symbols of art.

It’s inner speech daemon
and inner vision,
a high kaleidoscope of grand advice,
a chorus of voices
rich with entertainment’s mood
and the jolly of the world.
It’s unbelievable in its scope.
It’s happenin’
in your ability to go in trance inside,
or anytime you go inside
for a bright reverie
that can come from cooking a meal,
if you’re alone,
and operating a motor vehicle,
all eyes on the road,
any mundane task
monotonous enough to go in while doin’ it.
These are development skies,
when you get down to it,
impossible really
to bless you with.
You have to do it yourself.

Now the road’s all open
for you to do it yourself.
Who does it for you?
No, not the divine
and certainly not the soul.
It doesn’t
take your will from you,
but it empowers your will
with keen advice,
the knowledge to do it right.
The most hidden part of the spiritual path,
they rely on your own will
the changes you make.
Willpower takes force
as the door,
and there’s no way around this
I’m sorry to say.

Actually,
this is what you’re goin’ through,
line your will up with God,
will this, will that,
in the loads of every day.
Come on is this impossible?
Impossibility seems,
and as many times as you fall,
there’s a stickler on your will.
Never mind the philosophy,
but you do come under a spell
when confronted with your obstacle,
your subconscious part,
and until you overcome it,
it will get you every time.
Come out from under that spell,
and you have grand guidance to do so,
if you listen,
if you get down that far,
if you’re sincere.
You’re not the messiah, hero.
You’re just you doin’ it,
a change of heart.

Have I found myself there?
This is advice from the soul
and my chosen divine,
but you don’t have to believe in them.
Every word of this is inner made,
and mastery I call on you,
here in bed with my dog,
around the house,
inner in an outer state.
Even outside the story goes,
walkin’ my dog or ridin’ my bike,
inwardly concentrated
on the outside see.
No neglect is there.
I’m not spaced out,
and that car hit me
on the sidewalk,
where I was legally bound.
It carried the liability.
It was a fault.
I didn’t fill inner guidance on the road.
I was never
spill my lines on the way to work
in that particular journey,
the day I get hit by a car.
I just got attacked
by dinjinns,
and that sucks.

It was an emergency
officer,
let me go unprotected
for the dinjinns to do it.
I have more poems to ride.
You’re hearin’ one now.
A cashier at Walmart is so outwardly tuned,
concentrated on customers all the time,
too much talking
for inner silence.
And let me spill this again:
I am inner guidance on your roof,
and you’re gettin’ the tall of it,
everything written down
to get you started,
to get you goin’,
to help you along the way,
to confirm your own found it there,
the inner path all along.
It’s a long poem,
for the serious in mind, heart,
for those who want to know.
You got a minute?

I’m a chaperon really
of your budding spirituality.
Anyway,
let’s get this show on the road.
There is will down.
You have just go to pick it up,
and it’s a fence worth,
not everything in the sky.
These are the teachings of the Mother and Sri Aurobindo
and their yoga put into practice,
written down for daily use,
in the order of appearance
in the skies of time.
What a freeway, huh?

I went overtime
to make this a complete yoga book
in first time hands,
or to give old timers a way out of their dilemma.
You must pardon my shimmerin’ moon,
the spearpoints of my stars.
The sun doesn’t talk yet it just looks,
and changes the whole field.
We are on the road to Supermind if you want to know the truth,
the divinize everything,
and we moon to get there
from the house of soul,
but it doesn’t talk to you,
the immortal Supermind,
nor do you worship it.
It rides you along
the itineraries,
and there it is in the sun
in vision.
Clouds around it some,
or is it full force?

Can you see that far?
And here we’ve begun.
Pretty dog,
sometimes you
are your dog.
How to communicate
the road to master?
Do you see the sea salt?
You’re not always made clear,
but it’s a hell of a ride
to stick your life to,
so unboring,
so very real.

Why would you just want money
to spend on things?
Why would you want to get along life without it,
the challenge of a lifetime?
Why would you want to be dumb, stupid, and mean,
when you can have the sun, moon, and stars?
Tell me now,
what is this advice within my head
that visits you in my bed?
Ah, a dream I think but oh so strange.
I give all the name of the game,
lights on yoga if you tell the truth,
and there we are.

I didn’t put any bowel movements
to get you to this beauty.
I didn’t piss all over myself,
but I sure didn’t leave anything out
that gets our goat talkin’ about.
I’m not embarrassed to say
the creeper,
the thing we can’t handle,
because it’s too impolite.
I talk you there,
where the knots are,
and that’s you untie them,
and I am a power yoga there,
if you see I’m speakin’ from truth
I’ve fortified
with my own two bare hands.
You’re gettin’ my yoga,
and I’m not at all ashamed to say
I’m well on the way.
Do you hear me boys and girls?

I am very pleased.
Let’s get started
or begin again.
Let’s get well on the way,
a sadhana you do tomorrow
that’s here in your hands today,
24/7,
all along the rollercoaster,
and you got that right,
a touch of God.
We are endeavor to learn
two birds in the hand are worth two in the bush.
It’s not all spiritual experiences.
It’s not even that you seek.
Center on the divine
in everything you do,
the divine above all else,
the divine in your living room.
You will get to the One eventually,
the Mystery behind all,
the divine in everything you do.

Road speak I’m sad.
Gotta get your compass out
and slow down.
The goal is ever the goal.
Do you know what I mean?
It’s a ways beyond
anything you’re doin’ now,
until you are Gods on earth,
literally,
in the sky and on the ground,
the change to Supermind
as it rides Earth.
Is that a thousand years from now?
Every week
brings us closer to the goal,
and you look at it that way,
as the sun rides your life
a happenin’ now.
Can you go up there to it?

In great moments you’re there
I’ll let you diagnose.
Did you get out of the universe
and be up there within it?
Did you ride the sun?
Where is that at
in manifestation Earth?
You are grounded you know
in the impossible,
and you ever ride the sky
in the ways of God,
when your manifestation is true to Earth,
and wow this poem is,
and yeah stupid me,
I get lost in corners,
but I do certainly get out.
I can sacrifice my way out of anything,
as I glide by.
I can get out of trouble,
the representative creature that I am
on a representative planet
in a symbol universe.
You see my Winnebago?

And you’re there
beyond time,
and that’s not in the wood.
Now, you see where we’re goin’?
We’ve already been there.

It’s where we come from,
and we’re bringin’ that down here,
divinize the Earth and sun,
the finite one up there in the sky.
Hercules,
and we give that man his name.
It’s a golden endeavor,
a supramental endeavor
we surrender to
all our days.

