Get her to speak with me.
Ger her to understand
her fear of losing Nithish
makes her abuse Nithish.
She says she’s stopped beating him?
It’s not a conscious choice she makes.
She gets angry
and loses control of herself
and beats him.
It’s her character.
He will tell that.

Now, about abuse:
she will not let him see me,
even for a short visit,
so to abuse him for preferring me over her.
Yes momma I’m happy with you.
What he’s really saying:
yes momma I’m scared of you.
Why won’t he mention daddy?
Why won’t he fight for the right to see daddy?

I cannot speak of him
in front of you,
and I’m on his side.
You don’t understand I cannot speak.
The fear of you is so big inside,
the fear of you mother,
who has beat me, slapped me, brainwashed me
for these past two months,
so much so I cannot even speak,
physically cannot speak,
on daddy’s side
in front of you.
I am too scared of you.

Now Sandiya is this my muse talking or is this Nithish?
Are you hiding from yourself the truth?
Nithish loves you but prefers to be with me.
Nithish is happy with me.
He is not very happy with you.
Nithish wants to live with me
and visit you.
These things are facts
in that boy’s mind and heart,
and stop lying to yourself about it.
He feels that way.

When you make him speak against his will,
you smother his identity and abuse him.
Abuse is more than the hit of a hand
or the handle of a genital.
It’s forcing that child to do things against his will.
It’s suppressing him own identity.
It’s not letting him be who he is.
It’s making him be who you want him to be.
You are so self-satisfied,
so sure you have his loyalty,
but when you kept him from even greeting me,
after two months of such emotional torment,
his and mine,
you crossed the line.
He will tell on you now.
Wait and see.

But why does it have to come to that?
Can you just put a stop to your hate and desire for revenge?
Can you consider the welfare of your child
more than you needing your child?
Can you do what’s best for Nithish?
You know that is seeing and being with me.

It doesn’t mean he’s not with you.
It just means your fantasy that he’s your baby is not true.
He’s his own self
and is too big to be someone’s baby.
I am a man,
and at his age,
he identifies with more with males.

His father has been a weekend dad all his life.
I have been with that boy hundreds of days more than his father,
and whatever you say about the boys I’ve raised,
Sundar is a murderer.
He has killed at least four people my advocate told me.
What a role model for Nithish,
and now he’s using his gang
to threaten Asiya,
to beat him up or even kill him,
and you yourself Sandiya are giving that threat.
What business is this for good parents?
That is evil and you know it.
Asiya did not hurt you,
did not give you heart pain or grief,
only helped me to ease mine,
to do the right thing
and help Nithish and I see each other,
and you know that is good and proper in God’s eyes.

Can I show you a hidden example?
A mutual friend Sudhan,
you gave him a story to give to me.
Call up daddy.
Tell him you went in my house for a drink of water.
Nithish was there alone.
Tell him you asked Nithish about daddy.
Nithish said I only love my mother,
and I don’t care about anything else,
a blatant big lie,
a spinning web of psychological manipulation.
Now Sudhan told me you had him do this to me.
Imagine what you are doing to Nithish.
This is just one example.
When this is over,
people will come forward with more.
You’re being evil Sandiya,
just evil.

You are willfully being bad,
as bad as you can to me,
for reasons I don’t clearly understand.
You would kill me if you could get away with it.
That’s how much you hate me.
Is it at bottom
really because
Nithish prefers me
to you?
Is that the reason for all this hate?

Now pull him up on the carpet.
Ask him to reassure you again
how much he loves you.
How many times have you done that?
Do you chose me over daddy, do you chose me over daddy,
do you chose me over daddy?
He’s very afraid of you.
He will tell you whatever you want to hear,
because he’s scared of you,
not because he loves you.
You say if he spent time with me away from you
he would change his mind.
What does that mean?
He would realize how he truly feels,
and you are scared of that?
You are not secure in his loyalty to you,
are you?

In the eyes of God,
please,
allow Nithish and I to see each other without your interference,
just for a short time the first time.
Then we can go from there,
and we can make peace again in our family
for the children’s sake.
It’s up to you Sandiya.
It’s your decision.
You hold the power
for now.
Will you do what’s right?

Hear a dog’s life.
We question Nithish.
He’s on the short end of the stick at home,
the author of all these Facebook problems.
He’s in trouble.
He suffers so much for loving me.
His mother ruins him for it.
What can I do but cry?

Okay I have the strength of poetry,
and I’m using it for Nithish.
You think I’m stupid,
a fool,
just some crazy old man?
I love my boy,
and if it comes to that
I will lay down my life for him
to get him the help he needs.

He’s lost so much weight.
He looks hollow and empty inside
by the look on his face.
I hear his behavior is erratic.
He’s volatile and tells lots of lies.
He’s not sure of himself.
A personality change has occurred
since he was taken from my home
a happy and plump little boy.
The mother is ignoring this,
his state,
his rapid deterioration.

To anyone that confronts her
about letting the boy see me,
she’s flies off the handle
and screams at them to stay out of it,
even to close relatives.
That’s the mother he has.
Now that’s Sandiya.
Can you please help?