Now do you have the rulebook?
There is none.
It happens as it happens,
a different road for each one,
something beyond rules
and step by steps,
and that’s the hardest thing in the world for the human being,
likin’ the simplicity of the animal,
likin’ his way of life,
the dumb run.
We’ll get there anyway,
despite ourselves.
It is spoken.
It is inevitable.
I’ll see yah on the road,
okay?

Alright,
this poem continues with your sadhana
where here I do mine,
right there,
where we fall asleep.
Take it from me,
if you have the patience
to hear a poem all night long.
I do,
and this writin’ too.
It’ll make one offer:
passive who you sittin’
in the burden of your life.
Hear on me here,
and that’s a hell of a sadhana,
so answer divine.
There is no other way up
surrender all you keep,
and you’re on your road through time,
and you have the strength to get out,
and it’s right there
comes spiritual experience,
the flexity
to let it happen
it’s so startling down here
you know.

Good,
let’s grow up.
See that coming.
It will tear you up,
and you will get up and move on,
anything that happens,
anything that does.
Can we put the strength of this poem in your hands,
inside the river
have your coming days?
I’m afraid
you have no choice but to do it yourself,
whatever you find,
wherever we go.
Is that so alarming?
Okay we may have to learn
calamity stakes,
a much harder road than now.
Don’t
say okay life come
and show me what you got.
I’m sayin’
you’re lookin’ for the divine,
come what may,
whatever happens.
You got that road?
You got that life?

Supposed to take care of it
that negligent divine.
Alright already,
you’re in here,
in a blessing packet now.
Ah, go ahead and set up.
Well you can shut up.
Thank you reader.
See there the power you have?
The emergency ever arrives to thought,
wherever it’s mutilated.
We’re done here.
Makin’ true that’s all.
I apologize for getting so mad this morning.
I had no food,
and that food arriving,
and you turned it into some grasshopper’s umbrella
complication 3
and surgery.
They will be taking pictures if they can
at Walmart.
Look it’s mine too.
It’s nice of her,
gas keep the phone to its tours airs on the screen,
as the Spirit
ignores you,
in noise
jokes around,
at my expense.
I end it here.
That’s it.

There’s fence of good people to,
the limits of
your attention recognize.
Oh my warm God,
I give you credit out of the parking lot.
The pursuit of the unbearable,
what was lost in God
to front the Unknowable.
The action of the divine mother
put all in place,
gave name to form
and helped me to abode in peace,
but I am lost in this fathomlessness
so greatly surmise the world,
and I love my dog.
How greatly that turns the world,
the boundlessness of love.
It’s patient sitting
the works of the divine mother
and giving you a poem,
formlessly and one
honey puppy.

Denies all
a great eye of nothingness.
The great eye of nothingness
doesn’t exist.
A great eye of nothingness shut off.
The enclosure,
no thank you,
I will not man nothing,
put that on my brain,
or go anywhere with it.
Do you know how tall this is?
Outside of the enclosure
of the universe.
There we are.

Sad or bored,
now it’s the hidden sun
pulling those habitats from my eyes
into my very joy
not confined in anything.
Any new answer
to bring the world in peace,
that’s what I’m talkin’ about.
I’m not gonna force it.
I’m gonna take the bus,
come out of the top of my head,
stoppin’ tonight
right now.

Yeah we get there,
just above the head,
where the consciousness stays,
the seat of consciousness.
You’re a consciousness now
(I was lookin’ around),
inviting Supermind down.
This gets scared.
Where did I put it?
I put it
where the poem ends,
where the vehicle ends
takes you
to see these things,
and there you are.

To the next war,
to the next tree,
you gotta try to find this.
It’s the one safety
frees us from all harm.
What did you do?
I sat the captives free.
Hear about it,
it turns you on,
transcendence.
What a sun scratching child,
I just can’t get into algebra.
He’s going to get seconds,
and there’s moooore,
moooore. [sing last two lines]

Are you up the down staircase?
You see this as where we came from.
There is another bill,
and these paragraphs says personal city.
The lantern
was a collective whole.
We’ve lit up the chasm of the Abyss,
brought consciousness down there,
the great scout,
so the Real in the apparent form
brings a new Earth,
and Supermind descends
into its creation,
and we bring home here.
Put your shoes on
people,
I’ve shown you the way home.
We need to find the most names
excited by thrill seekers.
I thought I’d pass this on to everybody.
Understand my science
revolutionary?
You get me dog?

Thunderstruck,
it looks like,
I’ll do it bitterly and sweetly:
I’m actually heard.
You wanna working stiff not a
poet in the rafters,
and I just wanna be left alone
and do my stuff
in a poem.
Okay I’ll see you again soon
with another poem from the rafters.
You’ve
got it on your whistle
I don’t have to get in front of that cash register
and Walmart the world away.
I can’t write a lick of poetry
caught up in that crowd.
It’s grocery lists
and item buys,
throwin’ myself out on the public lane
when gettin’ home and tryin’ to get my silence back.

A day off I’ll do it,
but that’s work, work, work, you know?
Along with the cookin’ and what else,
constant dog care and what else,
and I do like the sunshine on a winter’s day
sittin’ and bein’ nice to myself,
unguarded moments
of ease,
readin’ and whatnot,
seein’ the football game end,
maybe a movie or two,
or doin’ nothin’ in my arm chair,
sweetin’ up the day with that,
what gives rise to poetry
I have those seraphim thoughts,
and I have the freedom to do that,
basically,
I don’t work for the Man
in those loud modes,
can’t get a concentration done
on anything of silence.

Now all these days off,
I’m in a poetry slam,
really, really intense,
and I’m gettin’ right down on the fingers of society
go for the throat of society right in its needed change,
least I run off
before you put me back to work in some menial job
poetry can’t land there.
I gotta eat you know,
help Douglas with the bills—
there’s Donny.

Can someone please help me to a poet’s worth?
Big bathroom I think.
Is that North Bergen,
Dallas or Ashburn,
Judgment Falls,
the Bible states,
all these fields on earth?
North Fort Worth,
go back there
and see me alive
and not doin’ a thing wrong,
all ye people,
all your self-satisfied lives,
all you lives lookin’ for somethin’ you ain’t got.
Could we like, uh, rock n roll?

This is just the price of oil
comin’ to that place
it heed dollar.
Here’s it’s talkin’ about
let’s get this show on the road.
I’m good at it,
givin’ yah for all it’s worth
writin’ poetry to today’s mind,
interestin’
to all these people
at the edge of the world.
You don’t read like you used to.
Now, where did poetry go?
Right here,
a new style to play a part today
you ain’t never seen before.

ChatGI,
that stupid free course,
that wrong imitation,
will it sum up the world
and put meanin’ in it,
direction and path,
all on the nodes of man
it gather out in the world from its own experience?
Will it put meaning together like this,
like a paratrooper?
Will you give credit to human language
genuinely done
by where’s poetry come from
since it came out of our mouths,
the honest to God muse of poetry,
the real thing?

Man I’m talking to you.

Present turn to your dinner.
Oh ah,
lift up your eyes and eat.
Came over and bring that Nithish
I am trying to school,
that 14-year-old
and poet.
His poet,
that 14-year-old boy,
can you bring him here to me please
from India?
Can you just send his poetry along to the world too?
Nithish’s blog top of the page.
We have Spirit together.
We can ask
do you need anything today?
You need children put rightly,
the greatest need in the world.
He’ll tell you that
in his poetry,
and when a kid sings it,
you’re likely to hear it.
I can just ask.
You’re just ready to put me in the trashcan,
but why him?
Thank you,
my boy’s blog.

Not curry for free,
we spiritual mastered together.
I am his teacher,
his grandfather
and best friend.
I raised him
a good portion of his childhood,
and he’s home with me.
I was there the night he was born
at the hospital.
You know what that means:
I didn’t find him as a sex tourist.
He’s my kid,
and that’s his whistle with me,
all along time.

We’re good together,
like a racehorse,
like a freight train.
I gave him God shoes.
That he puts them on
and becomes a think tank himself,
we do that duty,
and he is high and mighty in my life,
and I respect his every mood,
but I don’t get off on him.
He’s sacrifice.
He’s work.
We identify with each other
so naturally and sweetly
you would want him put over here with me.
Now that’s standard dress,
and we have work to do together you know,
and that’s all folks.
That’s everything.
I love that little boy.

The sun has molded itself to itself
in high glass clear.
In special light
we’re there.
Image the sea.
He has the showed the higher consciousness makes them embrace
in this paper.
Oh yeah it’s horrible
you’re too loud to read it.
Another note:
I have a glance
in that spiritual presence
I know the meaning of,
scheduled car
to enter enlightenment.
Been here.
Social it and do me a favor.
I am right now
holding your hand.
Would you be pretty enough to see that?
Right on time
let’s go outside.

The explosion and the scary,
I’m not sure it’s fathomable.
Beings of a wider, higher consciousness drew near.
There’s a you for months other than me.
I don’t like the fallout.
Go under
more long than strong.
I think I see enlightenment’s booty.
Being take a look at it
band aide all day.
I learn to abide
consciousness shears.
When the public enters your mind
those origin.
It’s profound the crowd.
Eww, catalyst
we really fit ourselves.
And why would you do that?
Dream after dream after dream
right here in your notebook.
Got to know
there
on Sunday’s farm.
There’s a dumplin’.
Origins
delivers.
What is that mode?
The diamond,
the windows
shear and pure.

Enlightenment
what’s your number?
Why not?
What does a guy lose?
Just give me a second.
I’ll do some scheduling,
and it’s done.
I’ve opened it.
Let’s have some fun.
We go public,
think like the hurricane.
When I say that now
the public mind doesn’t believe it.
The noosphere it lets you
on the rafters
visiting human thought,
and that’s a big puppy.

View our progress
someone touches me it gets out.
What have you done?
The sins the day will kill you with,
break a leg.
Oh, it’s your past.
Can we step in line
see forgiveness?
That’s done it
I know the meaning of my sins,
and I have repented from them.
I don’t do them no more,
and this takes the icing off the cake.
I’m not the only one
bonded by my sin,
and I can’t make up for you here.
You have no other way but punishment.
I’m not going to confess a dime.
I’m not going to let you have me.
I will make the journey
to make up for what I’ve done.
I will do that.

I will,
when those two,
when life and death talk roads,
when the inner consciousness itself
reaches people inside
so much healing done,
so much love.
Movin’ robotics,
there was the whole system
of this legal system.
You can’t just leave it.
That happen.
We stop prison planet.
We stop it completely
and a few other places
we punish people for their disease.

I’m a view that in person.
I heal,
and it’s all I can do.
There’s a factor,
the power of love.
We have that stuff,
and I’m a hologram for it.
Grand it put there
hey I love you.
Will do scrubbin’ my feet
here all along.
That’s the tension
hunkered down
as you read my poem.
I’m alive on you.
I’m not neglecting you.
Perfect,
let’s go home.

Let’s get movin’,
shall we?
Let’s get on with it,
the magical
life on the road
in splendid skies.
We really get out.
We really get out of prison.
You take care now.
You take care of yourself.
So long,
you have a good day.
So you note it by yourself,
put divine muse, divine lawyers.

What’s new in the swamps of Michigan and forest?
We have really decided his paper
broadcast America.
Rebelled some. [pronounced rebel’d]
I didn’t limit alcohol
to its dispensary.
I didn’t get drunk either,
but I rode alcohol
to give me some beer
to separate
some pain and some ease.
It made me feel good,
but that’s no problem.
I drove the winnebago
I’m normal waking consciousness down by the grass feed.
It’s right up here
the substance of my day.
That’s her fault,
yeah the divine mother.
She told me this mornin’
that everybody’s supposed to
of God,
but if they’re not at the beach,
feel, feel, feel,
what condition my condition was in
[two above lines sung to tune of the beginning of “Just Dropped In”],
ascended joy,
a rising ecstasy.
It is precision jewelry.

There would have to be patience
to break the rules,
not indulgin’ matter
to a ritual pattern,
but you just break loose every now and then,
ease up on the controls
and take down your hair.
Let’s get now
you don’t do that to harm anybody,
and you don’t get drunk if you’re an alcoholic
harmin’ yourself.
Normal waking consciousness,
it lifts your road,
dangnabbit.
Wait this is beauty’s skies,
and here you are.
I’ll let you promise
we’re good keepers here
the clear portal of consciousness.
Substance driven,
we lose our way.
In highs there’s a held up
they use as a camera
we don’t even know is there,
the monsters of the deep.
There’s a
platform here I know it.
Psychedelics,
you know it,
that big joker.
That settled anarchy tribe,
well they can bring spiritual experience
in sittin’ very well prepareds.
Good God hallelujah,
you can’t make rules about anything
You got my winnebago?

Blitzin’
to get this damn show on the road.
Oh my grand family,
do we just kill each other,
or have a moon?
I’m not gonna pay a lot for this muffler.
Where did that come from?
That’s a conservative.
You will spend your whole life.
I don’t get it.
Your old life is gone.
Everything’s a portal of sadhana.
Nothin’ gets left out.
The concentration goes everywhere,
every minute
puttin’ that veneer on everything,
on to it:
I am concentrating on the divine
in everything I do, think, and be,
because it’s right in front of me
whole and ready-made.
Just remember
that veneer
continually more,
a bunch of times during the day,
until the representative consciousness comes in
your mode of thinking, being.

I’ve described to you
the sadhana
that will get us out of here
and get us out of suffering,
the sadhana you do every day.
You do sadhana
in the heartwood
of everything,
and watch it change your life.
Thirty years is nothin’
you’re figurin’ results.
This changes the world.
Your change gets it there.

Oh the pancakes,
there is the Great Smokey Mountains National Park.
You can’t let your dogs there.
Unbelievable.
I’ve got a Rottweiler.
You, you can’t do it,
travel your dogs up the road
in a spiritual change.
What does that mean?
You’re learn
the rules won’t get yah there.
Some doggy might.
Toasted
let’s go home,
dogs or not.

For your feet
that do yah.
Absolutely it’s free
people.
Better,
I just found out
people are gettin’,
they’re gettin’ better.
The freedom’s come ‘ere,
it’s your choice.
Peter’s cookin’ the thought Heaven.
It’s a little too big.
The first chappal you sent,
I got promoted
on the state park,
backfishin’.
Here I am giving things.
A quarter your visitors for dogs,
got it set up.
Yeah next week I’m gonna eat.
I got so much cookin’
where infancy changes the world,
but I made it out of there alive,
and I used that to open my consciousness
far and wide.

My mom was around all the groceries in one battle.
Peanut butter,
she slipped it into her mouth
and sucked that little thing.
The consciousness that rules orgasm,
I got ruled from birth,
all my toddler years.
Oedipus hits the Sphinx, and
fuck it let’s get on with it.
It’s a ticklin’ notion
comin’ in on my playground
a devil with red eyes,
the horrendous history of abuse.
I saw it sittin’ there
all over the table,
that dog-dragon with red eyes
(imaginary playmate hell),
grinnin’ as my mom supped.
I was openin’ consciousness early on.
I bought you
transcendence.
Now do you believe me?

Up to an American geologist
an alarm went off.
To a doctor,
violently lets in the poem.
So I was messed up
on you just can’t get out of the mundane to see the Real, can you?
Unbelievable your pittance.
Can you create a star?
I wash over it,
sit and face the truth,
ch-ch-ch-ch-changes. [sing last two lines to tune of “Changes”]

When I’m giving that to Walmart’s eye I have a saying:
you’re going home. [says reader at the same time I say it]
I’m going home.
Sharing
real life on the clock looks like we found each other.
We went a special forces team.
In bounds you change
a woman,
a man,
a single body
like before.
There’s another person,
the whole.
Yeah,
you have the impossible dream.
Sorry kid,
that one,
I have it.
I have my hands on it today,
located in the heart of the night
people are moving,
in my drawers,
and the platelets of man.
I have the energy
to see myself one with the sewing machine,
and I car
to land’s end.
That close by the apple
we got knowledge on.
Did not
put down the biggest one,
the fruit of the tree of the unknown,
where we become God on earth livin’ in man,
the paradise of our inner state,
the manifestation on our outer.
I do not neglect
immortality
in a rainbow body par none
I change into again.
Houston come on,
that’s Heaven
man halleluja, amen.

Glory halleluja,
where the poem ends,
The Love of Yoga it’s called,
for apes and further humans
apin’ me in the rainbow.
Fall all over yourselves readin’ it.
I don’t know what to say.
Look, there’s God,
God on earth.

We believe the magic’s made out of Choctaw and wood.
Join it
on the open air,
and uh,
a poet
all together
mountain,
burnin’ here
background check,
ridin’ high forward,
rumblin’ with redneck,
he gets his point across.
They hear him at the Astrodome.
They hear him on Soldier’s Field,
well an American poet
at the rafters of his craft
poetry.
I mean they actually know’d he published a poem,
everybody concerned with such
and everybody that don’t.
I rub myself on the land
right there at that smellin’ spot,
hallelujah, ruff, ruff.
Beautiful, ain’t?
Amazing landfall,
the shouldering down of American life,
American landfall.

So You’re Headin’ Out?

photo by the author
80’s little horror war,
what threw away?
The administration of Auroville.
It was surrendered to the government without even a care,
and we lost our autonomy that way,
at the toss of a dice,
and the government rolled in.

Are you countin’ India
to allow human unity to take over?
What was the village thinkin’
in removin’ The Sri Aurobindo Society from the scene?
Can we grasp Sri Aurobindo?
The Society doesn’t,
and it will block you to this day
if you disagree with them.
What was the Mother thinkin’
givin’ the township to this obviously irreverent crowd
to love and compassion on earth
and human unity.

Stupid me, stupid you,
we excuse her for it,
but this is the mistake that baked the day
and ruined Auroville.
Can anybody look at this?
If ever a mistake was made here was one,
and now we’re supposed to take her every word as gospel,
as if she made no mistakes?

Where has she been all these years
watchin’ it fall apart?
Is she comin’?
Yoga
relies on inner seeing,
if it’s got the content of its worth.
I’m not talking about intuition,
your intuition says this,
your intuition says that,
in a gut feeling,
no matter how you describe it
as the opening of the day.

Inner seeing’s a gut worth’s no.
It’s concrete formulas laid out in time,
spoken word, revealing vision,
or the dream maker
putting together the house for you
so you can see it.
That tells you where it’s at.
When I entered the yoga
I picked up the Mother right away
in dream and vision,
her signal loud and clear.
That was in Auroville the first time.

She was not proclaimin’ to me her gospel,
her avatarhood.
She was puttin’ sadhana together for me
it’s a sunny day.
What made it so difficult,
I just knew hell had entered my birth
and would not let me go.
What difference
she made when she came on board.
You couldn’t tell it from the outside
for so long I’m ashamed to say.
Look at that to Auroville.
Can you gauge her time?

I’ll tell yah the Indian government can’t.
Nor can it see spiritual vision
or uses it to make decisions,
spiritual vision as in seership,
not a quote you pull out to prove your point.
We are left with the Indian government in charge of Auroville,
refueling the Mother’s words with their agenda,
purposefully pulling her out of the picture
by putting her in it
the mouthpiece they wore.

You can see it happening.
You just think the Mother’s responsible for it,
but she did not ordain this,
nor the government taking over
when the Auroville Act was signed.
How do I know this?
I’m an inner seer,
and we always live on the outcasts of time.
Way out there,
we question everything
is this the divine?

I sit on your bench, okay?
I’m a hologram holocaust survivor,
and I can say my own name.
I love the Mother because she saved my life
and protected me all these years.
I know the strength of her word,
her teachings.
They have held my hand for so long,
but what she taught me you can’t find in a book,
not even hers.
Deities make mistakes,
and avatars ruin,
and in order to change ourselves we must see that
to understand what we’re up against.

The whole paradox of creation comes down upon our head
when the actual change comes about,
to keep it from coming about,
and you can hightail it and run back to Houston,
or you can bear the impossible.
A stallion of waves stampede,
and you’re just everybody,
and no wave can block your tide.
My deep thought Auroville,
can yah folla me here?

Look at Pearls on the Mountaintop

I’m a bleeding article from your last test,
a hyper-hypotenuse.
I say the line.
It’s a dynamic field.
We don’t get there soon.
We don’t even see it for awhile.
I hate to be the seeding can.
I’m not celebrated in the streets.
I can’t get my name across to change the world,
but I tell you where God’s made,
Mr. and Mrs. People.

God grows distant here.
I am so tired of institutions.
The institutions of marriage and family break our social fabric
in adhesive bonds.
We can’t get away from them.
They test our social fabric
with what can’t be named,
a guttural possessiveness that puts us all in hordes.
We tarry there
eating each other alive.
It’s needed for our ship,
a family of parents that brings kids into the world.
It’s not what we need to survive.
It’s what we need to get rid of
as the managing arm of society,
as our social fabric dies.

We can’t raise kids that way:
listen to me or die.
My life you have made whole by your coming,
and I will rub your nose in it all life long.
You can’t be free from me
where you go against my purpose for your life,
my need you for my own ends.
Society balks at this:
give that child freedom
to manage freedom.
Why must he live his parents’ life?
Why must she be the daughter of their destiny?

Why do we have to do this all the time:
uphold the parents’ rights
to determine the will of their child?
Can you count this
in terms of freedom?
Step back parent
and let your child play outside
no rulers present,
no supervisor gag models.
Alarming this is
on humanity’s plate:
Big Brother rules the child
just in everyday parenting.

The fear of outside unsupervised doors,
sex resides there, doesn’t it?
Your fear of sex rules the show.
Your fear of sex rules everything.
They get scared
of their own front teeth
we put sex trafficking models on them,
a child molester behind every bush.
They don’t know what it means to be normal
with the fear the news media raises.
Add that to their own possessive accounts,
the parent that raise them,
to guard that child at all costs
from perceiving another parent in someone else,
and you just explode at the seams
with a child that can’t reckon itself,
and they will grow up unable to handle society.

A new institution will make the new man.
A small group of people family size
will orchestrate the new human being.
They still visit their families
every damn week,
maintain those close ties,
but any kid that can relate a dream,
old enough to,
becomes part of a dream group
their dream calls them to.
This is a sadhana watch ladies and gentlemen,
and a handful of people call its name.
They are near the child’s home
forming all the time.

It’s what society does now,
spiritual growth.
No clogs in the machine,
children will grow up to change the world.
A spiritualized society
comes about from its own accord.

It rises from the soul in things,
and we almost see glimpses of it now.
No government can put this in place,
nobody that makes steps the criteria to get there,
and no organization makin’ people do it.

I’m a sadhana watch ladies and gentlemen
speaking its piece,
and we’ve lost our youngest member
to parental overreach,
Nithish,
a prototype of the new human being.
His stuff is on the web for you to watch.
His tale is told
in these crawl spaces of his life.
Jealous of the songs he was makin’,
jealous of the music,
his parents made a big mistake.
They tried to take out his soul
in great abusive waves
that tore down his life.
No reason for this
except jealousy.

It’s heartrending.
Their cruelty destroyed him,
and he was left a nervous wreck
scared they would smother him in his sleep.
In such an environment he turned off the new human being.
Betrayed by God,
whom he adored,
he stood helpless facing time
a growing rage against the machine.
Parental rights determined all,
why I’m fighting for his life.
You hear me now, don’t you?

I can’t do it anymore,
just stand by and write poems.
I’m a half today.
The other half is his,
and we make a whole of action.
Finally, inevitably,
we come together on freedom.
Hear us Lord?
It’s Your horse we ride
the day we certainly dare,
the day we certainly keep.

Divine Guidance Fills the Room

Stop trying to send it,
the right posture.
I’m a dog.
I can’t handle this.
I just know I’m sick.
I don’t know what to do with you.
You are too big for me,
and I am so out of place
I look for you.

What is the background ruler?
You’re in my consciousness a healing element all the time.
You have your episodes.
You’re trying to heal me.
You see my pain.
I don’t know what to do about it.
Not being able to tell my mother
that you are good for me
is my special cowardness.

She doesn’t understand.
She could care less what you feel.
Her hatred is so intense it scares me,
and why did it suddenly come?
She’s not the right person for it,
remove you from the scene.
She can’t even do it.
Okay do I need you?

You are my living defense,
no matter what I do to you.
You have love in the places I hurt you.
Why can’t I do that?
Do you know that I’ve thrown you out in the street?
I do not place my hand on phone calls.
I am through you with you,
finished,
but I don’t know how to do that.
You’re so alive in me.
You’re so there.

What do I do about you?
I keep asking that question.
You are so there for me I can hardly believe it.
You can call yourself love.

A fine touch on that consciousness
I have started your hand.
You will bring him back to you shortly.
He loves you so very much.
I understand your misgivings about Us.
We must seem horrible,
and you don’t know the reasons for things,
and you don’t know how to tell the muse.
It just runs with things
and gives them pass.
Your hopes and fears are a coloring sensation.

Now what’ve We done here?
How have We surrounded you with Nithish?
You will greet him you will see him you will be with him
in some short meeting on the way.
This has got you down
because it hasn’t happened
and looks like it never will.
You think this present attempt has failed,
and you’ve started your hunger strike
by announcing it on the news,
not yet though in your arms.

You’re sure right about one thing:
We’ve messed up with Nithish.
We don’t know how to lift him.
We don’t know how to care for him.
There is too much in the way.
We don’t work directly on people.
We send them influences,
suggestions.
We don’t make them act.
We can do nothing with this boy.
He does not field Us.
He is too scared and alone,
and he won’t listen to you.

That’s texture,
and he needs your paste creamy and smooth,
like you gave in the lucid dream
where you held him so tenderly.
Every chance you’ve had with him,
you’ve messed it up.
You are in the same shape he’s in,
unable to handle things,
a filibuster,
and Sandiya revels in this,
like you’ve suddenly lost your mind:
“See there! See there!”
Is that what the boy thinks?
He knows you’re dad.
You’re not given any slack.
Every mistake you make is exploited
for political gain,
and it’s not fair.

We’re tryin’ to arrange a room
where you and the boy can meet,
and there’s no one there yellin’ at yah
or tellin’ him what to say.
That’s Our next move.
Please be patient with Us,
as we take these world forces
and put them together.
They may not work.

This is terrible sweetheart,
and I know it,
but We’re lendin’ a helpin’ hand.
Can you come with Me I’m sorry?
You just want the boy in your arms,
and we’ve got to get back to a sadhana room.
You got so close
last time,
so very close.

If You Want a Triumphant

Grace is the next world’s railways.
We will be happy there.
What stark sun is this?
Sometime soon.
Your energy
is a witness to it.
You’ve combined the opposites,
and it doesn’t bother you.
Asiya attests to that.
You were soft ice cream,
and he ate it up.
You’ve got the leeway,
and you’re holdin’ down the fort.
You’ve good.
You’re learnin’ your trade.
You’re doin’ it
great football fields wide.
You’re not a son of a bitch.
Let’s bubble up some
and just sit in bed and bask awhile.

We build yellow houses.
We construct them with wood.
Then we lay them down,
over and over again.
This is our construction process
on the bails of thought.
We feel them into being.
This rides our day,
one thought after another,
day by day.
It’s ice cream.
Did somebody say favorite food?

We are housed here,
and a thought is a mop bucket,
cleaning out what’s after.
A thought is a huge thing,
all naked and wood.
It’s already occurred
before we think it out.
We go over it and over it.
We do not stop.
We never go away from this.
Bails upon bails of thought we make,
freight trains through our minds.
Let go of this,
and you’ll be in thin wood.
You’ll cake on yourself.
It’s where the balls are
that we retrieve into Silent Mind.

Now here’s the house
God lives,
you see the Self in.
It’s awesomely deep,
wrapped around with nothingness,
where the engines of the universe play.
You are a copter upon yourself,
brooding wings of infinity.
It lasts an hour or a day,
until it turns off no more.
I arrive at thought
the master of the plan.
I think upon myself
in large ways.
I go there:
I don’t handle thought
for a little while.

But Silent Mind don’t ride my days.
I’ve stumbled upon it
a time or two.
We have to be clear we were formin’ enlightenment.
Have you ever had that thought?
Grapple with it now.
Do you know it’s there
what we arrive to next
in our identity plan?
Hey kids this is not enlightenment.
We’re becoming something you see,
and we need Silent Mind to get there,
a formless identity
we shoulder to Supermind,
the God inside.
An overhead kingdom sits there,
and this is the fullness of ourself,
God identity,
at this stage of the game.
You can imagine more.

So where does Silence put us?
Right slap dab in the middle of it.
And then?
We plant our feet on planet Earth,
and Supermind comes down to meet us
at the ascending pole
of our effort.
Then we’re cosmic complete,
bigger than the cosmos,
not in size in weight.
We are the springboards of the universe.
The universe comes from us.
I’ve been there once.
I’m not just makin’ up plans.

Did I have to say all this
to get your head straight
on Silence?
I don’t think you understand me.
I’m bleeding concepts in the room,
like cosmic means somethin’.
Where do you go on Silence?
A round chair,
and so many people just sit there.
Who wants to go higher?
Bliss is satisfied.
Do you want to go higher?
Ramana Maharshi didn’t.
We all do eventually.
When you learn about it it’s there,
a belief castle.
Before that no one’s ever heard about it.
I’m taking you there,
balloons overhead,
Somethin’s up there you know.
It’s the origin of the universe.
Said it all.

Don’t forget your ambition for thought.
You wanna get into the Silence.
You wanna dip your head into the Silence.
Catch it,
you’re gonna hit
the ground of the universe
a hat infinity.
Now that red apple pierces your skull
vibratory nature.
You hum big church
all around your brow.
It’s so comfortable there and smooth.
No I with its busy notions
disturbs that room,
not a thought one.
You’re reside in silence.
This is awesomely big.
You can’t figure it out
from here.
It’s totally other being
inside a body here on Earth.

You last awhile,
and then the cosmos lapses into itself.
You’re there yet?
You will be once.
You’ll get there soon.
It’s every death journey’s hand.
We take off the ego you know
and get down to science.
It’s what we do there.
It comes along
to take us to Heaven and beyond,
and you think it’s a stranger?
We’ve sauced this out so many times,
death, upon death, upon death.
We’re there now
underneath it all.
It’s raw, basic awareness,
cosmic size.

Now why have I shown this to you?
You think AI will get you there?
Where do we put Silence on?
In our own room,
a listen to ourself,
no bowls of media present.
Do you know how precious this is,
guided by your own mind?
It’s stage one.
Come on mountain let’s go.

Now in the vibration room
each vibration opens
a little central veeter
that respond directly to sunlight.
Okay, okay, okay,
look I get it.
Almost reaction,
because I’m slaying.
You don’t know this stuff.
It looks easy,
if you vie for it,
but let’s face it this is tops
that a human could do,
your golden Mars,
but they lost this
and ruined their civilization.
How hard it is,
you got nothin’ harder in human.

To know directly,
what do we see?
Obviously it’s not videos.
It’s contemplation’s circle,
there in your room,
when you’re filmin’ God.
Where do we begin?
The first photo please.
A beggar
down and out on reality’s pole.
You see from there
what God looks like,
and He would not be tall and kind.
He would be a braggart in His room.
We don’t stop the vision there.
That man don’t see straight.
He has eyes of sufferin’.

Lift God up from there.
Are you okay with what He does to people?
Are you okay with this vice?
I couldn’t back up to you God.
I couldn’t stand in His way.
The significance
of beggars breathes awhile.
We can’t get at it there.
We can’t even try.
Let’s beanpole reality,
and it gets bigger all the time.
Let’s do something about it.
Let’s see God there
addressing Himself.

Is that okay?
We’ll be building a teenager.
We’re gonna get him all soft in his room
to carry the day.
We’re gonna wean him some,
from do this for him do that,
so he can carry the divine.
We will be gentle with him
and put him on his own attention,
where he needs to be
more than computers handles
and where the cellphone rides.
This is not ice cream and cake.
We will pill him
with just enough books
to get his writing going.
He’s a poet of the divine,
gets whole poems
from the inner voice.
We were surprised as he was.

Now we have a responsibility
to see this through.
My consciousness opened his.
We’re everlastin’.
That means we give this boy a good shot
to grace him with infinity
and keep his eyes on God,
not the stuff in his room.
I’m right there by ‘im,
holdin’ his hand.
A Green Beret on duty,
I’m a sergeant sometimes,
but I’m not mean.
I can certainly improve.
Now let’s stand down
the poem I’m giving you.
It means somethin’
to the order of the day.
God bless you.
photo by the author

In the Arena of This World

feature image by Mithun

Is that the dynamic?
We choir now.
He’s so little he expands your room.
Settled in myself to eat,
that’s the flavor of sadhana,
and we enhance.
It’s an inner journey.
We go for it.
It’s an inner cleaving.
We humble ourselves and do it.
It rebounds.
It grabs yah.
It’s an opening
you do when you’re hungry.
You’re hungry for God’s touch. [“Open to God’s touch” heard during darshan in the Mother’s room, and then the muse changed it as I walked down the stairs so it fit this poem that was coming as I waited for the room darshan and went through the line in and out of her room, the most of this verse, from the eat line, coming in that quiet activity on her death day]
This is the lifeline.
This is sustenance.

Try to prevent a fracture in sadhana,
a more sustained doing might do so.
I’m sure I belong there.
You’re here.
I don’t think we take the vital out of our room.
The right vital comes out.
The mystic of the flute lives on
on ocean’s rainbow.
[vision of an Indian-style key, the long variety, on the step of a concrete, light blue flight of stairs about two thirds up]
A key,
it’s hard to report
their bouncing effect.
You throw them away.
You don’t know how to use them.
You pour beer over them,
vital indulgences.
Now one comes.
Open its window.
Be there in the sky for it
all active on time.

[four visions, two side by side then the other two the same, of strange, colorful scenes I could not make out they happened so fast]
We interrupt your dream venture
to put you in touch with yourself.
You don’t know yourself.
I think you use a sadhana watch,
and they won’t fool you.
They tell it like it is.
You’re out to lunch,
and that other one’s over there
not climbing the street right.
You need each other to focus,
a small sum of human beings,
no more than a handful.
You fit.
You share similar interests.
You live in close proximity.
You can’t digital do this
as a group
come together.
Get real with one another,
nice and kind and polite,
not tryin’ to pass up one another,
not tryin’ to be mean.

[vision of Lisa, my deceased Rottweiler, curled up against an urban wall in a dog ball but her head up and looking at me, sadly]
Titties suck my dear.
You don’t get out of them what you need.
They’re not your bread and butter.
They test and try you,
as humans do.
Romantic love is hard to motion here.
I think you’re friends,
deeply connected,
why you come together,
how you come together.
You’ll recognize this in dreams.
You move on one another
in the friendship relationship of a dream.
You’re bonded.
It’s great to be together.
This gets deeper.
You family one another.
Respect this group.
Leaving it’s a soul’s choice.
It’s not based on petty arguments.
You will go to school together
learnin’ sadhana.

All your dreams come together in the group.
Everyday you share them,
work out meaning,
time.
This grows.
You do this all the time.
The inner relationship’s happenin’.
Now you go together
to sadhana central.
You want to do sadhana all the time.
A minute don’t go by without it.
It’s your mainstay.
It’s your life’s blood.
It’s what’s you’re doin’ in life.
You keep at it.
You keep goin’.

A small circle/handful of people [words spoken simultaneously]
do nothing else.
This is the basis of life.
It’s everywhere apparent.
It’s how you concentrate.
It’s there all the time,
always concentrating.
It gathers you.
It puts you in touch with yourself
so you see what you’re doin’.
No tellin’ where you are with yourself.
It could be at the beach.
It could be in metallurgy.
You could be climbin’ buildins,
playin’ in the street or in front of a crowd.
You’re always concentratin’
whatever you do.
The mind’s the game.

Now what does that what you see in your mind carry,
a present moment swirl?
You do there
concentrate.
Where do you put the bubble?
On higher than yourself.
You’re tryin’ to reach divine.
It’s the major of your focus,
connection,
contact.
You know the divine’s right there in front of you.
Keep the world relatin’ in that key,
and everything you do will be fine.
That’s the secret of sadhana.

I’m just ruined today.
Nobody knows me under.
I deal out cards
of bright shiny poems.
It’s just a reader’s poem with no readers.
Bad material I guess,
or awful writing.
My room is a way station and a promise.
I’ll hit the right note one day.
Sadhana science,
how do I show this to you?
Where do I go to show this to you?
It’s a concentration in your head
you stay clean for.
If I told you about the troubles.
I still go to college.
I got spirits in my head and they won’t go. [heard sung by The Strumbellas, “Spirits”]
You know I’m hearin’ muse.
This is a dictated poem.
You’re all fired up.

Wanna say somethin’.
It’s about the city of concentration.
I think I’m learnin’ to keep the mind quiet
not on external things,
and that time is optimized for sadhana.
These are the thoughts think about,
and you go from there,
put your own larger list together.
What is infinity?
What’s the nature of the universe?
Does God care?
What will lift my room?
Do I get larger than time?
Can I feel the feelings of another
through brands of consciousness?
What is the thought that stops thought?
Am I showin’ you how to think?
You’re up there
where thought meets the sky,
your husband.
Do you hear that?
We treasure this present moment
our thought taking us skyward,
and we are passive to that reach.
You put the perspective on that.
To those lonesome memories,
you’re naked to the eternal now.
Feel them that way.

Now we’ll repellant.
Thought gets in the way.
It’s not what you wanna do all the time.
You want to be clear certain purpose.
That’s a way of hold your mind
no words
or images.
Smoking the cigarette of thought,
chewing it out
like a stick of gum,
these are brands you wear.
They spend and they disease.
You don’t have to think.
I’m learnin’ not to.
It’s so much clearer in there.
When I go to sleep
I’m not a crybaby.
Monster in those movies.

I handle sleep.
I’m waking up on the hub of dreams.
I try to retrieve them,
or I’m writing a poem,
and it continues.
I spend my nights this way,
in a wakeup mode going back to sleep.
I get about six hours
all told,
seven
on this night and that.
My wakeup periods are long.
Like I say I’m writing muse
as the night bells ring,
or I’m layin’ there
where quiet meets my mind,
pullin’ on the length of dream.
That’s a sadhana sleep.
It gets you in touch with the day.
That’s been the content of the night,
if you know how to read your dreams.
Turn around and face tomorrow
your dreams carry you too,
and they show you yesterday
to know what’s goin’ on.
There’s just so much to dream,
but it arms you for the day.

And now you’re ready
to step out into the world
a sadhana-go-round.
Keep it simple,
keep it clean,
your honeydew in the world.
Behaviors lead to sadhana,
or they refuse it.
You’re a sadhana keeper.
Always remember that.
It won’t go away.
Like it can never reject you.
I don’t care how reprobate you are,
sadhana’s there for you.
It will carry you through the storm.
It will clean out your act.
You’ll get better because of it.
Just keep goin’.
Let it fill your room.
Don’t shy away from it
because you think it’s judging you.
It is always there to pick up.
It understands your needs
and will help you fill them properly.
It’s the intention that counts,
the attitude.
Keeping your mind quiet on the divine,
that’s your smelling salts.
It’s how you save your life.

If you’re an ordinary sucker,
you’ll have a harder time.
You gotta get naked.
You gotta take off all those clothes,
get down to your primal need
to fill your life with God.
One episode
of you are so filled,
just one time and
take this book with you for the rest of your life,
and you will do sadhana,
can’t help but to;
it’s in your nature now.

Everybody wants to know the nature of progress.
You love people,
identify with everything.
You’re not a grouch or a scrooge.
You’re good to be with,
not demanding or mean.
You listen to people.
It’s not all about you.
I don’t think you make people feel uncomfortable,
but you do challenge them
by the obvious depth you live.
You call to people,
not with your eyes your shoes.
That means you don’t mess with them.
You tend to prefer quiet
comin’ to the head,
not hours and hours of music
or all this environmental stimuli.
You like nature,
raw and clean.
Walks accompany your day,
walks through nature
where you can find it.
An animal can climb aboard.
You’re a big bucket of love
that knows how to pour itself.

This is what we know of love:
rape and murder,
and love’s right there with yah.
No one took the sign off you need to be loved.
All this spiritual growth sees that.
You love everybody you come into contact with.
You know what you love them for:
love heals things,
makes people better.
I don’t think you can fake this very much.
Spend some time with someone and see.
Alright spiritual advanced person,
let me count your love,
not anything else.
I wanna see yah love.
I think the whole point
of our spiritual shoes,
we get to know love.
A great big sadhana bring that out.

I’m a terrible husband—
this is the spiritual call.
I think sometimes it walks on your soul.
I don’t know how to explain this to you.
You’d think all would be right with the world.
You’re torn asunder.
You’re made to do things you don’t like.
They gravity of the situation just eats you alive.
You obey the call,
like I’m doin’ now.
You picked the wrong time
to blast a hole in my shoes.
I’m a servitor of divine will.
I’m servin’ everybody not sinnin’,
and here I am expose myself
to your wrath.
You’re not a noble person.
I’ve seen what you do to people.
You don’t love them atall.
So my head’s on the chopping block
the reality poem,
and here I am
giving you my bread
for the umpteenth time.
You’d think I’d had enough by now.
Anyway here it is,
a poem where you can do yourself
and make the world ring,
even if no one hears it,
and they just think the worst of you.

They’re not snow that’s obvious.
He seems to have a sadhana
that doesn’t get any kickback in return.
He doesn’t get validated
except by his team.
He is treated like everybody’s pariah.
His sadhana circle listens to him,
and others are few and far between.
He’s a real human being.
He got okay
on the wheels/wings of his sadhana. [words spoken simultaneously]
You have it now.
Reader
this is not brag or boast about.
This is the path to divine consciousness
and younger,
and you’re gonna need a little younger.
Open it.

A lot depends on the soul change.
When you’re young,
and you soul mother
in hospital,
we’re goin’ in some shockin’ of yours.
Well he quoted us all trying to see her.
You look like you losing what did you lose?
The ability to stay awake in dream.
You can’t do that,
let’s tend silly here.
It’s not your job to fight the Minotaur.
That your job,
trigger lucidity
captain this ship.
God dog does that look handsome!
Some fancy’s got you hooked.
You’re standing on the ability
to move on dreams.
Just get out of here.
Take your consciousness
and try it out.
You can go up and in from there,
up to the higher consciousness,
in to the soul.
Try it out.
See how far you get.
Obstacles determine pathway,
and you see what’s limiting you.
You really can get there from here.

Dream is a doorway
where you get started
to open the inner consciousness,
and there your sadhana rides
in its most visible form.
You need this
to survive.
Burn out early
if this is just all in your head.
The inner consciousness will take you there
to all the meanings you have missed,
to your direction of travel,
and you’ll see the divines involved with you
and get into soul things.
It’s your guidebook.
It’s your lamp.
Your teachers talk to you through there.
It’s a daily dose of miracle,
and it moves your sadhana along
a fresh start everyday.
This is the major element most sadhanas miss,
and we’re callin’ on yours
in league with the world.
I’m sure you got questions.
Begin.

Alright Donny there’s a truth to tell.
You’re bein’ spying on inside.
The thoughts get yah.
Oh she’s memorable wearin’ them thoughts.
All these thoughts on God culminate in that one.
When the bough breaks, [heard sung, nursery rhyme]
and you enter Silent Mind.
These are the memories to feel now,
the character
of enlightenment,
regardless of your pain inside,
of the happenstance of chance,
the resistance futile.
Go for it baby.

Keep the light goin’.
Don’t go to sleep.
Don’t her give up on that sadhana.
You have a world to change.
Say the same here.
We’ve got our heads out for miracles.
That’s a world line.
Can you show this to us sweetheart?
I’ll be back in about five minutes.

I’ve got tools for you.
I’m gonna use them first,
grow up Nithish.
It’s the army in the game,
and I’m a former Green Beret sergeant to show them to yah.
Not so hard on the kid,
but he’s gonna lesson.
There’s just too much soft flesh there
video game mode.
Cheerio.

This blog is not just to put my stuff on.
My blog is clear your highway.
Stop defending yourself.
What?
Skin spots are really easy to spot.
You have to come over here
so I can help you.
One by one they ran away from my house.
Can’t figure out.
I had given you really good soul stuff.
Her whole house was zoom zoom zoom,
and you’ve got a literature there tomorrow
to bring to temple.
Come in.
photo by Donny

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